MR 5 - salvation

[Eliza Orlins]

before the immunity challenge



that was a good day in japan. that was probably the best day i've had in japan so far, at the end of it anyway. maybe when i got back in, rivals that, but not really because all i felt after that was nervousness. i feel a great sense of calm... and relaxation... after yesterday.

yes, it was the best day in japan. but it had it's valleys... like right after the vote, talking to monica... and right before the vote, talking to jane... i started feeling genuinely GUILTY. very very guilty. guiltiest i've been yet, other than when i had to tell alexis i was voting jaime.


i believe i have played a BIG part in the elimination of the biggest players in the game... other than monica, of course. sexy monica



now i believe i deserve jury. that's one of the parts that makes yesterday the happiest day. before then, i didn't think i deserved jury... for anything other than confessional posts and just being like a big character... now i feel like i deserve it for my gameplay, too. which is the best reason to make all stars. i deserve it ENOUGH, based on gameplay, anyway. i'm not gonna say i'm the greatest, but now i wouldn't feel like it's unfair to invite me, if i get invited. and that's really goooooooood.



now, for the second part of what happened yesterday that makes it so happy. and the biggest reason i feel that sense of calm i mentioned...



after the vote, monica got really mad at me. and at alexis, apparently. but then shortly after that, her and jane offered alexis and i a final 4 deal, which alexis wants to take. and i do too because if i am involved in a pair, the safest way to approach the end is with another pair. clearly. otherwise you get to final 5 and kinda put yourself in a really bad position... now, i could go with tyrone and marcus, as like a pair, but i dont like talking to marcus.


i had a conversation with jane and i enjoyed it, thoroughly. she talks at a good pace, keeps conversation flowing, and seems like a real person with interesting things to say. so, if the alliance is not real... too bad. it is the alliance i prefer, because everyone in it is someone i like. though i dont really know jane yet, i cna tell i will like her if i get the chance to get to know her better.





i dont really trust the alliance. as far as my life in the game goes... i need to make that clear. but do i ever trust anything? lol... i dont even trust alexis... but i don't need to.

i DO trust that the alliance will be good for alexis. much better for her than marcus or tyrone would be, that's for sure.






i'm gonna start my convo posting today with the talk i had with fairplay immediately after the vote, to get that part out of the way:


November 10, 2010
mymiddlefingr (5:21:28 PM): so, before the deadline gets here
mymiddlefingr (5:21:30 PM): if ur around
mymiddlefingr (5:21:38 PM): should i keep my vote on tyrone?
mymiddlefingr (5:21:44 PM): or did it change or anything while i was working?
mymiddlefingr (6:29:46 PM): posted
mymiddlefingr (6:29:47 PM): done
Johnnyfairplay64 (6:37:31 PM): you know
Johnnyfairplay64 (6:37:57 PM): why
mymiddlefingr (6:38:26 PM): becaus
mymiddlefingr (6:38:29 PM): eyou had time to diss alexis
mymiddlefingr (6:38:34 PM): but only enough time to make excuses to me
mymiddlefingr (6:38:38 PM): everytime i tried to talk to you
mymiddlefingr (6:38:42 PM): after i saved your ass
mymiddlefingr (6:38:45 PM): you were not ther
mymiddlefingr (6:38:52 PM): ebut EVERYONE else told me you were stil ltalking to them
mymiddlefingr (6:38:54 PM): that is why
mymiddlefingr (6:39:11 PM): 30 seconds is all it takes to say "yah i'm thinking tyrone"
mymiddlefingr (6:39:16 PM): or "i dont know who the vote is"
mymiddlefingr (6:39:24 PM): instead, u decided to READ my PMs, but not answer
mymiddlefingr (6:39:28 PM): and then jsut talk to everyone else
mymiddlefingr (6:39:31 PM): and when i blew up at monica
mymiddlefingr (6:39:34 PM): and gave yo uthe chance
mymiddlefingr (6:39:44 PM): nothing
mymiddlefingr (6:39:46 PM): always, nothing
mymiddlefingr (6:39:55 PM): so... i cant go with someone who wont even give me thirty seconds
mymiddlefingr (6:40:00 PM): sad thing is, i LOVE monica
mymiddlefingr (6:40:02 PM): but you and jane
mymiddlefingr (6:40:04 PM): ruined it for her
Johnnyfairplay64 (6:42:02 PM): ... always nothing?
mymiddlefingr (6:42:19 PM): compared to everyone else
Johnnyfairplay64 (6:42:22 PM): this round maybe
mymiddlefingr (6:42:23 PM): i was the vote
mymiddlefingr (6:42:28 PM): when jaime left
mymiddlefingr (6:42:29 PM): that was me
mymiddlefingr (6:42:31 PM): that did that
Johnnyfairplay64 (6:42:35 PM): yea it was
mymiddlefingr (6:42:36 PM): otherwise it would have been you
Johnnyfairplay64 (6:42:39 PM): then I put pressure on me
mymiddlefingr (6:42:44 PM): all i wanted was as much as monica got
mymiddlefingr (6:42:54 PM): or as much as alexis got
mymiddlefingr (6:43:05 PM): or as much as anyone else got
Johnnyfairplay64 (6:44:09 PM): but
Johnnyfairplay64 (6:44:30 PM): if you're gonna be butthurt because I didn't talk to you that much this round, it says something about your charater
Johnnyfairplay64 (6:44:37 PM): marcus was a good ally of mine
Johnnyfairplay64 (6:44:56 PM): sure we didn't talk much, but he always trusted me and I trusted him
Johnnyfairplay64 (6:45:05 PM): now this last round he felt betrayed, fine
mymiddlefingr (6:45:23 PM): thing is tho
mymiddlefingr (6:45:24 PM): i told you
mymiddlefingr (6:45:26 PM): last round
mymiddlefingr (6:45:33 PM): i gave you plenty of warning
mymiddlefingr (6:45:36 PM): that i was getting uneasy
mymiddlefingr (6:45:39 PM): abt never talking
mymiddlefingr (6:45:48 PM): and all it woulda taken was like 1 minute
mymiddlefingr (6:45:51 PM): to PM me back
mymiddlefingr (6:45:55 PM): maybe even 30 seconds
Johnnyfairplay64 (6:52:22 PM): *sigh*
Johnnyfairplay64 (6:52:25 PM): alright
mymiddlefingr (6:52:31 PM): sorry
Johnnyfairplay64 (6:52:35 PM): don't be
mymiddlefingr (6:52:41 PM): it's just... i cant work with someone i cant talk to
Johnnyfairplay64 (6:52:45 PM): I should've put more time aside for ya eliza
Johnnyfairplay64 (6:53:10 PM): this 13 hour a day work week definitely kicked my ass
Johnnyfairplay64 (6:53:15 PM): cold didn't help much either XD
Johnnyfairplay64 (6:53:27 PM): I'm sorry E
mymiddlefingr (6:56:14 PM): ... awwwww
mymiddlefingr (6:56:19 PM): jeez dont say sorry to me!
mymiddlefingr (6:56:21 PM):
Johnnyfairplay64 (6:56:30 PM): I have to
Johnnyfairplay64 (6:56:54 PM): it just makes you look like the asshole, its all PR stuff ya know?
Johnnyfairplay64 (6:56:57 PM): lol
mymiddlefingr (6:57:15 PM): exactly
mymiddlefingr (6:57:17 PM): ur right
Johnnyfairplay64 (6:58:58 PM): ^^
Johnnyfairplay64 (6:59:02 PM): just do me one thing
Johnnyfairplay64 (6:59:07 PM): keep fighting the good fight alright/
mymiddlefingr (6:59:44 PM): i will
mymiddlefingr (6:59:47 PM): well i mean, i'll try
Johnnyfairplay64 (6:59:50 PM): ^^
Johnnyfairplay64 (6:59:56 PM): good enough for johnny fairplay doll
mymiddlefingr (6:59:58 PM): i've been mentally exhausted since i got here
mymiddlefingr (7:00:05 PM): nothing personal
mymiddlefingr (7:00:06 PM): i hope


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it was kinda a dickish convo, on my part.

notice the thing i said in the TC thread right after the votes were revealed? "there. done." or something...


THAT is dickish. for real.





i said it for a reason, by the way.












he's gonna use my neediness to talk to people and stuff against me if i make final tribal council. i am fairly certain. which is a HUGE thing because it speaks to the annoyingness factor of my personality. and if people stop to think about it, it really illustrates an important lacking aspect of my social game play... confidence. it will show i lack confidence in myself, and in my moves... and in my decisions. and in my ALLIES. which will lead to my flip-flopping to the opposite side with every vote i've cast so far. this will be hugely detrimental if i make the finals.




now, the conversation i was having with jane, as the votes were about to be read and then immediately after:


