MR4 - tabula rasa

[Eliza Orlins]

before the immunity challenge


a short convo with alexis from immediately after the votes were revealed:


gamerkennyhoang (11:27:20 PM): damn
gamerkennyhoang (11:27:24 PM): Marcus and Tyrone flopped
mymiddlefingr (11:27:55 PM): yeah
mymiddlefingr (11:27:57 PM): obviously
mymiddlefingr (11:27:59 PM):
mymiddlefingr (11:28:02 PM): i was so excited there
mymiddlefingr (11:28:15 PM): damn i dont like that christy went
mymiddlefingr (11:28:24 PM): i wanted jane atleast if fairplay didn't but...
mymiddlefingr (11:28:26 PM): oh well
gamerkennyhoang (11:28:31 PM): yeah whatever
gamerkennyhoang (11:28:33 PM): im screwed now
mymiddlefingr (11:28:45 PM): yeah
mymiddlefingr (11:28:49 PM): i dont have jane's trust...
mymiddlefingr (11:28:52 PM): or fairplay's
mymiddlefingr (11:28:56 PM): or monica's anymore
gamerkennyhoang (11:29:00 PM): i lost Fairplays
mymiddlefingr (11:29:03 PM): and fairplay is still around... we'll never get him
gamerkennyhoang (11:29:04 PM): and Marcus'
gamerkennyhoang (11:29:05 PM): and Tyrone
mymiddlefingr (11:29:11 PM): yeah
mymiddlefingr (11:29:14 PM): wow
mymiddlefingr (11:29:16 PM): that sucks
mymiddlefingr (11:30:01 PM): i'll be back again in like 20 more mins
mymiddlefingr (11:30:06 PM): sorry i am entertaining my dad
mymiddlefingr (11:30:33 PM): *hugz*
gamerkennyhoang (11:30:42 PM): see ya
mymiddlefingr (11:30:44 PM): that was crappy
gamerkennyhoang (11:32:32 PM): yeah i know
gamerkennyhoang signed off at 11:50:32 PM
mymiddlefingr (11:52:13 PM): talk to you tomorrow alexis

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and with christy as she left:

mymiddlefingr (11:51:56 PM): results up...
iamsovrycool (11:52:50 PM): I saw
iamsovrycool (11:52:59 PM): I'm not upset
mymiddlefingr (11:53:04 PM): that sucks
mymiddlefingr (11:53:09 PM): i am pretty upset
mymiddlefingr (11:53:23 PM): me and alexis are kinda screwed
mymiddlefingr (11:53:29 PM): plus... that was SO close
iamsovrycool (11:53:33 PM): yeah, you kinda are
mymiddlefingr (11:53:40 PM): he actually didn't play any reward
iamsovrycool (11:53:46 PM): Jane obviously didn't vote with us
mymiddlefingr (11:54:04 PM): you think it was jane?
mymiddlefingr (11:54:05 PM): or tyrone?
iamsovrycool (11:54:16 PM): I think it was Jane
mymiddlefingr (11:54:22 PM):
mymiddlefingr (11:54:24 PM): that sucks
iamsovrycool (11:54:42 PM): she's the one going on about how me, her, Jonny and Monica could be f4
iamsovrycool (11:54:48 PM): I don't think she GETS it
iamsovrycool (11:55:02 PM): that Monica is a lying manipulative bitch
iamsovrycool (11:55:22 PM): she doesn't have loyalties
mymiddlefingr (11:56:10 PM): what the fuck
mymiddlefingr (11:56:13 PM): her and monica still
mymiddlefingr (11:56:18 PM): jeez it's like she doesn't read the stuff
mymiddlefingr (11:56:23 PM): she didn't know that i couldn't vote either
iamsovrycool (11:56:28 PM): lol
mymiddlefingr (11:56:37 PM): and it seemed like she didn't read the ting abt fairplay getting that box from monica
mymiddlefingr (11:56:39 PM): jeez
iamsovrycool (11:57:01 PM): Jane doesn't pay much attention
mymiddlefingr (11:57:08 PM): should be a sucky game from here on tho...
mymiddlefingr (11:57:12 PM): no she doesn't
mymiddlefingr (11:57:14 PM): sorry brb once more
mymiddlefingr (11:57:16 PM): almsot done
iamsovrycool (11:57:16 PM): she's also very naive
iamsovrycool (11:57:18 PM): lol kk
November 7, 2010
mymiddlefingr (12:21:41 AM): okie i am abck
mymiddlefingr (12:21:44 AM): back*
mymiddlefingr (12:21:45 AM): sorry
iamsovrycool (12:21:47 AM): kk
mymiddlefingr (12:24:57 AM): sorry again that u got voted out
mymiddlefingr (12:25:02 AM): i thought it was supposed to be jane
mymiddlefingr (12:25:03 AM):
iamsovrycool (12:25:30 AM): it probably was until I pushed for Fairplay
iamsovrycool (12:25:36 AM): but it's ok
mymiddlefingr (12:27:28 AM): who told him?
mymiddlefingr (12:27:31 AM): that just sucks
mymiddlefingr (12:27:36 AM): probly like jane or whatever eh
iamsovrycool (12:27:37 AM): Jane I assume
mymiddlefingr (12:27:39 AM): ya
mymiddlefingr (12:27:40 AM): lameeeeee
iamsovrycool (12:27:43 AM): yup
mymiddlefingr (12:37:19 AM): i doont even know how much i care abt that game anymore
mymiddlefingr (12:37:23 AM): i am i na couple other ones
mymiddlefingr (12:37:35 AM): i'm gonna try hard to win immunity
iamsovrycool (12:37:41 AM): lol, me too, thus why I'm not too troubled
mymiddlefingr (12:37:43 AM): so i can try to make something happen to get out fairplay or monica
mymiddlefingr (12:37:45 AM): either one
iamsovrycool (12:37:51 AM): hopefully
mymiddlefingr (12:37:53 AM): yeah, exactly
iamsovrycool (12:38:01 AM): Alex and Tyrone will voe with you
iamsovrycool (12:38:04 AM): *vote
iamsovrycool (12:38:32 AM): also, I didn't want to tell you this, but Jane tried to get me to vote you out.
mymiddlefingr (12:38:48 AM): wow
mymiddlefingr (12:38:57 AM): see and i told her she was a possible target too
mymiddlefingr (12:39:01 AM): when she asked me
mymiddlefingr (12:39:09 AM): i told her it was probly between her, msyelf, you, or alexis
mymiddlefingr (12:39:15 AM): untill the fairplay thing came up
mymiddlefingr (12:39:18 AM): oh well
iamsovrycool (12:39:21 AM): lol
iamsovrycool (12:39:22 AM): Jane Bright 8:45 pm
(8:45:06 PM): Ok