November 10, 2010
mymiddlefingr (5:45:51 PM): hey
Janebrighty (5:46:47 PM): Hello
mymiddlefingr (5:47:04 PM): sorry to bug ya
mymiddlefingr (5:47:15 PM): i dont have a lot of time...
mymiddlefingr (5:47:20 PM): so just let me sorta get to the point
mymiddlefingr (5:47:36 PM): i'm worried abt you coming after me for the last two rounds
mymiddlefingr (5:47:40 PM): i voted tyrone
mymiddlefingr (5:47:47 PM): i'm just... really hoping you did the same
mymiddlefingr (5:48:02 PM): i voted tyrone because monica wanted me to
mymiddlefingr (5:48:26 PM): and i'm not coming after you next round or anything, either, i promise
mymiddlefingr (5:48:29 PM): i just wanna...
mymiddlefingr (5:48:34 PM): bury whatever i did, that made you dislike me
mymiddlefingr (5:48:42 PM): if at all possible, i'd like to work through it
mymiddlefingr (5:48:45 PM):
Janebrighty (5:49:01 PM): UFf, hold on.
Janebrighty (5:49:09 PM): Let me catch up cus i was reading something.
mymiddlefingr (5:49:19 PM): ya sorry i kinda posted a LOT at once right there
Janebrighty (5:50:11 PM): Well, i wont tell you what im going to do for tonight.
Janebrighty (5:50:26 PM): After that, we'll talk it out.
Janebrighty (5:50:35 PM): And i dont dislike you Eliza, i really dont.
mymiddlefingr (5:50:43 PM): okie... well that's good
mymiddlefingr (5:50:51 PM): DISLIKE is the thing i am worried abt
mymiddlefingr (5:51:03 PM): wanting to vote me and stuff, i dont really mind, it's a game
mymiddlefingr (5:51:12 PM): and i had to say your name once as well
Janebrighty (5:51:15 PM): Hehe, i dont dislike you.
mymiddlefingr (5:51:15 PM): to try and save myself
mymiddlefingr (5:51:23 PM): so... it's really even in that sense
mymiddlefingr (5:51:30 PM): thnx you for not personally disliking me
mymiddlefingr (5:51:47 PM): i don't dislike you either (however i dont even know you so... lol)
Janebrighty (5:52:05 PM): Hehe, this is a game.
Janebrighty (5:52:09 PM): Nothing personal, at all
mymiddlefingr (5:52:10 PM): exactly!
mymiddlefingr (5:52:11 PM):
Janebrighty (5:52:23 PM): Im sure we'll be good friends after all this is over =)
mymiddlefingr (5:52:36 PM): hopefully!
mymiddlefingr (5:52:48 PM): i mean, if u get me out right now, i'm gonna congrats you
mymiddlefingr (5:53:05 PM): so, that's all that really matters
mymiddlefingr (5:53:23 PM): if i AM still around by some weird miracle after this...
mymiddlefingr (5:53:37 PM): i would LOVE to try and work stuff out
Janebrighty (5:54:06 PM): Fair enough
mymiddlefingr (5:57:14 PM):
mymiddlefingr (5:57:26 PM): btw sorry if any of my PMs soudned bitchy or anything
mymiddlefingr (5:57:38 PM): i was trying to not be mean, but at teh same time say i knew you were trying to get me out
mymiddlefingr (5:57:41 PM): if that makes sense
Janebrighty (5:59:39 PM): Its ok
mymiddlefingr (6:03:19 PM): okie deadline passed
mymiddlefingr (6:03:26 PM): now, i have to say
mymiddlefingr (6:03:31 PM): since we cant change our votes anymore
mymiddlefingr (6:03:37 PM): if u do get me out, i am voting for you
mymiddlefingr (6:03:44 PM): UNLESS you are against fairplay in the end
mymiddlefingr (6:03:53 PM): then i have to vote fairplay, otherwise, u got my jury vote
Janebrighty (6:03:58 PM): Ok
Janebrighty (6:06:47 PM): I appreciate that.
mymiddlefingr (6:07:22 PM):
mymiddlefingr (6:07:37 PM): i appreciate you not being hostile at me
mymiddlefingr (6:07:41 PM):
Janebrighty (6:07:45 PM): Lol, why would i?
mymiddlefingr (6:07:56 PM): i dont know, some people get really weird
mymiddlefingr (6:08:02 PM): take it too personally and stuff
Janebrighty (6:08:46 PM): Lol, yeah
mymiddlefingr (6:10:47 PM): will u be on till after the votes are read?
mymiddlefingr (6:10:50 PM): so i can congratulate you
mymiddlefingr (6:10:52 PM): LOL
Janebrighty (6:10:59 PM): Im not sure
mymiddlefingr (6:10:59 PM): (sorry i am pessimist)
mymiddlefingr (6:11:00 PM): lol
Janebrighty (6:11:01 PM): Damien is online.
Janebrighty (6:11:09 PM): Dont be too certain about it Eliza
Janebrighty (6:11:14 PM): Anything can happen still.
Janebrighty (6:11:22 PM): If you survive, i will congratulate you.
mymiddlefingr (6:11:29 PM):
mymiddlefingr (6:11:48 PM): most interesting tribal council for me yet
Janebrighty (6:11:55 PM): Pretty much.
mymiddlefingr (6:12:09 PM): have u played for a long time?
mymiddlefingr (6:12:11 PM): like ORGs?
Janebrighty (6:12:26 PM): Oh, i have.
Janebrighty (6:12:34 PM): But this is my only game in almost 6 months
mymiddlefingr (6:13:17 PM): awesome
mymiddlefingr (6:13:24 PM): i just came out of "retirement" myself
Janebrighty (6:13:54 PM): Oh, thats good too
Janebrighty (6:16:35 PM): BTW, if you see results dont tell me.
Janebrighty (6:16:40 PM): I wanna see it myself.
mymiddlefingr (6:17:19 PM): okie
mymiddlefingr (6:17:20 PM): same here
mymiddlefingr (6:17:23 PM): good luck
mymiddlefingr (6:17:28 PM): taking me out i mean
mymiddlefingr (6:17:30 PM): not surviving
Janebrighty (6:17:32 PM): Lol
mymiddlefingr (6:17:33 PM): i know u wont get any votes
Janebrighty (6:17:36 PM): Good Luck surviving
Janebrighty (6:17:43 PM): Lol, oh well :\
mymiddlefingr (6:17:48 PM): so marcus, tyrone, fairplay, alexis, you
mymiddlefingr (6:17:50 PM): and who else?
mymiddlefingr (6:17:58 PM): LOL
Janebrighty (6:18:02 PM): What do you mean?
mymiddlefingr (6:18:11 PM): voted me?
mymiddlefingr (6:18:12 PM): LOL
mymiddlefingr (6:18:19 PM): i'm jsut guessing, dont worry
mymiddlefingr (6:18:19 PM):
Janebrighty (6:18:29 PM): Oh
Janebrighty (6:18:36 PM): Well, i think Alexis, Marcus, Tyrone and Myself.
Janebrighty (6:18:44 PM): As far as im concerned.
Janebrighty (6:18:52 PM): But who knows, it may be me
Janebrighty (6:18:52 PM): Lol
Janebrighty (6:18:57 PM): Expect the unexpected
mymiddlefingr (6:19:04 PM): it's not you
mymiddlefingr (6:19:16 PM): i know that
mymiddlefingr (6:28:15 PM): posted
mymiddlefingr (6:28:29 PM): no spoliers
mymiddlefingr (6:29:57 PM): tell me when ur done
Janebrighty (6:30:04 PM): Haha!
Janebrighty (6:30:10 PM): Nicely done fellas!
Janebrighty (6:30:11 PM):
mymiddlefingr (6:30:33 PM): thnx u
mymiddlefingr (6:30:34 PM): finally
mymiddlefingr (6:30:37 PM): first time i voted him too
mymiddlefingr (6:30:37 PM):
mymiddlefingr (6:30:42 PM): monica is gonna hate me
mymiddlefingr (6:30:43 PM):
Janebrighty (6:30:47 PM): Lol
Janebrighty (6:30:53 PM): Well, i guess im next
mymiddlefingr (6:31:16 PM): nonono
mymiddlefingr (6:31:18 PM): not in my books
mymiddlefingr (6:31:22 PM): monica's after me
Janebrighty (6:31:34 PM): She is after you?
Janebrighty (6:31:42 PM): But she wasnt the one to vote for you.
mymiddlefingr (6:31:48 PM): i know
mymiddlefingr (6:31:49 PM): you were
mymiddlefingr (6:31:51 PM): but she will be now
mymiddlefingr (6:31:57 PM): everyone probly will be
Janebrighty (6:47:33 PM): Oh well, i guess my days are counted.
mymiddlefingr (6:48:31 PM): ...
mymiddlefingr (6:48:36 PM): i... dont know what to say
mymiddlefingr (6:48:42 PM): i dont know what i did to you originally
mymiddlefingr (6:48:46 PM): to make u vote me least deserving
mymiddlefingr (6:48:49 PM): and target me every round
mymiddlefingr (6:48:58 PM): when all i was doing was trying to work with y'all
mymiddlefingr (6:49:03 PM): but i have nothing against u still
Janebrighty (6:49:06 PM): THIS ELIZA!
Janebrighty (6:49:11 PM): What you just did now~
Janebrighty (6:49:19 PM): The fact that you are one hell of an smart unpredictable player!
Janebrighty (6:49:22 PM): Thats what you did to me,
Janebrighty (6:49:28 PM): I didnt dislike you
Janebrighty (6:49:32 PM): In fact i like you very much
Janebrighty (6:49:38 PM): But you are threatening to me.
Janebrighty (6:49:46 PM): You are capable of pulling moves without others noticing.
Janebrighty (6:49:53 PM): You are slowly making your way up and up.
Janebrighty (6:50:01 PM): And thats the only reason i wanted to stop you.
Janebrighty (6:50:50 PM): Like really.
Janebrighty (6:53:01 PM): There?
Janebrighty (6:53:14 PM): Lol sorry, i know now how you felt when i didnt respond.
mymiddlefingr (6:57:46 PM): sorry
mymiddlefingr (6:57:50 PM): reading now
mymiddlefingr (6:58:08 PM): i see
mymiddlefingr (6:58:19 PM): that's not why i didn't respond
Janebrighty (6:58:21 PM): So yeah, thats the reason.
mymiddlefingr (6:58:24 PM): i got like... a lot of people talkign to me
mymiddlefingr (6:58:28 PM): well.. thnx u
Janebrighty (6:58:29 PM): Oh, lol.
mymiddlefingr (6:59:18 PM): okie so...
mymiddlefingr (6:59:24 PM): jeez...
mymiddlefingr (6:59:31 PM): see if i'd known that's why
mymiddlefingr (6:59:35 PM): i'm just used to being hated
mymiddlefingr (6:59:38 PM): like personally disliked
Janebrighty (6:59:54 PM): Lol, why?
mymiddlefingr (7:01:07 PM): i dont know
mymiddlefingr (7:01:10 PM): this thing i guess
mymiddlefingr (7:01:20 PM): lying...
Janebrighty (7:01:32 PM): Oh.
Janebrighty (7:01:33 PM): I see
mymiddlefingr (7:01:44 PM): well not really
mymiddlefingr (7:01:49 PM): cause it usually happens BEFORE then
mymiddlefingr (7:01:59 PM): so i dont really know
mymiddlefingr (7:02:00 PM):
mymiddlefingr (7:02:42 PM): actually i usually get "most annoying", "biggest liar"... all thatstuff
mymiddlefingr (7:02:55 PM): i'm shocked this time all i got was a three way tie for least deserving
mymiddlefingr (7:04:05 PM): so ummmmmm...
mymiddlefingr (7:04:13 PM): anyway... i dont really know what to say right now
mymiddlefingr (7:04:19 PM):
mymiddlefingr (7:07:59 PM): i guess all i can say is...
mymiddlefingr (7:08:14 PM): dont hesitate to talk to me if you have any ideas or anything
mymiddlefingr (7:10:02 PM): i gtg tho... sorry for being unresponsive tonight. after all my talk abt that, i dont like to have done it myself



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[Eliza Orlins]

and here's the conversation i was having with alexis right before the votes were read, and immediately after:


November 10, 2010
mymiddlefingr (5:58:58 PM): hey sorry to bug you as soon as u get one
gamerkennyhoang (5:59:08 PM): whats up
mymiddlefingr (5:59:07 PM): there is only two minutes left, jane says ur voting against me
mymiddlefingr (5:59:14 PM): everything is cool right?
mymiddlefingr (5:59:46 PM): ...
gamerkennyhoang (5:59:55 PM): yeah
mymiddlefingr (5:59:57 PM): okie cool
mymiddlefingr (5:59:59 PM):
mymiddlefingr (6:00:03 PM): what a bitch
gamerkennyhoang (6:00:06 PM): i told her i would vote you with marcus and tyrone
gamerkennyhoang (6:00:15 PM): but told marcus and tyrone that it was just to shut her up
gamerkennyhoang (6:00:21 PM): and fairplay is the plan
gamerkennyhoang (6:00:25 PM): and marcus agreed
mymiddlefingr (6:00:31 PM):
mymiddlefingr (6:00:54 PM): all right deadline
mymiddlefingr (6:00:58 PM): my vote was for fairplay
gamerkennyhoang (6:01:08 PM): k
mymiddlefingr (6:01:12 PM): so you think monica and fairplay are voting me with jane?
gamerkennyhoang (6:01:18 PM): no
gamerkennyhoang (6:01:24 PM): they think its tyrone
mymiddlefingr (6:01:26 PM): just curious, i know you wouldn't prbly knwo for sure... oh cool
mymiddlefingr (6:01:29 PM): awesome
mymiddlefingr (6:01:36 PM): sorry i was away all day, trying to catch up quickly
mymiddlefingr (6:01:52 PM): so jane might vote me?
mymiddlefingr (6:01:55 PM): and the others might vote tyrone?
mymiddlefingr (6:02:00 PM): that would be funny as hell
gamerkennyhoang (6:02:03 PM): yeah we are good
mymiddlefingr (6:02:18 PM): now that the vote deadline is in, i gotta tell ya something funny
gamerkennyhoang (6:02:24 PM): lol
gamerkennyhoang (6:02:26 PM): uhh
mymiddlefingr (6:02:25 PM): in my confessional, i wrote out this theory...
mymiddlefingr (6:02:30 PM): that i have that you were gonna vote tyrone
mymiddlefingr (6:02:37 PM): to alienate me from monica
mymiddlefingr (6:02:41 PM): and get closer to her
gamerkennyhoang (6:02:44 PM): shit i forgot my confessional
mymiddlefingr (6:02:48 PM): just cause i am super paranoid
mymiddlefingr (6:02:53 PM): maybe write osmething now real quick?
gamerkennyhoang (6:02:56 PM): im writing it right now
mymiddlefingr (6:02:59 PM): good good
gamerkennyhoang (6:05:38 PM): did they ever give out the awards
gamerkennyhoang (6:05:52 PM): oh nvm
mymiddlefingr (6:05:57 PM): lol
mymiddlefingr (6:09:21 PM): i honestly think fairplay will use the idol
mymiddlefingr (6:09:39 PM): i hope you and me are still in it afterwards, and tyrone is out, if i am right with my pessimism
mymiddlefingr (6:14:49 PM): hey if i win in namibia
mymiddlefingr (6:14:53 PM): who are you?
mymiddlefingr (6:14:58 PM): so i can kidnap you
gamerkennyhoang (6:16:06 PM): oh
gamerkennyhoang (6:16:06 PM): uh
gamerkennyhoang (6:16:10 PM): Jenna
gamerkennyhoang (6:16:15 PM): i gave up
gamerkennyhoang (6:16:17 PM): it was so hard
mymiddlefingr (6:16:21 PM): oh i see
mymiddlefingr (6:16:26 PM): well i'll kidnap u if i win
mymiddlefingr (6:16:29 PM): doubt i will tho
gamerkennyhoang (6:18:01 PM): so
gamerkennyhoang (6:18:07 PM): wonder how long
gamerkennyhoang (6:18:09 PM): we'll have to wait
gamerkennyhoang (6:18:12 PM): for the results
mymiddlefingr (6:18:26 PM): i know
mymiddlefingr (6:18:28 PM): it's killing me
mymiddlefingr (6:18:29 PM):
mymiddlefingr (6:18:31 PM): monica is online
gamerkennyhoang (6:18:36 PM): damien is online
mymiddlefingr (6:18:37 PM): she's gonna be PISSED at me even if i go home
gamerkennyhoang (6:18:46 PM): lol
gamerkennyhoang (6:18:51 PM): Jane is going ot be pissed at me
mymiddlefingr (6:19:22 PM):
mymiddlefingr (6:19:28 PM): well, we have our enemies then
gamerkennyhoang (6:20:02 PM): yup
mymiddlefingr (6:20:13 PM): if this works...
mymiddlefingr (6:20:21 PM): and fairplay goes, evne if he doesn;t and i stay
mymiddlefingr (6:20:24 PM): you can blame it on me
mymiddlefingr (6:20:29 PM): you can sya like... i pushed you into it
mymiddlefingr (6:20:31 PM): or whatever u want
gamerkennyhoang (6:20:34 PM): it doesn't matter
mymiddlefingr (6:20:33 PM): jsut so ya know
gamerkennyhoang (6:20:36 PM): i made the move
gamerkennyhoang (6:20:43 PM): i wanna take credit for it too
mymiddlefingr (6:21:23 PM): oh yeah definately
mymiddlefingr (6:21:30 PM): however you want it to look
mymiddlefingr (6:21:33 PM): is how it will look
gamerkennyhoang (6:21:51 PM): lol k
mymiddlefingr (6:23:23 PM): by the way
mymiddlefingr (6:23:28 PM): if results get posted and i dont notice
mymiddlefingr (6:23:31 PM): dont tell me what happened
mymiddlefingr (6:23:36 PM): just say results posted or whatver
gamerkennyhoang (6:23:55 PM): haha okay
gamerkennyhoang (6:23:56 PM): same here
gamerkennyhoang (6:24:09 PM): damien is on i think
mymiddlefingr (6:24:11 PM): yep he is
mymiddlefingr (6:24:17 PM): *trembles*
gamerkennyhoang (6:24:19 PM): tell him to post them lol'
mymiddlefingr (6:24:25 PM): lol!
mymiddlefingr (6:24:45 PM): almost done he says
gamerkennyhoang (6:24:54 PM): sweet
mymiddlefingr (6:25:22 PM): adding votes now he says
mymiddlefingr (6:25:24 PM): omfg
gamerkennyhoang (6:27:10 PM): lol
mymiddlefingr (6:27:59 PM): previewing
mymiddlefingr (6:28:01 PM): omg
gamerkennyhoang (6:28:08 PM): ?
mymiddlefingr (6:28:10 PM): posted
gamerkennyhoang (6:28:15 PM): there up
gamerkennyhoang (6:28:21 PM): no spoilers lol
mymiddlefingr (6:29:13 PM): done reading?
mymiddlefingr (6:29:52 PM): tell me when
gamerkennyhoang (6:30:06 PM): done
mymiddlefingr (6:30:11 PM): hahahaha
mymiddlefingr (6:30:12 PM): fucker
mymiddlefingr (6:30:14 PM): nice!
gamerkennyhoang (6:30:18 PM): it worked
gamerkennyhoang (6:30:41 PM): *fist pump*
mymiddlefingr (6:30:49 PM): fist pump
mymiddlefingr (6:30:51 PM): omfg!
mymiddlefingr (6:30:54 PM): we did it
mymiddlefingr (6:31:03 PM): you outlasted fairplay!
mymiddlefingr (6:31:08 PM): AND everyone from ur original camp
mymiddlefingr (6:31:09 PM): hahahaha
mymiddlefingr (6:31:12 PM): ur the best!
gamerkennyhoang (6:32:12 PM): haha
gamerkennyhoang (6:32:18 PM): thanks your doing good too
mymiddlefingr (6:32:38 PM): were you the CYAN vote?
gamerkennyhoang (6:32:46 PM): yeah
mymiddlefingr (6:32:53 PM): what does it mean?
gamerkennyhoang (6:33:37 PM): he screen shotted Cyan... for his color
gamerkennyhoang (6:34:01 PM): instead of blue
mymiddlefingr (6:34:32 PM): LOL
mymiddlefingr (6:36:56 PM): oh my god i loveeeeeeeeeee you
gamerkennyhoang (6:36:57 PM): Monica is pissed lol
mymiddlefingr (6:36:59 PM): ya i know
mymiddlefingr (6:37:05 PM): she's telling me to explain myself
mymiddlefingr (6:37:10 PM): i am gonna try to patch it up the best i can
mymiddlefingr (6:37:12 PM): but... doubt it
gamerkennyhoang (6:37:19 PM): k
gamerkennyhoang (6:37:26 PM): i still awnt to go with her to the final four
gamerkennyhoang (6:37:30 PM): but she doesn't trust us
mymiddlefingr (6:41:16 PM): i know
mymiddlefingr (6:41:18 PM): i want to as well
mymiddlefingr (6:41:20 PM): that's the thing
mymiddlefingr (6:41:24 PM): why i was soooo... not sure
mymiddlefingr (6:41:34 PM): i dont wanna vote her next tho
gamerkennyhoang (6:41:40 PM): me neither
mymiddlefingr (6:41:41 PM): tyrone and marcus are super close
gamerkennyhoang (6:41:49 PM): she doesn't really have a choice
mymiddlefingr (6:43:16 PM): i know
mymiddlefingr (6:43:19 PM): you need to be...
gamerkennyhoang (6:43:21 PM): she's going if she doesn't vote with us
mymiddlefingr (6:43:21 PM): the nice one
mymiddlefingr (6:43:27 PM): if possible
mymiddlefingr (6:43:30 PM): 'll be the ummmm...
mymiddlefingr (6:43:32 PM): hahahahaha
mymiddlefingr (6:43:33 PM): one
mymiddlefingr (6:43:36 PM): if that makes sense
mymiddlefingr (6:43:47 PM): you should try and be the one she actually trusts
gamerkennyhoang (6:45:40 PM): haha
gamerkennyhoang (6:45:54 PM): she doesn't trust me that much
mymiddlefingr (6:47:10 PM): well...
mymiddlefingr (6:47:15 PM): get her to trust you more than me
mymiddlefingr (6:47:16 PM):
mymiddlefingr (6:47:22 PM): it shouldnt be hard
gamerkennyhoang (6:47:23 PM): k
mymiddlefingr (6:47:29 PM): i had like an hour long convo last night with her
mymiddlefingr (6:47:38 PM): that made her feel SUPER safe
gamerkennyhoang (6:47:52 PM): nice
mymiddlefingr (6:50:56 PM): wow
mymiddlefingr (6:51:00 PM): i am in soooooooooo much shit
mymiddlefingr (6:51:02 PM): from everyone
gamerkennyhoang (6:51:10 PM): lol
gamerkennyhoang (6:51:13 PM): girl alliance
gamerkennyhoang (6:52:25 PM): we got final 3
gamerkennyhoang (6:53:04 PM): Tyrone goes, Marcus goes
gamerkennyhoang (6:53:19 PM): then either Jane or Monica... prolly Monica unless she wins
mymiddlefingr (6:54:22 PM): i'm good with that
mymiddlefingr (6:54:29 PM): from here on out
mymiddlefingr (6:54:41 PM): you get the calls
gamerkennyhoang (6:54:57 PM): lol k well dont be afraid to check some offers
gamerkennyhoang (6:54:59 PM): gtg
gamerkennyhoang (6:55:00 PM): ttyl
gamerkennyhoang signed off at 6:55:03 PM
mymiddlefingr (6:55:09 PM): okie cool
mymiddlefingr (6:55:11 PM): ttyl hun!


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and so there ya go. this is what i am now doing, for better or for worse...




before i go any further, i need to say... i can't find this chat, but marcus brought myself and alexis into a group chat right after fairplay went home and told us how we needed to do eveyrhting in our power to make sure monica lost this next immunity then we could all vote her out. we agreed, obviously, and just went on about or own business.... then marcus was talking to me, privately... and her, and jane... here's the convo he had with me,... i might as well post it, as well as a tiny little bit from today, since i'm posting everything:

mymiddlefingr (6:16:01 PM): did u vote me with jane?
mymiddlefingr (6:16:12 PM): LOL
mymiddlefingr (6:16:16 PM): just curious
dinkii3 (6:18:44 PM): of course no
mymiddlefingr (6:18:48 PM): good good
mymiddlefingr (6:18:51 PM): she says ya'll did
mymiddlefingr (6:18:54 PM): but i dont believe her
mymiddlefingr (6:18:55 PM):
dinkii3 (6:18:55 PM): she wants u out soo bad
dinkii3 (6:18:56 PM): idky
mymiddlefingr (6:19:35 PM): she has for awhile
mymiddlefingr (6:19:40 PM): she actualyl told me straight out
mymiddlefingr (6:19:43 PM): y'all voted me and i'm gone
mymiddlefingr (6:19:45 PM): lol
mymiddlefingr (6:19:49 PM): i hate her now
mymiddlefingr (6:22:27 PM): hmmmmm... hurry up and post results, damien!
mymiddlefingr (6:22:45 PM): by the way, if i DO go out... just want you to know, monica wants u out next
mymiddlefingr (6:22:49 PM): so... be VERY careful
mymiddlefingr (6:22:52 PM):
dinkii3 (6:28:56 PM): u are not going home
mymiddlefingr (6:29:16 PM): done reasing?
dinkii3 (6:29:17 PM): my plan since next round was tot ake monica out
mymiddlefingr (6:29:20 PM): YES
mymiddlefingr (6:29:21 PM): YES
mymiddlefingr (6:29:22 PM): we did it
dinkii3 (6:29:24 PM): she is a threat
mymiddlefingr (6:29:25 PM): we took him the fuck out
mymiddlefingr (6:29:26 PM): finally!
dinkii3 (6:29:27 PM): and she wants u out
mymiddlefingr (6:29:29 PM): i LOVE you
dinkii3 (6:29:29 PM): too
mymiddlefingr (6:29:31 PM): i know
mymiddlefingr (6:29:32 PM): i want her out
mymiddlefingr (6:29:36 PM): we need to win immunity!
dinkii3 (6:37:16 PM): haha yes
dinkii3 (6:37:19 PM): why eliza wants me out ?
dinkii3 (6:38:43 PM): a mean monica
dinkii3 (6:38:44 PM): lol
dinkii3 (6:45:32 PM): ....
dinkii3 (6:45:34 PM): ?
mymiddlefingr (6:46:18 PM): ummmmm
mymiddlefingr (6:46:23 PM): she says ur close to tyrone
mymiddlefingr (6:46:25 PM): i dont know
dinkii3 (6:46:50 PM): blah
mymiddlefingr (6:46:52 PM): she told me we need to get rid of you or tyrone cause u guys are super close
mymiddlefingr (6:46:55 PM): but i know that's not true
mymiddlefingr (6:47:01 PM): well, you may be close with tyrone
mymiddlefingr (6:47:03 PM): but you and me are closer
mymiddlefingr (6:47:04 PM):
dinkii3 (6:47:08 PM): hahaha
dinkii3 (6:47:11 PM): people dont know that
dinkii3 (6:47:16 PM):
dinkii3 (6:47:24 PM): we are sucj a fucking beast
dinkii3 (6:47:26 PM): such
dinkii3 (6:48:13 PM): i wanted to safe tyrnone because he is not a threat to no body
mymiddlefingr (6:52:52 PM): exactly
mymiddlefingr (6:52:57 PM): no one saw it coming
mymiddlefingr (6:52:59 PM): fuck em all
mymiddlefingr (6:53:07 PM): they voted us the least deserving you know?
mymiddlefingr (6:53:10 PM): you, me, and tyrone
mymiddlefingr (6:53:14 PM): tied for least deserving
mymiddlefingr (6:53:16 PM): so fuck them
dinkii3 (6:56:11 PM): lol
mymiddlefingr (7:02:08 PM): holy christ
mymiddlefingr (7:02:11 PM): lol sorry
mymiddlefingr (7:02:14 PM): i am still shaking from that
dinkii3 (7:02:47 PM): ....?
dinkii3 (7:02:50 PM): what
mymiddlefingr (7:03:08 PM): the tribal
mymiddlefingr (7:03:13 PM): i thought fairplay would use his idol
dinkii3 (7:07:22 PM): he has an idol ?
mymiddlefingr (7:07:32 PM): well i mean, he had that box from monica
mymiddlefingr (7:07:39 PM): which i was convinced had an idol in it
mymiddlefingr (7:07:42 PM): but who knows
dinkii3 (7:07:43 PM): yeah but we dont know lol
dinkii3 (7:08:10 PM): anyways it was a big move
mymiddlefingr (7:08:38 PM): totally!
mymiddlefingr (7:09:09 PM): i gotta go
dinkii3 (7:09:17 PM): ok
mymiddlefingr (7:09:22 PM): talk when i get back
mymiddlefingr (7:09:27 PM): ur the best!