(8:45:11 PM): So here's what i've heard.


(8:45:14 PM): Tyrone burned me.


(8:45:17 PM): Marcus apparently did too.


(8:45:22 PM): So they are voting for me.


(8:45:30 PM): Its kinda Alexis, Tyrone and Marcus


(8:45:34 PM): + You as a 4th.


(8:45:42 PM): You said you arent voting for which i really appreciate.


(8:45:46 PM): So heres what i propose.


(8:45:55 PM): You, Me, Monica and Fairplay vote for Eliza.


(8:46:02 PM): Thats 4, she is gone.
mymiddlefingr (12:39:42 AM): wow
iamsovrycool (12:39:45 AM): yeah
mymiddlefingr (12:39:51 AM): well if i cant get fairplay gone i'l ltry to get jane out
mymiddlefingr (12:40:02 AM): obviously
iamsovrycool (12:40:12 AM): lol yeah, I think that's the best plan
mymiddlefingr (12:41:19 AM): sweet
mymiddlefingr (12:41:25 AM): well atleast i know who's going after me
mymiddlefingr (12:41:29 AM): i was surprised i got no votes
mymiddlefingr (12:41:36 AM): i was surprised it was you that did
mymiddlefingr (12:41:40 AM): and then again that fairplay didn't get 4
mymiddlefingr (12:41:43 AM): stupid
iamsovrycool (12:42:01 AM): yeah
mymiddlefingr (12:43:08 AM): cant wait to join everyone good on the jury
mymiddlefingr (12:43:15 AM): EVERYONE good is gona be there soon
mymiddlefingr (12:43:19 AM): that sucks
iamsovrycool (12:43:19 AM): yup
mymiddlefingr (12:43:37 AM): oh well
mymiddlefingr (12:43:51 AM): game will be over soon for everyone, anyway
iamsovrycool (12:44:30 AM): lol true
mymiddlefingr (12:45:41 AM): i'm gonna take off for the night
mymiddlefingr (12:45:47 AM): watch some TV and fall asleep
iamsovrycool (12:45:58 AM): lol kk
iamsovrycool (12:46:00 AM): gnight
mymiddlefingr (12:46:12 AM): you too
mymiddlefingr (12:46:15 AM): talk to ya later
iamsovrycool (12:46:51 AM): ttyl
mymiddlefingr (12:47:35 AM): oh and thnx again for giving me a chance while it lasted and stuff nice to meet nice ppl
mymiddlefingr (12:47:40 AM): okie now i'm gone
iamsovrycool (12:47:48 AM): lol no problem, and see ya



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so i am right back where i started. square one.

the title is actually kinda misleading because, while all of my efforts have now been reset... i really don't have a clean slate. it's a very dirty slate. but it is accurate in that everything i have done has been undone, and i am more alone now than ever before.