[Eliza Orlins]

i was soooooooooooooooo afraid of hurting monica's feelings. not afraid of her lashing out back at me or anything... just... guilty... and afraid it'd hurt her like personally, like it was attack on her, personally.



so at first it was bittersweet. very anti-climactic. fairplay's gone, his name is in yellow... yay... i still felt bad.








it would not have been near as happy a day as it turned out to be without the next series of conversations taking place...



starting wit hthe convo i had with monica right after the votes were revealed, and then another convo with her that happened a bit later... sorry there's not a lot of drama here, as i kinda expected there to be... to me it's a good thing but it's not as fun to read as it coulda been, lol:


UblazRob (8:28:08 PM): Hey.
mymiddlefingr (8:28:12 PM): ...
UblazRob (8:28:13 PM): Alright, I'm done being pissed off.
mymiddlefingr (8:28:25 PM): ya...
mymiddlefingr (8:28:29 PM): really, take as long as you need
UblazRob (8:28:32 PM): Nope.
UblazRob (8:28:37 PM): I'm a grown man.
UblazRob (8:28:39 PM): It's a game.
UblazRob (8:28:47 PM): And, as long as it's not me next
UblazRob (8:28:50 PM): I have no reason to be mad.
mymiddlefingr (8:28:57 PM): i'd have taken it worse than you, then
UblazRob (8:29:01 PM): I was gonna take out Fairplay myself next round anyway
UblazRob (8:29:07 PM): So all you did was beat me to the punch
UblazRob (8:29:39 PM): *shrug*
UblazRob (8:29:50 PM): So let's move on.
mymiddlefingr (8:29:54 PM): all right
UblazRob (8:30:06 PM): Alexis and Jane want an all girls final four.
UblazRob (8:30:10 PM): Or so they've told me.
UblazRob (8:30:22 PM): Can I trust you to stick with a deal like that?
mymiddlefingr (8:30:23 PM): i think that's what alexis said to me before she left
mymiddlefingr (8:30:33 PM): i was ... in the midst of talking to everyone at once tho, after that
UblazRob (8:30:56 PM): Well, that's what she told me.
UblazRob (8:31:00 PM): So unless she's lying to me again
mymiddlefingr (8:31:37 PM): i feel very let down by that whole thing
mymiddlefingr (8:31:41 PM): so whatever really
UblazRob (8:31:44 PM): What whole thing?
mymiddlefingr (8:31:51 PM): the whole fairplay thing
mymiddlefingr (8:32:03 PM): i dont feel like i accomplished anything now that it's done
UblazRob (8:32:37 PM): I dunno
UblazRob (8:32:40 PM): You got Marcus to hate me.
UblazRob (8:32:52 PM): Totally kneecapped ME.
UblazRob (8:32:57 PM): Made Jane look like an ass.
mymiddlefingr (8:33:06 PM): ya well
UblazRob (8:33:07 PM): If nothing else, you drastically increased your chances of winning
mymiddlefingr (8:33:10 PM): i gave her every chance
mymiddlefingr (8:33:23 PM): i think if it weren't for her i'd have voted with you
mymiddlefingr (8:33:32 PM): i kept trying
mymiddlefingr (8:33:33 PM): over and over
UblazRob (8:33:35 PM): ...
mymiddlefingr (8:33:36 PM): to just get her to...
mymiddlefingr (8:33:37 PM): talk
mymiddlefingr (8:33:39 PM): and be honest
mymiddlefingr (8:33:47 PM): like...
mymiddlefingr (8:33:52 PM): i dont know
mymiddlefingr (8:34:03 PM): up untill this round i was being 100% honest with you
mymiddlefingr (8:34:11 PM): and i just thought her and i would be together too cause of that
mymiddlefingr (8:34:35 PM): sorry
mymiddlefingr (8:34:39 PM): i'm not over it yet myself
UblazRob (8:35:08 PM): Not over what?
mymiddlefingr (8:35:12 PM): god i thought he was gonna have something
UblazRob (8:35:12 PM): You DID this
mymiddlefingr (8:35:15 PM): i know
mymiddlefingr (8:35:18 PM): that's what i'm not over
UblazRob (8:35:20 PM): It's not like someone betrayed YOU
mymiddlefingr (8:36:01 PM): i know
UblazRob (8:36:21 PM): So I don't really know what you have to 'not get over'
mymiddlefingr (8:36:30 PM): i suck here
mymiddlefingr (8:36:33 PM): everything i do
mymiddlefingr (8:36:38 PM): ends up being the wrong move
UblazRob (8:36:48 PM): Well, yeah, not gonna lie, betraying your biggest ally is usually stupid.
UblazRob (8:37:10 PM): And when that ally says "I'm still willing to work with you"
UblazRob (8:37:18 PM): Saying "I don't know what to do now"
UblazRob (8:37:24 PM): Is usually not what they want to hear.
mymiddlefingr (8:37:31 PM): okay
mymiddlefingr (8:37:34 PM): i'll be with you
mymiddlefingr (8:37:40 PM): fuck the game anyway
mymiddlefingr (8:37:46 PM): it's just a major mind fuck for me
mymiddlefingr (8:38:03 PM): i can't play these games and start to actually like someone
mymiddlefingr (8:38:08 PM): cause then i get all screwed up
mymiddlefingr (8:38:34 PM): sorry
mymiddlefingr (8:38:35 PM): i'll shut up
UblazRob (8:38:40 PM): No, it's fine.
mymiddlefingr (8:38:46 PM): no i'm just rambling
UblazRob (8:38:53 PM): Well, imagine you don't like me.
UblazRob (8:38:55 PM): What would you do?
mymiddlefingr (8:39:29 PM): try and take you out
mymiddlefingr (8:39:36 PM): cause whether i throw immunity or not
mymiddlefingr (8:39:40 PM): i will always lose
mymiddlefingr (8:39:43 PM): no matter what
mymiddlefingr (8:39:47 PM): 100% of the time
mymiddlefingr (8:39:49 PM): you will beat me
UblazRob (8:40:02 PM): Well... k
mymiddlefingr (8:40:11 PM): i dont know
mymiddlefingr (8:40:23 PM): what would i do if i didn't like u?
mymiddlefingr (8:40:34 PM): how can i really answer that?
mymiddlefingr (8:40:46 PM): what would i do if i liked fairplay?
mymiddlefingr (8:40:50 PM): i dont know
UblazRob (8:40:51 PM): Alright, fine
UblazRob (8:40:59 PM): What are you gonna do, is really my question
mymiddlefingr (8:41:23 PM): i'm going to agree to work with you, and give you what you need to make the choice urself
mymiddlefingr (8:41:29 PM): either work with me
mymiddlefingr (8:41:34 PM): or go tell marcus and tyrone what i said
UblazRob (8:41:38 PM): Well, can I trust you?
mymiddlefingr (8:41:40 PM): and vote me out
UblazRob (8:41:49 PM): Should I trust you?
mymiddlefingr (8:41:52 PM): now that fairplay is gone, yes
UblazRob (8:42:14 PM): Really?
mymiddlefingr (8:42:19 PM): because now i dont feel so worried
UblazRob (8:42:20 PM): What if I'm friendly with Jane?
mymiddlefingr (8:42:30 PM): i dont know
mymiddlefingr (8:42:33 PM): you told me what jane was saying
mymiddlefingr (8:42:39 PM): i didn't feel as threatened by her
mymiddlefingr (8:42:44 PM): well i mean
mymiddlefingr (8:42:50 PM): when she said she wanted me out, you told me
UblazRob (8:42:53 PM): Alright.
mymiddlefingr (8:42:59 PM): i dont know if fairplay ever said he wanted me out
UblazRob (8:42:59 PM): Well, if you're in for the final four deal
mymiddlefingr (8:43:00 PM): or anything
UblazRob (8:43:02 PM): Then I am too
UblazRob (8:43:07 PM): But I swear
UblazRob (8:43:12 PM): If you betray me again
UblazRob (8:43:23 PM): My jury vote will 100% go to someone else
mymiddlefingr (8:43:43 PM): i dont want ur jury vote
UblazRob (8:43:54 PM): Okay
UblazRob (8:43:55 PM): Then
UblazRob (8:43:57 PM): If you betray me again
mymiddlefingr (8:43:59 PM): just... being honest
UblazRob (8:44:01 PM): I'm changing my avatar
mymiddlefingr (8:44:04 PM): lol
mymiddlefingr (8:44:10 PM): that's funny
UblazRob (8:44:21 PM): But, honestly
mymiddlefingr (8:44:24 PM): i'm not saying don't vote for me to win
mymiddlefingr (8:44:27 PM): but i'm not playing for jury
UblazRob (8:44:29 PM): You'd have to be the biggest idiot in the world to betray me again.
mymiddlefingr (8:44:30 PM): no one will bring me to the end
UblazRob (8:44:31 PM): Seriously.
mymiddlefingr (8:44:33 PM): i promise you
UblazRob (8:44:37 PM): I've been this loyal to you
mymiddlefingr (8:44:39 PM): not alexis even
UblazRob (8:44:49 PM): And if you damn well don't trust me NOW?
UblazRob (8:44:53 PM): Then you can't trust anybody ever
UblazRob (8:45:02 PM): Because I'm being like the best ally in the whole damn world to you right now
mymiddlefingr (8:45:02 PM): but i dont need to go to the end
mymiddlefingr (8:45:09 PM): that's the thing
mymiddlefingr (8:45:16 PM): i dont need to trust you to breing me to the end
mymiddlefingr (8:45:22 PM): i only want final 4
UblazRob (8:45:31 PM): Well... I want to win.
UblazRob (8:45:39 PM): And I want you in the final 3 with me.
mymiddlefingr (8:45:41 PM): and i trust that your deal with me as far as that goes is real
UblazRob (8:45:51 PM): ...which doesn't mean that I think I'll beat you
UblazRob (8:46:02 PM): Hell, as I said, you totally kneecapped me
UblazRob (8:46:10 PM): So now it'll look like you dragged me to the finals
mymiddlefingr (8:46:33 PM): lol... it would if you lost an immunity
UblazRob (8:46:42 PM): Oh, I will.
UblazRob (8:46:44 PM): Make no mistake
UblazRob (8:46:49 PM): Nobody ever plays a perfect game.
UblazRob (8:46:53 PM): I have never seen it happen.
mymiddlefingr (8:46:59 PM): ya... maybe
mymiddlefingr (8:47:04 PM): i believe u will
UblazRob (8:47:07 PM): I pretty much guarnatee you
UblazRob (8:47:10 PM): I'm gonna lose this next one.
mymiddlefingr (8:47:21 PM): well i will be on 24 hours if it's posting
UblazRob (8:47:21 PM): And when I do
mymiddlefingr (8:47:23 PM): cause i need it
UblazRob (8:47:27 PM): It's gonna be my ass
UblazRob (8:47:31 PM): The hell?
UblazRob (8:47:33 PM): You don't need it
UblazRob (8:47:35 PM): I need it.
mymiddlefingr (8:47:45 PM): well if we keep our word to eachother, niether of us needs it
UblazRob (8:47:48 PM): Jane's not even after you any more
mymiddlefingr (8:47:54 PM): she isn't?
mymiddlefingr (8:47:56 PM): jeez
mymiddlefingr (8:48:00 PM): finalyl when she isn't she says she is
mymiddlefingr (8:48:03 PM): LOL
UblazRob (8:48:28 PM): XD
UblazRob (8:48:35 PM): No, Jane knows that she needs you
mymiddlefingr (8:49:01 PM): lol
mymiddlefingr (8:49:03 PM): the thing is
mymiddlefingr (8:49:05 PM): none of you need me
mymiddlefingr (8:49:09 PM): if i lose this... just saying...
mymiddlefingr (8:49:13 PM): y'all have so much on me already
mymiddlefingr (8:49:17 PM): i've been so in deep with you
mymiddlefingr (8:49:23 PM): you could get me out in a heartbeat
mymiddlefingr (8:49:43 PM): but...
mymiddlefingr (8:49:49 PM): i'm glad she thinks that
UblazRob (8:49:53 PM): Umyeah
UblazRob (8:50:05 PM): I've been Tyrone's target for like ever
UblazRob (8:50:12 PM): I kinda don't think he'll randomly vote you
mymiddlefingr (8:50:29 PM): well... u never know i guess
UblazRob (8:50:38 PM): Yeah, obviously. x-x
mymiddlefingr (8:50:49 PM): when we talked last
mymiddlefingr (8:50:52 PM): i got like...
mymiddlefingr (8:51:02 PM): okay i sounded like i expected everything to be backed up by convos or something
mymiddlefingr (8:51:11 PM): like, i kinda came off pretty fuckin bitchy
mymiddlefingr (8:51:16 PM): sorry abt that... i dont expect that
mymiddlefingr (8:51:24 PM): just... so ya know
UblazRob (8:51:40 PM): k
UblazRob (8:51:53 PM): Well, if you want, I'll show you the convo where Alexis says she'll work with us
UblazRob (8:51:57 PM): I don't have the one with Jane
UblazRob (8:52:05 PM): I was pissed off at her and closed the IM window
UblazRob (8:52:13 PM): And my comp doesn't back up my convos
mymiddlefingr (8:52:27 PM): its okay, alexis told me she wanted to work with you and jane
mymiddlefingr (8:52:34 PM): why everyone wants jane is beyond me
mymiddlefingr (8:52:43 PM): she shoulda voted herself as the least deserving
mymiddlefingr (8:52:43 PM):
mymiddlefingr (8:53:03 PM): okie that was a little bitchy
UblazRob (8:53:21 PM): Well, everyone thinks Tyrone/Marcus are too tight
UblazRob (8:53:25 PM): So Jane's like the only one left
UblazRob (8:53:29 PM): Plus, if we don't work with Jane
UblazRob (8:53:32 PM): She'll just go to them
UblazRob (8:53:34 PM): Then it's 3-3
mymiddlefingr (8:53:37 PM): exactly
mymiddlefingr (8:54:01 PM): who do u want in final 3?
UblazRob (8:54:07 PM): You and Alexis.
mymiddlefingr (8:54:13 PM): why?!
mymiddlefingr (8:54:18 PM): lol
mymiddlefingr (8:54:19 PM): sorry
mymiddlefingr (8:54:22 PM): that's just bizarre
UblazRob (8:54:25 PM): Why?
UblazRob (8:54:58 PM): Jane would probably be really good at her jury speeches
UblazRob (8:55:00 PM): And I suck at em
mymiddlefingr (8:55:25 PM): lol
mymiddlefingr (8:55:28 PM): fair enough
mymiddlefingr (8:55:33 PM): all right i have a question
mymiddlefingr (8:55:37 PM): did u make all stars in ur season?
UblazRob (8:55:57 PM): Yep.
mymiddlefingr (8:56:08 PM): in ur opinion, then
mymiddlefingr (8:56:11 PM): do u think i've done neough?
mymiddlefingr (8:56:15 PM): in the short time i'veb een herE?
UblazRob (8:56:15 PM): Absolutely
UblazRob (8:56:21 PM): You're one of the biggest characters this season
UblazRob (8:56:29 PM): My season, only three people got asked back
UblazRob (8:56:34 PM): Because we were the only three who did crap
mymiddlefingr (8:56:41 PM): i see
mymiddlefingr (8:56:49 PM): there are quite a few this season like that too
UblazRob (8:56:55 PM): Yep.
UblazRob (8:57:03 PM): I think if there were four people to get asked back
UblazRob (8:57:13 PM): It'd be you, Fairplay, Jane, and Jaime
UblazRob (8:57:21 PM): I already got told I'm not allowed to play Monica in All Stars
mymiddlefingr (8:57:25 PM): i see
UblazRob (8:57:34 PM): Because Greenland had so few
mymiddlefingr (8:57:43 PM): makes sense...
mymiddlefingr (8:57:56 PM): (survivor i nthree mins so i'll be going unless my parents decide to kill ocmmercials)
mymiddlefingr (8:58:03 PM): and honestly
UblazRob (8:58:04 PM): k
mymiddlefingr (8:58:07 PM): working with you from here on out
mymiddlefingr (8:58:10 PM): will please the hosts
mymiddlefingr (8:58:12 PM): a LOT more
mymiddlefingr (8:58:18 PM): than working with marcus and tyrone
mymiddlefingr (8:58:21 PM): i know that
UblazRob (8:58:22 PM): Probably, yeah
UblazRob (8:58:26 PM): And, hey
UblazRob (8:58:30 PM): Taking me to the end?
UblazRob (8:58:33 PM): Is a great move.
UblazRob (8:58:41 PM): You can tell everyone I only got there by challenges
UblazRob (8:58:45 PM): And that I'm already an all star
mymiddlefingr (8:58:48 PM): ur gonna be the one taking people, lets be honest
mymiddlefingr (8:58:56 PM): plan for the 99% chance
mymiddlefingr (8:58:57 PM): not the 1 %
mymiddlefingr (8:58:58 PM):
UblazRob (8:59:34 PM): Whatevs
UblazRob (8:59:51 PM): I thought I had the final IC in the bag last time
UblazRob (8:59:53 PM): And I got boned
UblazRob (8:59:54 PM): And voted off
mymiddlefingr (9:00:21 PM): it was a final 2 last time?
mymiddlefingr (9:00:28 PM): i hate final 3s
UblazRob (9:00:41 PM): Yeah
UblazRob (9:00:44 PM): Because a juror quit
UblazRob (9:00:48 PM): Otherwise it would have been f3
mymiddlefingr (9:00:53 PM): oh i see
mymiddlefingr (9:01:03 PM): go away amanda
mymiddlefingr (9:01:04 PM): lol
mymiddlefingr (9:01:21 PM): so i have ten mins
mymiddlefingr (9:01:25 PM): r u watching survivor now tho?
UblazRob (9:01:31 PM): no
mymiddlefingr (9:01:36 PM): oh okay...
mymiddlefingr (9:01:39 PM): then i gotta ask...
mymiddlefingr (9:01:43 PM): why would jane work with us?
UblazRob (9:01:45 PM): It's not on for another few hours
UblazRob (9:01:48 PM): She has no options
UblazRob (9:01:51 PM): Tyrone just fucked her in the face
mymiddlefingr (9:02:03 PM): ya i suppose
UblazRob (9:02:04 PM): So did Marcus
UblazRob (9:02:08 PM): This is her best bet
mymiddlefingr (9:02:25 PM): lol
mymiddlefingr (9:02:28 PM): fuckin jane
mymiddlefingr (9:02:30 PM): thorn in my side
UblazRob (9:03:07 PM): lol
UblazRob (9:03:09 PM): Don't worry
UblazRob (9:03:11 PM): It'll be a'ight
mymiddlefingr (9:03:32 PM): okie
mymiddlefingr (9:03:38 PM): so if i had asked before...
mymiddlefingr (9:03:43 PM): for like... i dont know
mymiddlefingr (9:03:49 PM): i cant really think of an example
mymiddlefingr (9:04:00 PM): if i'd asked to see like the fairplay thing where he said he didnt have naything
mymiddlefingr (9:04:03 PM): i could've seen it?
UblazRob (9:04:05 PM): I don't have it.
UblazRob (9:04:11 PM): My comp reset on me that day
UblazRob (9:04:14 PM): I lost all of the IMs I ahd
mymiddlefingr (9:04:17 PM): oh, well, lol... before that then
UblazRob (9:04:20 PM): Yeah
mymiddlefingr (9:04:20 PM): lol
UblazRob (9:04:24 PM): I would have shown it to you
mymiddlefingr (9:04:32 PM): that sucks
mymiddlefingr (9:04:46 PM): i didn't wanna be pushy. i'm pushy enough just talking
mymiddlefingr (9:04:51 PM): with my like really fast IMs and stuff
UblazRob (9:05:44 PM): *shrug*
mymiddlefingr (9:06:13 PM): all right...
mymiddlefingr (9:06:25 PM): sorry then
UblazRob (9:06:36 PM): Too late now.
mymiddlefingr (9:06:39 PM): ya
UblazRob (9:06:40 PM): All we can do is move on
mymiddlefingr (9:06:46 PM): i would have loved to see you vote fairplay
mymiddlefingr (9:06:49 PM): it woulda been a lot better
mymiddlefingr (9:06:59 PM): oh well
mymiddlefingr (9:07:35 PM): i guess i gtg
UblazRob (9:07:45 PM): k
UblazRob (9:07:46 PM): ttyl
UblazRob (9:07:48 PM): And
mymiddlefingr (9:07:50 PM): yep
UblazRob (9:07:50 PM): No hard feelings
UblazRob (9:07:53 PM): Just don't do it again
mymiddlefingr (9:07:57 PM): all right
mymiddlefingr (9:07:59 PM): thank you
mymiddlefingr (9:08:15 PM): i feel eternally stupid in this game