seriously think about this... as i see it, it's me and alexis and possibly tyrone. but he can still go back, depdning on who the next target is... he can still go back there. and if that's the case, then alexis would be stupid to stick with me... so, it's really just me.




i can use that, sort of, as a good reason to keep me for awhile. but if i get kept, i'm only being drug along... or strung along... and it's only VERY temporary.



christy was leaving right there was very bad for me.




i need this immunity so i can go to jane and tell her... i have to vote against you for trying to organize people to get me out. you're the only person i can't trust WHO i can get the votes for, so i need to vote you. UNLESS you decide you want to be a fourth vote against someone else, someone who you tried to get to vote me last round...

something like that.



i need immunity to do something this round, or i'm just gonna have to sit back and try to preserve myself again. and thus, let more power slip away.





if i got it, i'd probly tell monica i want to vote jane. and i'd probly be voting jane... right up untill the end.... if i could get them to agree to jane, instead of tyrone, someone... then i could use that to get jane to vote monica.







here's a PM i sent to monica (titled "mwah") after the votes were read:



that was a good move !


i didn't think christy would be an easy target at all, myself.. guess i misread that !



thats what the plan was before too, the girls are all gone

however that happened, nicely done.


lol i heard jane was trying to get me out to christy and stuff before the end there i'm kinda surprised no one voted me at all. pretty cool!


and thank god that round is over! hopefully moving on things will go back to being better. sorry again, one last time.


*mwah*



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and monica's reply:


Man alive. I have no idea how that worked. Either Alexis or Marcus voted for Christy, and I have no idea which one. I personally thought Fairplay was done.

But, well, looks like things turned out well. And, yeah, there was talk of voting for you. I absolutely slammed that door in people's faces, and told them it wasn't gonna happen. So, probably they're pissed at me. But I don't care.

~ Monica

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~ Monica






fuckin *vomits all over the place*






okay and here's my reply to that:


that's what i heard... thnx you for sticking up for me

i really appreciate it after i caused that fight.


i am not sure who it was that voted which way... everyone says they voted. christy tells me that jane and her were the ones who decided together to go after fairplay, but she also told me she thinks jane voted for her in the end, and not fairplay... so... i dont know.


lol i thought it would be jane that was going, still. actually the only person that told me anything abt christy was fairplay, so it turns out fairplay kept me in the loop at the last second more than anyone else that time! more than alexis even LOL how bizarre is that


but i'm gonna talk to alexis cause i am curious how she voted. i would kinda have to assume she voted fairplay? but she told me she was voting christy, so that worries me that maybe she thinks i'm WITH fairplay.




ah regardless i'm just glad that one's over and glad you guys got away with doing the best possible scenario vote as well, that's pretty good




thnx again, ttyl

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*vomits some more, all over sexy monica*






LOL!

















all right so that's that... i keep thinking and thinking about something i could do to brighten the outlook for myself and for alexis so that she doesn't have to go somehere else. i would really like to be ableto help her game out some... not just like suck up to monica and i hope i survive and they take out tyrone and her before me.


cause that's not good. i want alexis to win. i know, i don't see that happening...

i mean i want to win but i see that happening even less. lol. i'd still try and beat alexis but if i t were up to me, which it's not, it would be her and i at final 2.




it's funny that we're the two from our original tribe that are left. one person that was voted out, and then the perso nthat woulda probly been out first if it had gone down to just them left.


which woulda been a better move for me emotionally AND strategically. but the zombie on a leash phase killed me. the robot phase killed me. or it wounded me anyway. fatally. and then the culmination of it, when i told monica how i felt... that sorta just finished it off.






here's a really short convo i had with jane, after the votes:


mymiddlefingr (2:24:15 AM): grats on surviving
mymiddlefingr (2:24:55 AM):
Janebrighty (2:25:19 AM): Thanks
mymiddlefingr (2:25:47 AM): kinda sucks that christy went but... thank god that tribal is over i guess
mymiddlefingr (2:25:58 AM): that was a bizarre one
Janebrighty (2:26:00 AM): Yeah
mymiddlefingr (2:30:31 AM): well, hopefully tings are a little smoother in the future
mymiddlefingr (2:30:44 AM): things*
Janebrighty (2:30:47 AM): Hopefully
mymiddlefingr (2:31:01 AM): i am gonna go to bed... lay down and watch some TV anyway
mymiddlefingr (2:31:16 AM): thnx for not voting me
mymiddlefingr (2:31:21 AM): *mwah* ttyl jane!
Janebrighty (2:31:39 AM): Lol, night Eliza!