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and now the rest of the alexis convos i have had... from last night, and today:


November 11, 2010
mymiddlefingr (12:52:43 AM): enjoy survivor?
gamerkennyhoang (12:52:52 AM): yeah it was pretty good
gamerkennyhoang (12:52:58 AM): im exhausted though
mymiddlefingr (12:53:16 AM): yeah, right there with ya
mymiddlefingr (12:53:22 AM): i'll be going in like 10 mins
gamerkennyhoang (12:53:29 AM): yeah im going in like 2
mymiddlefingr (12:53:32 AM): lol
mymiddlefingr (12:53:36 AM): well sweet dreams
gamerkennyhoang (12:53:42 AM): thanks you too
mymiddlefingr (12:53:44 AM):
mymiddlefingr (7:27:31 PM): hey there
mymiddlefingr (7:27:44 PM): sorry for agreeing with jane and getting tara to post it later
gamerkennyhoang (7:28:08 PM): lol
gamerkennyhoang (7:28:10 PM): i was just kidding
gamerkennyhoang (7:28:12 PM): its fine
mymiddlefingr (7:29:13 PM): oh okay cool
mymiddlefingr (7:29:23 PM): jane wants me to throw it
gamerkennyhoang (7:29:32 PM): lol
mymiddlefingr (7:29:32 PM): if marcus isn't winning, that is
gamerkennyhoang (7:29:37 PM): k
mymiddlefingr (7:29:43 PM): what do u think i should do?
gamerkennyhoang (7:29:47 PM): try tow in
mymiddlefingr (7:29:50 PM): i see
mymiddlefingr (7:30:05 PM): okie, i might, i might not...
mymiddlefingr (7:30:10 PM): i'm exhausted to be honest
mymiddlefingr (7:30:19 PM): if it's something that runs really late into the night, i wont be able to
gamerkennyhoang (7:32:39 PM): yeah
gamerkennyhoang (7:32:44 PM): i just want to make an attempt
mymiddlefingr (7:32:52 PM): i hope it's something u can win
mymiddlefingr (7:32:58 PM): i want to see YOU beat monica
mymiddlefingr (7:33:12 PM): hmmmm...
gamerkennyhoang (7:33:15 PM): haha
mymiddlefingr (7:33:16 PM): you think the deal with them is real?
mymiddlefingr (7:33:34 PM): like, u dont think they'll jsut go show marcus and tyrone what i said abt getting them out?
mymiddlefingr (7:33:36 PM): LOL
gamerkennyhoang (7:34:09 PM): Monica is serious about the final four
mymiddlefingr (7:34:16 PM):
mymiddlefingr (7:34:25 PM): that's good
gamerkennyhoang (7:34:28 PM): she swore to God i think... which if she is really a christian is a big thing
mymiddlefingr (7:34:37 PM): i don't like talking to marcus... i like tyrone, but i dont think he really deserves to be here
mymiddlefingr (7:34:46 PM): oh wow
gamerkennyhoang (7:34:49 PM): marcus is okay
gamerkennyhoang (7:34:59 PM): he's good at the social game
mymiddlefingr (7:35:02 PM): i suppose
mymiddlefingr (7:35:07 PM): talking to him annoys me a bit
gamerkennyhoang (7:35:08 PM): worked on me
mymiddlefingr (7:35:19 PM): jane said the same thing last night... he annoys her
mymiddlefingr (7:35:20 PM):
gamerkennyhoang (7:35:52 PM): i wanted Tyrone out first but i think Jane's choice is more importanted
mymiddlefingr (7:36:38 PM): yeah did she say she wanted marcus out to you too?
mymiddlefingr (7:36:42 PM): that's what she said to me
mymiddlefingr (7:36:51 PM): but monica seemed to want tyrone out first
mymiddlefingr (7:36:56 PM): i dont care myself
mymiddlefingr (7:36:58 PM): at all
gamerkennyhoang (7:37:10 PM): i think it will be marcus
mymiddlefingr (7:37:18 PM): cool
mymiddlefingr (7:37:38 PM): i'm soooooo happy that i am finally in an alliance with all people i like
mymiddlefingr (7:37:45 PM): first time this game
gamerkennyhoang (7:38:41 PM): haha
gamerkennyhoang (7:41:00 PM): so whats up?
mymiddlefingr (7:41:07 PM): not much... confessionals
gamerkennyhoang (7:41:18 PM): lol i hate confessionals
mymiddlefingr (7:41:21 PM): tired from working all day, and then i gotta do mass confessionals i nthree different games
mymiddlefingr (7:41:31 PM): i usually love doing confessionals. but it's turning into just work
gamerkennyhoang (7:42:16 PM): Klein is probably going in namibia
mymiddlefingr (7:42:16 PM): what are you up to? naything a little more interesting?
mymiddlefingr (7:42:20 PM): awwwwwww
mymiddlefingr (7:42:28 PM): is he just not active enough or something?
gamerkennyhoang (7:42:45 PM): no not really
gamerkennyhoang (7:44:33 PM): im trying to save him
mymiddlefingr (7:45:05 PM): oh... good luck
mymiddlefingr (7:45:12 PM): wish there was a way i could help
mymiddlefingr (7:45:32 PM): i barely talk to people... and i'm not on ur tribe
mymiddlefingr (7:45:36 PM): so... not much i can do
gamerkennyhoang (7:45:40 PM): i barely talk to people too lol
mymiddlefingr (7:45:50 PM): ya. it's just not my favorite game
mymiddlefingr (7:46:01 PM): it looks like it could be good, but all my time is being spent on japan
mymiddlefingr (7:46:14 PM): i think i'm gonna change that tho. i've done what i came to do... pretty much, in japan
mymiddlefingr (7:46:32 PM): costa rica i am BARELY there at all
gamerkennyhoang (7:46:38 PM): haha
mymiddlefingr (7:46:38 PM): only 3 confessionals so far
gamerkennyhoang (7:46:45 PM): im not a big confessional right
mymiddlefingr (7:46:55 PM): i see
mymiddlefingr (7:47:01 PM): i started as a host
mymiddlefingr (7:47:08 PM): for almost 8 games
gamerkennyhoang (7:47:12 PM): cool
mymiddlefingr (7:47:19 PM): so, i've always written big confessionals
mymiddlefingr (7:47:29 PM): and tried to play more for the hosts' entertainment than anything else
gamerkennyhoang (7:48:10 PM): yeah thats cool
mymiddlefingr (7:51:26 PM): brb
mymiddlefingr (7:51:42 PM): oh the award ceremony is posted, bth
mymiddlefingr (7:51:44 PM): btw*
gamerkennyhoang (7:51:50 PM): oh cool
gamerkennyhoang (7:51:54 PM): i'll check it out in a few minutes
mymiddlefingr (8:00:17 PM): cool
mymiddlefingr (8:00:20 PM): i like them
gamerkennyhoang (8:00:29 PM): hah
mymiddlefingr (8:20:06 PM): read them yet?
gamerkennyhoang (8:20:08 PM): yeah
gamerkennyhoang (8:20:12 PM): silent assassin
mymiddlefingr (8:20:12 PM): oh cool!
mymiddlefingr (8:20:13 PM): congrats!
mymiddlefingr (8:20:16 PM): i like that
mymiddlefingr (8:20:20 PM): i was hoping u'd get it
gamerkennyhoang (8:20:25 PM): Monica lol
gamerkennyhoang (8:20:32 PM): fakest
mymiddlefingr (8:20:33 PM): LOL
mymiddlefingr (8:20:38 PM): that's the award i usually get
gamerkennyhoang (8:20:47 PM): XD
mymiddlefingr (8:20:49 PM): that bodes well for your chances against monica u know
mymiddlefingr (8:20:54 PM): you got silent assassin
mymiddlefingr (8:20:58 PM): and she got liar, basically
mymiddlefingr (8:20:59 PM): lol
mymiddlefingr (8:21:05 PM): perfect opposites
gamerkennyhoang (8:21:11 PM): haha
gamerkennyhoang (8:21:15 PM): assassins dont like liar
mymiddlefingr (8:21:21 PM):
mymiddlefingr (8:26:54 PM): brb again, sorry
gamerkennyhoang (8:27:08 PM): k


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[Eliza Orlins]

"that bodes well for your chances against monica"........





and now the convo i had with jane that made it official that she was one of the few in this game that i really like... this took place 3 hours after the last convo i had with jane, by the way:


Janebrighty (10:10:54 PM): Oh hey!
mymiddlefingr (10:11:21 PM): hi
mymiddlefingr (10:11:59 PM): how r u?
Janebrighty (10:12:36 PM): Oh im good.
Janebrighty (10:12:40 PM): Just got home from church.
Janebrighty (10:12:42 PM): What about you?
mymiddlefingr (10:13:07 PM): just got done watching survivor
mymiddlefingr (10:13:14 PM): it was a good episode
Janebrighty (10:13:20 PM): Dont spoil!
Janebrighty (10:13:21 PM): Lol
mymiddlefingr (10:13:25 PM): i wont
Janebrighty (10:13:25 PM): Me and Alexis havent seen it
Janebrighty (10:13:26 PM): Lol
mymiddlefingr (10:13:30 PM): ahhhhh i see
Janebrighty (10:13:46 PM): So yeah, i've been talking to Alexis a few minutes ago.
mymiddlefingr (10:13:48 PM): my head hurts
mymiddlefingr (10:13:52 PM): yep
Janebrighty (10:13:54 PM): Aww, ok.
mymiddlefingr (10:14:02 PM):
Janebrighty (10:14:03 PM): Well, i'll tell you later.
mymiddlefingr (10:14:06 PM): nonono
Janebrighty (10:14:07 PM): Since your head is hurting
mymiddlefingr (10:14:08 PM): i was just gonna say
Janebrighty (10:14:10 PM): Oh, ok.
mymiddlefingr (10:14:14 PM): my head hurts and i have a puzzle i nanotehr challenge
mymiddlefingr (10:14:15 PM): lol
mymiddlefingr (10:14:25 PM): i was complainging abt the other game, not this one
Janebrighty (10:14:25 PM): Ohh ok
Janebrighty (10:14:26 PM): Lol
Janebrighty (10:14:32 PM): Hehe, all right!
Janebrighty (10:14:36 PM): So yeah, i was talking to her.
Janebrighty (10:14:45 PM): And its no lie, im mad at Marcus and Tyrone.
Janebrighty (10:15:03 PM): Anyway thats not the point.
Janebrighty (10:15:14 PM): I was talking to her about how tight Marcus and Tyrone really are.
mymiddlefingr (10:15:27 PM): ya i know, they are really tight
Janebrighty (10:15:28 PM): And how weird is that theres 4 girls here..
Janebrighty (10:15:32 PM): That could band together.
mymiddlefingr (10:15:36 PM):
mymiddlefingr (10:15:43 PM): i would love nothing more
Janebrighty (10:15:49 PM): Like i understand if you dont want to do it.
mymiddlefingr (10:15:54 PM): than to work with you for real
Janebrighty (10:16:01 PM): Cus maybe you have a certain path with Marcus and Tyrone
mymiddlefingr (10:16:03 PM): without all the worrying from both of our sides
mymiddlefingr (10:16:12 PM): no...
Janebrighty (10:16:15 PM): But i have nothing to lose and everything to gain with working with you.
mymiddlefingr (10:16:18 PM): i don't have any path that doesn't involve alexis
Janebrighty (10:16:19 PM): At least from this point on.
Janebrighty (10:16:33 PM): Same here, i dont have any path that doesnt involve Monica.
mymiddlefingr (10:16:45 PM): so i cant go with marcus and tyrone, regardless... unless i dropped alexis
Janebrighty (10:16:50 PM): But is not secret that going with her to finals its sucide.
mymiddlefingr (10:16:57 PM): lol
mymiddlefingr (10:17:02 PM): yeah monica would probly win
Janebrighty (10:17:03 PM): I mean Monica
Janebrighty (10:17:05 PM): Yeah
Janebrighty (10:17:19 PM): So maybe if we make it to Top 4 and she isnt immune, well, maybe i'd consider it.
Janebrighty (10:17:26 PM): But i will understand if you dont wanna do it.
Janebrighty (10:17:39 PM): Like i said, you may have a better way with Marcus and Tyrone and Alexis.
mymiddlefingr (10:17:45 PM): you don't have to promise to vote out monica
Janebrighty (10:17:47 PM): Brb.
Janebrighty signed off at 10:17:50 PM
mymiddlefingr (10:17:58 PM): i cant promise to vote out alexis... so i dont... oh okay
mymiddlefingr (10:17:58 PM): lol
Janebrighty signed on at 10:22:08 PM
Janebrighty (10:22:17 PM): Back
Janebrighty (10:22:19 PM): So yeah
mymiddlefingr (10:22:23 PM): okie
Janebrighty (10:22:27 PM): And i understand that you wont vote Alexis.
mymiddlefingr (10:22:34 PM): just so ya know, doing the puzzle right now so replies might be slow sometimes
Janebrighty (10:22:41 PM): Oh, thats ok,.
Janebrighty (10:22:44 PM): But just a side note
Janebrighty (10:22:47 PM): If we are really doing this
Janebrighty (10:22:51 PM): I want it to be a blindside
Janebrighty (10:22:51 PM): You know.
Janebrighty (10:23:03 PM): Like you and alexis act like you are still working with Tyrone and Marcus
Janebrighty (10:23:07 PM): And then we blindside em
Janebrighty (10:23:14 PM): Just want to give them a taste of their own medicine
mymiddlefingr (10:23:15 PM): lol
Janebrighty (10:23:17 PM): For lying to be
Janebrighty (10:23:19 PM): (me
Janebrighty (10:23:20 PM): Lol
Janebrighty (10:23:27 PM): You know we girls are ruthless
mymiddlefingr (10:23:27 PM): u sure that's not for jury votes?
mymiddlefingr (10:23:33 PM): lol
Janebrighty (10:23:33 PM): Like black widows
mymiddlefingr (10:23:34 PM):
mymiddlefingr (10:23:43 PM): i dont care either way, lol
Janebrighty (10:23:48 PM): Lol, probably i wont have their votes if i make it to finals
Janebrighty (10:24:28 PM): Well, i hope we work together.
Janebrighty (10:24:37 PM): Cus this is an oath im willing to fulfill and honor.
mymiddlefingr (10:24:50 PM): i will promise the same back to you then
Janebrighty (10:24:57 PM): Fair enough.
mymiddlefingr (10:24:58 PM): just dont vote out alexis, please
Janebrighty (10:25:11 PM): I wont.
mymiddlefingr (10:25:12 PM): even if it's just like...
mymiddlefingr (10:25:18 PM): what i told monica earlier
mymiddlefingr (10:25:26 PM): if this is just to get me to say i'll go against tyrone and marcus
mymiddlefingr (10:25:28 PM): to use against me
mymiddlefingr (10:25:32 PM): use it against ME
mymiddlefingr (10:25:34 PM): not alexis...
mymiddlefingr (10:25:35 PM): please
Janebrighty (10:25:40 PM): Lol
Janebrighty (10:25:46 PM): I have no trust in Tyrone and Marcus anymore.
Janebrighty (10:25:52 PM): I know that they once tried to get me out.
mymiddlefingr (10:26:13 PM): ya, marcus is the one that said it to me last round
mymiddlefingr (10:26:20 PM): that you were going
Janebrighty (10:26:20 PM): And i thought that it was just a matter of comunication.
Janebrighty (10:26:31 PM): But it seems that they only want to use me.
Janebrighty (10:26:36 PM): And im no girl to be used!
Janebrighty (10:26:54 PM): So i WANT the pleasure of voting their butts
Janebrighty (10:26:59 PM): One after the other.
mymiddlefingr (10:27:04 PM): well, i can like...
Janebrighty (10:27:08 PM): And to make it even more ruthless, i want it to be Marcus first.
mymiddlefingr (10:27:13 PM): like next round i can show ya my confessional and stuff
Janebrighty (10:27:15 PM): Cus he is as fake as someone can get.
mymiddlefingr (10:27:17 PM): whatever u need to feel secure
Janebrighty (10:27:23 PM): I feel secure already.
mymiddlefingr (10:27:26 PM): i'd rather do marcus first as well
Janebrighty (10:27:27 PM): I dont know why, but i do.
mymiddlefingr (10:27:35 PM): i like tyrone more
Janebrighty (10:27:39 PM): Marcus thinks he is ruling thigs around.
Janebrighty (10:27:46 PM): And he is more shady and annoying than Tyrone
Janebrighty (10:28:00 PM): Im sure he´s the one the fed up Tyrone with his anti-Monica stuff.
Janebrighty (10:28:04 PM): Cus Tyrone once liked Monica.
Janebrighty (10:28:14 PM): But Marcus has been as devius as devil!
mymiddlefingr (10:28:16 PM): yeah, i know, he probly did
Janebrighty (10:28:20 PM): He even told Jon that i wanted to blindside him.
mymiddlefingr (10:28:24 PM): marcus realyl didn't start talking game to me till last round tho
mymiddlefingr (10:28:31 PM): till then, we just talked firnedly stuff
mymiddlefingr (10:28:35 PM): really?
Janebrighty (10:28:36 PM): I didnt think of that too much because i thought Marcus was only trying to save himself.
mymiddlefingr (10:28:38 PM): he told jon that? wow
Janebrighty (10:28:42 PM): Yeah
Janebrighty (10:28:47 PM): Like 1st round of merge i think
Janebrighty (10:28:49 PM): Before you came in
Janebrighty (10:29:06 PM): Jon came to me and told me ''MArcus told me that you and Monica once talked about getting me out''
Janebrighty (10:29:15 PM): And i told him ''yeah we did, when HE mentioned it''
Janebrighty (10:29:20 PM): He was like overly excited
Janebrighty (10:29:29 PM): Cus we were voting Fairplay the round before we swapped
Janebrighty (10:29:37 PM): We were going to throw the challenge and dump Fairplay
mymiddlefingr (10:29:38 PM): jeez
Janebrighty (10:29:41 PM): Cus he was a threat and stuff
Janebrighty (10:29:44 PM): And Marcus totally was on that
mymiddlefingr (10:29:50 PM): i never knew any of that!
Janebrighty (10:30:01 PM): And was like f´ck yeah lets do it.
Janebrighty (10:30:08 PM): And when it didnt work, he ran to fairplay
Janebrighty (10:30:19 PM): and told him that Monica and Myself were talking about blindsiding him
Janebrighty (10:30:37 PM): I think Monica was on that too but im not sure, maybe it was only me
Janebrighty (10:30:42 PM): But i think he mentioned Monica too.
mymiddlefingr (10:30:58 PM): omg
Janebrighty (10:31:02 PM): And you know what this asshole told me this round?
mymiddlefingr (10:31:06 PM):
Janebrighty (10:31:08 PM): That he didnt lie because he never said who he was voting
mymiddlefingr (10:31:24 PM): oh god
Janebrighty (10:31:25 PM): And i was like WTH! All i asked for you was to be honest with me
mymiddlefingr (10:31:26 PM): c'mo
Janebrighty (10:31:31 PM): And he was like ''I know, you are fustrated''
mymiddlefingr (10:31:33 PM): he never lied
mymiddlefingr (10:31:40 PM): that's like technicality bullshit
Janebrighty (10:32:02 PM): And i said ''Ok, im gonna have to deal with you because tahts just the way you roll'' cus i was talking like im gonna have to live with his constant secrets and shadyness
Janebrighty (10:32:06 PM): and he went defensive
Janebrighty (10:32:27 PM): like ''So you are threating me?! Come'on Jane you cant do that''
Janebrighty (10:32:36 PM): Like hinting that he was so mighty and had evetything under control
Janebrighty (10:32:45 PM): That whoever opposed him was just going to be cut out
mymiddlefingr (10:32:51 PM): LOL
Janebrighty (10:32:53 PM): Like since he voted Fairplay for wanting Tyrone aout
mymiddlefingr (10:32:56 PM): ur either with me or against me
mymiddlefingr (10:32:57 PM): lol
Janebrighty (10:32:58 PM): and that he orchestrated the whole thing
mymiddlefingr (10:33:06 PM): LOL
Janebrighty (10:33:07 PM): My ass to Marcus!
Janebrighty (10:33:10 PM): Screw him!
Janebrighty (10:33:12 PM): I HATE him.
mymiddlefingr (10:33:17 PM): wow
Janebrighty (10:33:29 PM): Im just mad at him Eliza, thats all.
mymiddlefingr (10:33:29 PM): i didn't realize there was that bad of blood between y'all
mymiddlefingr (10:33:36 PM): no problem with me
Janebrighty (10:33:42 PM): There wasnt any bad blood, not at all.
mymiddlefingr (10:33:46 PM): i like that you talk actively
Janebrighty (10:33:57 PM): But he just step into the dark'side
Janebrighty (10:34:02 PM): So screw him!
mymiddlefingr (10:34:34 PM):
mymiddlefingr (10:34:36 PM): well i'm with you
Janebrighty (10:34:54 PM): Lol, i hope so.
mymiddlefingr (10:34:58 PM): anything i can do?
mymiddlefingr (10:35:01 PM): throw the challenge?
Janebrighty (10:35:07 PM): OH, no Eliza!
Janebrighty (10:35:19 PM): Just fight your ass off and prevent Marcus from having it.
mymiddlefingr (10:35:28 PM): oh ya okie
Janebrighty (10:35:38 PM): You know what would be cool.
mymiddlefingr (10:35:55 PM):
Janebrighty (10:35:56 PM): For us 4 to get like our own parchment
Janebrighty (10:36:01 PM): with a blackwidow on it
mymiddlefingr (10:36:01 PM): LOL
Janebrighty (10:36:03 PM): like on the corner
Janebrighty (10:36:10 PM): or at the back
mymiddlefingr (10:36:11 PM): we should
Janebrighty (10:36:13 PM): i´d work on that.
Janebrighty (10:36:29 PM): So when they see the votes they are like WTH is that?!
Janebrighty (10:36:37 PM): And then they realize ''crap, we are doom''!
Janebrighty (10:36:39 PM): Lol
Janebrighty (10:36:44 PM): totally crazy!
mymiddlefingr (10:36:53 PM): ya dude