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as little was said as was expected. i dislike jane sooooooo much. i dislike her on the show too. but i mean, she's so like... hardly active at all, doesn't do anything, didn't even know i couldn't vote, has no idea abotu what's going on...

she's just hear to fuck shit up for the people who do care. she is SUCH an empty vote. SUCH an empty vote. kinda like tyrone is. but atleast tyrone talks to me, and does seem to like me.


marcus comes off the same way, to me. just... whatever.



speaking marcus, here's a convo with him from just a bit ago:


marcus (dinkii3) is available 2:29 pm
mymiddlefingr 2:29 pm
(2:29:06 PM): heya!
(2:29:12 PM): that was a crazy tribal last night =-O
(2:30:02 PM): how are you doing?
marcus 2:30 pm
(2:30:12 PM): Hahaha.
(2:30:13 PM): hey
(2:30:25 PM): i am doing good. and yes it was a crazy tribal
mymiddlefingr 2:32 pm
(2:32:00 PM): glad it's over with
(2:32:18 PM): i was sooooo scared when jane started trying to get me voted out =-O
(2:32:25 PM): but, y'all didn't listen to her! YAY :-)
(2:32:51 PM): grats on final 7!!! it's getting closer to the end, all the time
(2:33:05 PM): how is I Love Money going?
marcus 2:34 pm
(2:34:21 PM): its going good
(2:34:26 PM): thx
(2:34:32 PM): yeah i was not going to vote u out
mymiddlefingr 2:34 pm
(2:34:44 PM): *hugz*
(2:34:45 PM): :-)
(2:34:50 PM): i feel so loved :-) hehehe
marcus 2:34 pm
(2:34:54 PM): mhmm
(2:34:55 PM): mhmm
(2:34:59 PM): by me only ?
(2:34:59 PM): haha
(2:35:01 PM): i hope
mymiddlefingr 2:35 pm
(2:35:56 PM): yepperZ
marcus 2:36 pm
(2:36:02 PM): lol
mymiddlefingr 2:36 pm
(2:36:05 PM): fairplay considered voting me i heard
(2:36:13 PM): so i only feel loved by you now :-)
mymiddlefingr 2:39 pm
(2:39:03 PM): and everyone lied to me about who they were voting, as it turns out, so the only person i can trust now is you
(2:39:04 PM): LOL
(2:39:29 PM): so yeah i definately only love you now :-)
(2:39:36 PM): whatcha up to today hun?
marcus 2:39 pm
(2:39:59 PM): hahah
(2:40:01 PM): yayy
(2:40:03 PM): now i feel the love
mymiddlefingr 2:40 pm
(2:40:27 PM): hehehe yay!
(2:40:50 PM): good luck i nthe immunity challenge tonight! i'll be trying really hard for it, definately!
(2:40:53 PM): i hope one of us can win :-)
marcus 2:42 pm
(2:42:16 PM): yeah i want to win it too
mymiddlefingr 2:42 pm
(2:42:32 PM): :-)
(2:42:38 PM): lets kick some ass then!
(2:42:39 PM): hehehe
(2:43:05 PM): if u win it i'll congratulate you with a back massage :-)
mymiddlefingr 2:47 pm
(2:47:13 PM): i am gonna go watch a movie, but i'll be back in a bit
(2:47:19 PM): have fun! ttyl
marcus 2:47 pm
(2:47:24 PM): cya
(2:47:34 PM): hey
(2:47:35 PM): wait
mymiddlefingr 2:47 pm
(2:47:38 PM): ya?
marcus 2:47 pm
(2:47:42 PM): what movie are u going to watch ?
mymiddlefingr 2:47 pm
(2:47:52 PM): "death at a funeral" with chris rock :-)
marcus 2:49 pm
(2:49:01 PM): haha yeah
(2:49:04 PM): that one is funny
mymiddlefingr 2:49 pm
(2:49:07 PM): yay!
marcus 2:49 pm
(2:49:10 PM): i saw the previous
mymiddlefingr 2:49 pm
(2:49:13 PM): i bet it will be :-)
marcus 2:49 pm
(2:49:15 PM): the is a midget soo funny
(2:49:15 PM): haha
(2:49:18 PM): have fun
mymiddlefingr 2:49 pm
(2:49:20 PM): LOL!
mymiddlefingr 2:49 pm
(2:49:24 PM): hahahha i cant wait
(2:49:29 PM): see ya when i am done :-)
marcus 2:51 pm
(2:51:13 PM): ok



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i'm sooooooooooooooooo alone











fuck you jane, fuck you fairplay, fuck you monica, and fuck you marcus.


and i guess fuck you tyrone and alexis too just cause i dont think it's right to leave them out





and fuck you eliza.



and fuck you damien





and do you wanna fuck, sarah? ;D









hehehehehehe i'm soooooooooooo fucked.

[Host Sarah]

You still got Immunity to fight for

[Eliza Orlins]

yepperZ i do... i need this one, or i am screwed in the short term


right now i'm just screwed in the long term

[Eliza Orlins]

during the immunity challenge



EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW it's majority rules!!!!


of course it's ur favorite challenge shit i actually usually like this too and can do okay. i am not in the majority right now though

and i dont wanna go around bugging people for it.


i don't think i will win it... to begin with... and i dont wanna like annoy people or naything. i want to lay as low as humanly possible so that i don't ABSOLUTELY have to win the challenge. cause if i just bug people by asking, then i'd better win.


it's not that i won't try, i'm just not gonna go crazy for it. and it's not that i dont think i need it either. i mean i think i stand achance of surviving so it's not like a complete desperation like my only only ONLY way out or something... but there's a bigger chance of me going than staying this round, i do believe. like legitimately, not just my paranoia talking

but i need it in order to make anything happen to brighten my future... to have a chance at doing that.


i mean... i don't know. i might be able to win it. christy might tell me what she answers... jaime MIGHT but i doubt it... and i dont even know if amanda will make any answers or take any part so i wouldn't count on that personally...

but they're probly tell alexis first. maybe she has a shot at winning it.


sadly, it's almost like... i have to hope for her not to win it. cause if she does, i'm definately like... the most logical target, you would htink. maybe tyrone, i dont know. either way, someone i dont want is gonna go out if i dont and that sucks...








with marcus...



marcus (dinkii3) is available 11:40 pm
marcus 11:40 pm
(11:40:14 PM): hey
(11:40:19 PM): lets do the challenge in a chat room
mymiddlefingr 11:40 pm
(11:40:20 PM): hey there!
marcus 11:40 pm
(11:40:22 PM): so we can move on fast
(11:40:26 PM): lol
mymiddlefingr 11:40 pm
(11:40:32 PM): the japan challenge?
marcus 11:40 pm
(11:40:34 PM): si
mymiddlefingr 11:40 pm
(11:40:38 PM): sure, with who?
marcus 11:40 pm
(11:40:43 PM): witht he host
(11:40:50 PM): i;m making the chat
mymiddlefingr 11:40 pm
(11:40:56 PM): what do you mean tho?
marcus 11:41 pm
(11:41:02 PM): do the challenge live
(11:41:03 PM): now
(11:41:04 PM): wait
(11:41:10 PM): i'm making the chat
(11:41:14 PM): that way we will move on fast
mymiddlefingr 11:41 pm
(11:41:15 PM): okie...
(11:41:25 PM): ya but isn't it better to try to collect naswers first or whatever?
mymiddlefingr 11:44 pm
(11:44:04 PM): can you tell fairplay abt it or should i?
marcus 11:45 pm
(11:45:32 PM): tell him
mymiddlefingr 11:45 pm
(11:45:37 PM): okie i did
(11:45:46 PM): i told tyrone as well
marcus 11:45 pm
(11:45:53 PM): sweer
(11:45:55 PM): sweet
(11:47:45 PM): i cant get fairplay in idky
mymiddlefingr 11:48 pm
(11:48:01 PM): he didn't reply to me either, he might not be around right now
marcus 11:51 pm
(11:51:49 PM): yeah
mymiddlefingr 11:52 pm
(11:52:16 PM): do we have a plan for the next tribal?
(11:52:22 PM): i haven't talked to anyone abt it yet at all
(11:52:23 PM): :-P
marcus 11:52 pm
(11:52:51 PM): i have ur back
(11:52:54 PM): i dont want u out
(11:53:01 PM): i hope u protect ur sweet marcous too
mymiddlefingr 11:53 pm
(11:53:05 PM): same here totally
(11:53:11 PM): i haven't heard ur name at all
(11:53:19 PM): i think jane was the only one asking to get me out last time from what i heard
marcus 11:53 pm
(11:53:31 PM): do u trust jane ?
(11:53:37 PM): she is strong tho
(11:53:42 PM): monica is strong too
(11:53:47 PM): a mean everybody left is strong
mymiddlefingr 11:53 pm
(11:53:54 PM): yeah they are
(11:53:57 PM): i dont trust jane no
(11:54:00 PM): she tried to get me voted out
(11:54:02 PM): at the last tribal
(11:56:04 PM): i'll vote however you want tho
marcus 11:56 pm
(11:56:08 PM): yeah
mymiddlefingr 11:56 pm
(11:56:15 PM): just wanna make sure i am in majority :-)
marcus 11:56 pm
(11:56:24 PM): with me u will always be
mymiddlefingr 11:57 pm
(11:57:01 PM): :-)
(11:57:06 PM): how about monica and fairplay?
(11:57:12 PM): are they with us as well?
(12:03:49 AM): LOL i like how you talk to sarah
(12:03:52 AM): that's funny!
(12:03:58 AM): or tara, i guess i can call her :-P
marcus 12:04 am
(12:04:02 AM): haha
(12:04:03 AM): ikr
(12:04:49 AM): i think fairlay and monica are with us
(12:04:52 AM): but who knows tho
(12:04:57 AM): i think they are bth more together
(12:05:01 AM): like they are closer
mymiddlefingr 12:05 am
(12:05:07 AM): yeah
(12:05:09 AM): probably
(12:05:17 AM): how about jane? she with you?
marcus 12:07 am
(12:07:19 AM): yes i guess
(12:07:21 AM): haha
mymiddlefingr 12:07 am
(12:07:26 AM): wel that's good then
(12:07:27 AM): :-)
(12:07:44 AM): i wonder if monica will win immunity again :-P LOL
(12:07:54 AM): i hope u get it! we need some different ppl winning!
marcus 12:08 am
(12:08:02 AM): ikr
mymiddlefingr 12:08 am
(12:08:45 AM): :-P
marcus 12:08 am
(12:08:51 AM): lol