mymiddlefingr (10:36:57 PM): if the hosts dont mind
mymiddlefingr (10:37:01 PM): the special parchments
mymiddlefingr (10:37:03 PM): that'd be fun
Janebrighty (10:37:09 PM): Lol, yeah
mymiddlefingr (10:37:18 PM): i like you
mymiddlefingr (10:37:22 PM): my main thing
Janebrighty (10:37:24 PM): Lol
mymiddlefingr (10:37:34 PM): i want people around who i like
Janebrighty (10:37:35 PM): I like you to.
mymiddlefingr (10:37:36 PM): f i'm around, that is
mymiddlefingr (10:37:39 PM): otherwise i dont care
mymiddlefingr (10:37:43 PM): marcus...
mymiddlefingr (10:37:47 PM): it's probly unfair to say
mymiddlefingr (10:37:54 PM): because english is his second language
mymiddlefingr (10:38:01 PM): but he just doesn't connect on any level with me
mymiddlefingr (10:38:02 PM): at all
Janebrighty (10:38:05 PM): Lol
Janebrighty (10:38:11 PM): He lives in the US!
Janebrighty (10:38:14 PM): And..
Janebrighty (10:38:19 PM): English is MY second language!
Janebrighty (10:38:39 PM): And i can whip his ass both on English and Español
Janebrighty (10:38:50 PM): And i dont wanna be harsh or anything but.. His spanish sucks
Janebrighty (10:38:53 PM): Pretty badly.
mymiddlefingr (10:39:00 PM): oh wow
mymiddlefingr (10:39:05 PM): i see
mymiddlefingr (10:39:10 PM): well then, it's his own problem then
mymiddlefingr (10:39:15 PM): i thought it was just... couldn't help it
Janebrighty (10:39:19 PM): Lol
mymiddlefingr (10:39:24 PM): so i never really got upset abt it
mymiddlefingr (10:39:30 PM): but it's annoying how he constantly takes forever to reply
Janebrighty (10:39:34 PM): He just doesnt care enough for people to write anything interesting to them.
mymiddlefingr (10:39:39 PM): i know i do it osmetimes but i'm i nthree realyl fast paced games at once
Janebrighty (10:39:47 PM): I know
Janebrighty (10:39:51 PM): But at least you reply
Janebrighty (10:39:54 PM): With more than 3 words.
mymiddlefingr (10:39:57 PM): ya exactly, he doesn't have a convo abt anything real ever
Janebrighty (10:40:07 PM): ''You will see'' ''I will not'' ''I will do''
Janebrighty (10:40:12 PM): Like is so annoyinh!
mymiddlefingr (10:40:37 PM): LOL
mymiddlefingr (10:40:42 PM): yeah it really is
mymiddlefingr (10:40:47 PM): that's what i got from fairplay at first
mymiddlefingr (10:40:57 PM): before he stopped talking completely
mymiddlefingr (10:41:08 PM): they're both kinda the same in that regard
Janebrighty (10:41:16 PM): Yeah
Janebrighty (10:41:42 PM): Maybe Marcus targetted him because he didnt want anyone to beat him at being the dullest person here.
Janebrighty (10:41:48 PM): x___x ZING!
mymiddlefingr (10:41:50 PM): LOL
mymiddlefingr (10:41:53 PM): hahahaha
mymiddlefingr (10:41:58 PM): you remind me of the zingbot
mymiddlefingr (10:42:01 PM): from BB
Janebrighty (10:42:06 PM): I LOVE Zingbot!
mymiddlefingr (10:42:07 PM): is you see nthat even
mymiddlefingr (10:42:09 PM): LOL
Janebrighty (10:42:33 PM): Oh well, im glad we are having this conversation.
Janebrighty (10:42:40 PM): At least you are interesting to talk with,
Janebrighty (10:42:50 PM): I've been stuck with Marcus and Tyrone for the last 2 rounds.
Janebrighty (10:43:23 PM): Having convos that are 90% my words, 4.99% Tyrones and 0.1% Marcus
Janebrighty (10:43:26 PM): Go figure.
mymiddlefingr (10:43:28 PM): awwwwww
mymiddlefingr (10:43:33 PM): ewwww i know
mymiddlefingr (10:43:38 PM): my confessionals look sucky now
mymiddlefingr (10:43:43 PM): from having so many convos with them
mymiddlefingr (10:43:45 PM): talking to myself
Janebrighty (10:43:49 PM): Haha
Janebrighty (10:44:06 PM): Oh well, i feel much better now.
Janebrighty (10:44:14 PM): I mean, im bashing Marcus and its making me feel amazing!
Janebrighty (10:44:25 PM): And to be doing it with someone that seems to be enjoying it too.
mymiddlefingr (10:44:26 PM): well, thnx u for joining in with that
mymiddlefingr (10:44:30 PM): and not jsut getting me to say i want ihm out
mymiddlefingr (10:44:39 PM): helps me to think ur not just gonna show him the convo
mymiddlefingr (10:44:40 PM): LOL
Janebrighty (10:44:44 PM): Lol
Janebrighty (10:44:46 PM): HELL NO!
Janebrighty (10:44:58 PM): I will just BASH him so badly if he ever comes to me after he is DOOMED!
mymiddlefingr (10:45:43 PM): awesome
mymiddlefingr (10:45:46 PM): well i hate him too
mymiddlefingr (10:45:48 PM): or well
mymiddlefingr (10:45:50 PM): strong word
mymiddlefingr (10:45:53 PM): i dont like him
mymiddlefingr (10:45:58 PM): i dont nejoy talking to him at all
Janebrighty (10:45:59 PM): HATE!
Janebrighty (10:46:00 PM): Lol
mymiddlefingr (10:46:02 PM):
Janebrighty (10:46:06 PM): Its a game
mymiddlefingr (10:46:11 PM): i've always liked monica
Janebrighty (10:46:11 PM): So we are fair to use anything!
mymiddlefingr (10:46:14 PM): and i've always liked alexis
Janebrighty (10:46:24 PM): And now you will always like me
mymiddlefingr (10:46:30 PM): and i can see that i could get to you like you a lot
Janebrighty (10:46:31 PM):
mymiddlefingr (10:46:34 PM):
mymiddlefingr (10:46:44 PM): it's not hard to make me like you, just gotta be talkative
Janebrighty (10:46:45 PM): Well i've always liked Monica
Janebrighty (10:46:57 PM): I've loved Alexis since we merged
Janebrighty (10:47:05 PM): and I've loved you for a while ago.
Janebrighty (10:47:10 PM): Even though i wanted to take you out.
Janebrighty (10:47:18 PM): Cus you threaten me
Janebrighty (10:47:19 PM): Lol
Janebrighty (10:47:23 PM): But i LOVE you now.
Janebrighty (10:47:27 PM): So i dont want you out anymore.
mymiddlefingr (10:47:31 PM): awwwwwww
Janebrighty (10:47:32 PM): Plus you are offering a helping hand
mymiddlefingr (10:47:33 PM): well thnx u
mymiddlefingr (10:47:38 PM): i'm glad that's why u wanted me out
Janebrighty (10:47:39 PM): Which is awesome and i wont deny that !
mymiddlefingr (10:47:53 PM): ya i wasn't after you or monica there at all
mymiddlefingr (10:47:58 PM): hell...
mymiddlefingr (10:48:03 PM): the last two rounds you were trying to get me out
mymiddlefingr (10:48:07 PM): and i talked to you more than fairplay
Janebrighty (10:48:14 PM): I know!
mymiddlefingr (10:48:19 PM): so... that's why i voted fairplay, whne it comes down to it
Janebrighty (10:48:40 PM): The only reason i seemed to evade u was because i couldnt just talk to you and be nice
Janebrighty (10:48:45 PM): while i was going to stab you.
Janebrighty (10:48:45 PM): Lol
Janebrighty (10:49:13 PM): But im going to be so pretty and nice to Marcus and Tyrone this round.
Janebrighty (10:49:19 PM): I HOPE Monica doesnt win immunity
Janebrighty (10:49:27 PM): So that they think that she is gone
mymiddlefingr (10:49:30 PM): lol that makes sense
Janebrighty (10:49:32 PM): and to have em force me to vote for her.
mymiddlefingr (10:49:41 PM): hmmmmm
mymiddlefingr (10:49:44 PM): i can try to beat monica
mymiddlefingr (10:49:51 PM): but i am exhausted
Janebrighty (10:50:06 PM): Lol, i will try.
mymiddlefingr (10:50:08 PM): i was kinda looking forward to not having to try like my life depends on it after we started talking here
mymiddlefingr (10:50:10 PM):
Janebrighty (10:50:17 PM): Maybe we can talk to her into throwing it_
Janebrighty (10:50:18 PM): ?
Janebrighty (10:50:45 PM): I swear to you right now.
Janebrighty (10:50:53 PM): That im not going dishonor this oath.
mymiddlefingr (10:51:07 PM): i promise i wont either
Janebrighty (10:51:07 PM): And that if i ever do it, i will give my torch in exchange.
mymiddlefingr (10:51:12 PM): maybe she throws it for YOU to win it?
Janebrighty (10:51:19 PM): That would be AWESOME!
Janebrighty (10:51:20 PM): Lol
mymiddlefingr (10:51:29 PM): i wont ask her to throw for me
mymiddlefingr (10:51:31 PM): that'd look bad
Janebrighty (10:51:39 PM): And Tyrone and Marcus will be super happy (fakely)
Janebrighty (10:51:43 PM): Because im safe and we can vote Monica
Janebrighty (10:51:56 PM): And then.. Join me on this Zingbot line..
Janebrighty (10:51:57 PM): ZING!
Janebrighty (10:52:00 PM): They are blindsided!
mymiddlefingr (10:52:03 PM): LOL!!!!!!
mymiddlefingr (10:52:08 PM): i would love that
mymiddlefingr (10:52:13 PM): they really think monica is next
Janebrighty (10:52:18 PM): They do!
mymiddlefingr (10:52:21 PM): like, cause why wouldn't anyone vote her?
Janebrighty (10:52:21 PM): Marcus even threaten me
Janebrighty (10:52:27 PM): Like was mentioning Monica was next
mymiddlefingr (10:52:28 PM): he threatened you?
mymiddlefingr (10:52:29 PM): jeez
mymiddlefingr (10:52:47 PM): there's no need to be a dick abt it... it's just a game
Janebrighty (10:52:50 PM): but like hinting that maybe he'll have to switch it
Janebrighty (10:52:55 PM): and vote me instead.
mymiddlefingr (10:53:03 PM): oh god
Janebrighty (10:53:08 PM): If i kept hinting that i didnt trust him and stuffs.
mymiddlefingr (10:53:13 PM): yeah i'll just play nice with him then
Janebrighty (10:53:14 PM): Power really's gotten to his head.
Janebrighty (10:53:22 PM): Which is weird since he has never had any power.
mymiddlefingr (10:53:27 PM): he barely talks to me anyway, only when he needs something
Janebrighty (10:53:32 PM): Yeah.
mymiddlefingr (10:53:34 PM): so that's one good thing, i wont have to lie for a long time
Janebrighty (10:53:40 PM): Haha!
Janebrighty (10:53:42 PM): Yeah!
mymiddlefingr (10:55:07 PM):
mymiddlefingr (10:55:11 PM): okie i gotta brb real quick
mymiddlefingr (10:55:12 PM):
Janebrighty (10:58:15 PM): Ok
Janebrighty (10:58:23 PM): I will go get something to eat
mymiddlefingr (10:58:28 PM):
mymiddlefingr (10:58:33 PM): me too, i'll be another 10 mins
Janebrighty (11:03:26 PM): Brb
Janebrighty (11:03:29 PM): Sorry, was pming Monica
Janebrighty (11:03:34 PM): so now im gonna get something to eat
Janebrighty (11:03:34 PM): Lol
Janebrighty went away at 11:03:37 PM
Janebrighty returned at 11:09:00 PM
mymiddlefingr (11:12:48 PM): i'm back
Janebrighty (11:12:55 PM): Me too
mymiddlefingr (11:14:06 PM):
mymiddlefingr (11:14:11 PM): alexis is watching survivor
mymiddlefingr (11:14:15 PM): when are you watching it?
Janebrighty (11:15:39 PM): whenever is up in youtube
mymiddlefingr (11:16:08 PM): awwwww
mymiddlefingr (11:16:13 PM): that sucks for ya
Janebrighty (11:16:31 PM): Lol
Janebrighty (11:16:34 PM): Its ok.
mymiddlefingr (11:17:29 PM): hwo come on youtube?
mymiddlefingr (11:17:42 PM): how*
Janebrighty (11:18:13 PM): theres a guy who has it
Janebrighty (11:18:14 PM): dcdice
mymiddlefingr (11:18:41 PM): oh cool
mymiddlefingr (11:18:46 PM): i can rewatch then
Janebrighty (11:18:51 PM): Hehe
Janebrighty (11:18:51 PM): yeah
Janebrighty (11:18:55 PM): theres other
Janebrighty (11:18:57 PM): stentilizier
Janebrighty (11:19:00 PM): or soething like that
Janebrighty (11:19:05 PM): has all seasons
Janebrighty (11:19:08 PM): from Borneo and on
mymiddlefingr (11:19:11 PM): wow!
Janebrighty (11:19:15 PM): also The Amazing Race
mymiddlefingr (11:19:17 PM): all of them, that's awesome
mymiddlefingr (11:19:21 PM): ya?
Janebrighty (11:19:21 PM): Yeah
mymiddlefingr (11:19:24 PM): i missed like 3 seasons
mymiddlefingr (11:19:25 PM): of TAR
Janebrighty (11:19:36 PM): just type that on youtube
Janebrighty (11:19:38 PM): stentilizer
Janebrighty (11:19:41 PM): i think is that
Janebrighty (11:19:49 PM): but i shall lead you to the correct one
Janebrighty (11:20:01 PM): stentilyzier
Janebrighty (11:20:01 PM): Thats it
mymiddlefingr (11:21:14 PM): okie
mymiddlefingr (11:21:40 PM): okay so itype that int the search box?
mymiddlefingr (11:21:43 PM): at the top of the page?
mymiddlefingr (11:23:23 PM): ahhhhhh i got it!
mymiddlefingr (11:23:27 PM): AWESOME! thnx u very much
Janebrighty (11:26:41 PM): Lol
Janebrighty (11:26:42 PM): yeah =)
mymiddlefingr (11:31:22 PM): i will brb
mymiddlefingr (11:31:34 PM): i think sarah is posting the awards, btw