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blah. i dont know... does that help? that he wants me around... does that help? i really dont know. cause while people tell me the same thing as i kinda feel... like he isn't the biggest threat and stuff... is that really the truth? how long can you be "not the biggest threat"? like right up to the end when you win the game?


if it helps that he seems to like me then that's good. but it's always just "seems to" anyway.



dude, even if i could trust people, i still wouldn't.





lol.... i liked that line.




here's some more of that convo with marcus...



mymiddlefingr 12:08 am
(12:08:45 AM): :-P
marcus 12:08 am
(12:08:51 AM): lol
mymiddlefingr 12:34 am
(12:34:10 AM): that was a fun chat :-)
(12:34:14 AM): i miss tara already tho :-P
marcus 12:34 am
(12:34:27 AM): haha it was
(12:34:30 AM): it was my idea
(12:34:31 AM): u see
(12:34:34 AM): marcus marcus
(12:34:39 AM): *i thought u love me too eliza haha
mymiddlefingr 12:34 am
(12:34:56 AM): hahahaha
(12:34:59 AM): i definately do
(12:35:09 AM): but i was thnking three-way with tara
mymiddlefingr 12:35 am
(12:35:15 AM): woulda been nice :-P
marcus 12:35 am
(12:35:16 AM): hahahaah
(12:35:21 AM): nice triooo
mymiddlefingr 12:35 am
(12:35:27 AM): heheheh the best!
(12:36:21 AM): well i guess it's jsut you and me
(12:36:38 AM): i think we can make that work!
marcus 12:37 am
(12:37:34 AM): haha yeah
mymiddlefingr 12:38 am
(12:38:07 AM): i voted u for sexiest :-P
marcus 12:38 am
(12:38:20 AM): awwww
mymiddlefingr 12:38 am
(12:38:21 AM): and then put in brackets (and tara)
(12:38:24 AM): :-)
marcus 12:38 am
(12:38:25 AM): hehehehe
(12:38:32 AM): u should put in memory of the chat
(12:38:33 AM): haha
mymiddlefingr 12:38 am
(12:38:41 AM): hahaha i will :-)
mymiddlefingr 12:41 am
(12:41:43 AM): i signed out of the chat but i'll still be awake for a little bit
(12:41:44 AM): :-)
marcus 12:43 am
(12:43:37 AM): yeah same here
mymiddlefingr 12:43 am
(12:43:52 AM): :-)

marcus 12:45 am
(12:45:14 AM): i love this girl
(12:45:17 AM): www.youtube.com/watch?v=e5MsuM4Z0As
(12:45:20 AM): watch all the video
(12:45:24 AM): when she talks is soo sexy
mymiddlefingr 12:46 am
(12:46:13 AM): wow!
(12:46:43 AM): hotttttt
marcus 12:46 am
(12:46:55 AM): she talks soo sexy
mymiddlefingr 12:47 am
(12:47:03 AM): miss sassy
(12:47:06 AM): i like when hse says her name
(12:47:09 AM): sexy
marcus 12:47 am
(12:47:13 AM): omg me too
(12:47:15 AM): let me put it again
mymiddlefingr 12:47 am
(12:47:26 AM): :-)
(12:47:30 AM): yeah me too
(12:47:40 AM): perfect video :-)


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fuck am i doing? or... WHAT the fuck am i doing?



i am so not the flirty type or anything like that... not even the chit-chatty type really.


i wonder how much that shows


fuck my life this is what it's come to. relying on exchanging this kinda shit with these kinds of people i view as unreliable.... like... i dont think i can rely on this dude to make me any safer than his one single vote...


and i know he will want to vote alexis or tyrone, unfortunately. i am almost postive...


all though he is talking abt breaking up fairplay and monica more and more. like just hinting at it sorta deal...


you know?





i have no idea. i cant really... rely on my interpratations of anything this guy says really because... well... i dont know. i just dont connect...

well not really, anyway... i mean... yeah. that's about it.





and i haven't really talked to anyone else today. alexis a tiny bit but i was sorta just staying away for the most part...


trying to anyway. just gotta let like... a little time go by. i dont wanna overplay this and make SURE i am out. if i do in fact have a small chance, i want that chance to atleast stay the same size and not shrink... i mean i'd love for it to grow, but i also don't wanna stomp on it.





i am kinda waiting to talk to monica. just a bit, make sure she doesn't feel like i am just totally not talking to her or something.





i sent fairplay a message today just asking if he had an idea of what he wanted to do with the next vote. said "i assume one of the people who voted you out." whatever... and like "if you know who they are for sure it'd be helpful".... or something like that. it was a tiny message, just to see if that's a more effective way of communicating with him when i absolutely have to or not. just like a test message, pretty much.


cause he just is annoyingly unreliable by AIM. so much so that i end up jsut getting mad by the time he replies... i've pretty burned every bit of relationship i might have had with him just by being genuinely annoyed when i talk to him. it's really really hard for me not to be annoying back. not that it's on purpose or anything i just dont hold anything back for the most part and it gets very overbearing and shit, naturally... as it would.






here's that tiny little conversation with alexis:


mymiddlefingr (8:35:12 PM):
mymiddlefingr (11:17:42 PM): ewwwwww
mymiddlefingr (11:17:46 PM): did u see the challenge?
gamerkennyhoang (11:17:48 PM): yeah
mymiddlefingr (11:18:00 PM):
mymiddlefingr (11:18:09 PM): lol we have no chance... atleast i dont
gamerkennyhoang (11:22:32 PM): yeah
mymiddlefingr (11:23:33 PM):
mymiddlefingr (11:23:37 PM): anyone talking to you anymore?
mymiddlefingr (11:23:41 PM): lol, not me
gamerkennyhoang (11:23:40 PM): nope
mymiddlefingr (11:23:45 PM): oh well
gamerkennyhoang (11:23:47 PM): its not close to tribal
gamerkennyhoang (11:23:49 PM): no scrambling
mymiddlefingr (11:23:51 PM): yeah true
mymiddlefingr (11:24:04 PM): well, you never know...
mymiddlefingr (11:24:09 PM): the jury answers too
mymiddlefingr (11:24:14 PM): so that might help, you never know
gamerkennyhoang (11:25:32 PM): yeah
mymiddlefingr (11:26:59 PM): well, good luck in it. i'm not doing my answers till tomorrow probly, it's too late right now
gamerkennyhoang (11:28:08 PM): yeha me too
gamerkennyhoang signed off at 11:29:42 PM



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like i said, tiny...






i'm having a convo with monica now. i jsut started. i like to wait awhile after people get online if possible... so i waited like 20 mins and ummmmmmm ya... i'll post that if anything good is said... or otherwise, probly

[Eliza Orlins]

took me a loooooooong time to post that one. i just kept doing other things and writing a bit here and a bit there...

[Eliza Orlins]

all right here's that convo with monica...


it happened on two accounts... so... i'll just include the last one since the first one was just like chit chat stuff... so yeah at the start of this convo i had already had one going with him from my other account... or with her, sorry... it's still a girl character... a SEXY girl character