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and when i came back.... she was gone.







now... i have to go ... and i wasn't quite done saying all i had to say, the way i wanted to say it, so i will just wrap it up quickly... unfortunately..




read this PM i sent to monica, at the end of the night... it illustrates very well my state of mind, the way i am thinking, what i want to do, and how i feel...



i had the best convo ever with jane tonight.


she talks at my pace, i love it. soooooooo few people do that




so anyway, it's late, i'll try and get to the point

i can get behind this alliance for real. she did a DISSING spree on marcus... lol... that wasn't the part that i liked the most but it was nice to see it wasn't jsut a convo meant for her to set me up or something and send it to marcus right after. he'd not like to hear the things she said, so that's awesome.

and i just genuinely enjoyed talking to her.

so there's not a single person in the alliance you proposed that i would object to. like... from that convo, i can see i'll really like her. so it's easy for me to back this

i'm gonna "throw" the challenge... in that, if marcus isn't winning (cause jane said she wants marcus out first), i'm gonna let myself lose. it's for jane's trust and yours.


you need an honest shot at getting me out. you got the convos to get it done, i believe, if you set ur mind to it.


so, if at all possible, in order to like start this deal off on the right foot, i'm gonna make sure i'm not immune this round.

and for what i did, it's fair if you wanna take me out. and if not, if you keep me in, i'm with you to the end





there... and that's my version of "getting to the point"

sorry again for the fairplay vote. *mwah*



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so... that's what i am going to do. as i said already, for better or for worse, whether the deal to them is real or not... it's real to me.

just the fact that monica and jane have reacted the way they did... and still want to talk, if even just to get me back. and they dont seem to be actually hurt, personally, by it at all... it makes everything worth it for me.


i got to do what i wanted to do... vote fairplay. it worked. he's out. it's a huge accomplishment. and i beat monica to it, if she was actualyl going to do it.


and i was even granted emotional salvation, afterwards...

[Eliza Orlins]

longest single sitting series of confessional posts for the season??