November 8, 2010
sierrar66 (1:23:53 AM): hey monica
UblazRob (1:23:56 AM): Hey
sierrar66 (1:24:03 AM): ah fuck
sierrar66 (1:24:05 AM): sorry wrong one
sierrar66 (1:24:10 AM): now i'm double messaging u
UblazRob (1:24:15 AM): Hahaha
UblazRob (1:24:17 AM): I noticed
sierrar66 (1:24:21 AM): lol sorry i am playing two games with monica's right now
UblazRob (1:24:24 AM): No worries
UblazRob (1:24:28 AM): I'm obviously the cooler one
sierrar66 (1:24:33 AM): obviously
UblazRob (1:24:38 AM): So, ehh, have you heard anything about how people are voting?
sierrar66 (1:24:42 AM): ur sexy monica
UblazRob (1:24:42 AM): Marcus is being hella shifty
sierrar66 (1:24:47 AM): marcus is?
UblazRob (1:24:49 AM): Which makes me think Tyrone's probably targetting me
sierrar66 (1:24:59 AM): i honestly haven't
sierrar66 (1:25:04 AM): all i've done so far is PM fairplay
sierrar66 (1:25:16 AM): asking if he has any plans or knows who voted him for sure and stuff
sierrar66 (1:26:10 AM): i would talk to tyrone abt it
sierrar66 (1:26:25 AM): but hes doing a challenge for bermuda triangle all stars
sierrar66 (1:26:44 AM): he already kinda shrugged off talking abt japan
sierrar66 (1:27:11 AM): BUT i can always find out in a bit, i did try to help him with his challenge so soon i can bring it up again
UblazRob (1:27:44 AM): k
sierrar66 (1:28:23 AM): has anyone really said anything to you? or is it just not time to be talking the vote yet? kinda what i figured
UblazRob (1:28:30 AM): Nope
UblazRob (1:28:32 AM): Nobody's said anything
sierrar66 (1:28:54 AM): ya
sierrar66 (1:29:15 AM): well if it helps, marcus has told me he's in the majority so i am too. he said you and fairplay and jane are the majority
sierrar66 (1:29:25 AM): so.... ya...
sierrar66 (1:29:27 AM): lol
UblazRob (1:29:55 AM): Hrm.
sierrar66 (1:29:55 AM): well i mean him, me, you, fairplay, and jane
UblazRob (1:29:56 AM): Interesting.
UblazRob (1:30:00 AM): Well, that's good
sierrar66 (1:30:23 AM): mind you, as we know, jane was trying to get me out last time, so i dont know what to make of anything marcus ever says
UblazRob (1:30:57 AM): I know
UblazRob (1:31:05 AM): I essentially punched Jane in the face
UblazRob (1:31:13 AM): I was legit screaming at her over AIM
UblazRob (1:31:23 AM): I was like, "There are four people voting you"
UblazRob (1:31:32 AM): Her: "Oh. Well we should vote off Eliza then."
sierrar66 (1:31:44 AM): wow...
UblazRob (1:31:47 AM): Me: "NO DAMMIT. FOUR PEOPLE GOING AGAINST YOU."
UblazRob (1:32:02 AM): Me: "THAT MEANS THAT YOU SHOULD @$@ing VOTE FOR ONE OF THEM!!"
sierrar66 (1:32:33 AM): LOL exactly
sierrar66 (1:32:42 AM): well i'm glad u got through to her
sierrar66 (1:32:59 AM): pretty sure she was one of th eones that voted christy, right?
sierrar66 (1:33:05 AM): that's what christy thought anyway
UblazRob (1:33:12 AM): Yeah
UblazRob (1:33:14 AM): She was
sierrar66 (1:34:03 AM): cool
sierrar66 (1:34:11 AM): well, we'll see what she does this time
sierrar66 (1:34:12 AM):
sierrar66 (1:34:25 AM): i get a vote this time so i'm happy
sierrar66 (1:34:56 AM): that sucked i had no idea really because i didn't get a vote so it was kinda pointless to be talking to me
sierrar66 (1:35:15 AM): marcus and jane didn't even know i didn't get a vote tho till i told them lol
sierrar66 (1:35:57 AM): personally if it were up to me i'd vote either one of them
sierrar66 (1:36:08 AM): just for sucking so hard then all of a sudden showing up and being like WTF and stuff
sierrar66 (1:36:20 AM): but i'll go whatever, not too picky really
sierrar66 (1:36:44 AM): oops i meant tyrone or jane, sorry
sierrar66 (1:44:58 AM): oh tyrone's going to bed
UblazRob (1:45:13 AM): lol
sierrar66 (1:45:16 AM): ah well he probly has not idea yet anyway, i'll make sure i talk to him before we gotta actualyl vote tho
sierrar66 (1:45:25 AM):
sierrar66 (1:45:57 AM): how do you think your chances are on the challenge?
sierrar66 (1:46:12 AM): i historically have sucked at these, and i dont think it'll be much different here
UblazRob (1:46:24 AM): lol
UblazRob (1:46:27 AM): I should suck, too
sierrar66 (1:46:39 AM): lol ya
sierrar66 (1:46:55 AM): i kinda just guess usually, that's what i'm gonna end up doing here
sierrar66 (1:47:18 AM): gonna do the list tomorrow tho, i dont feel like it tonight
sierrar66 (1:47:28 AM): u'll probly be the sexiest if i cant say tara hahaha
UblazRob (1:48:38 AM): lol
sierrar66 (1:49:30 AM): oh wait
sierrar66 (1:49:53 AM): marcus did say that you and fairplay seemed closer to eachother than to like anyone else sorta thing
sierrar66 (1:49:59 AM): here wait
sierrar66 (1:50:03 AM): this is easier:
sierrar66 (1:50:55 AM): dinkii3 (12:04:49 AM):i think fairlay and monica are with us dinkii3 (12:04:52 AM):but who knows tho dinkii3 (12:04:57 AM):i think they are bth more togetherdinkii3 (12:05:01 AM):like they are closer
sierrar66 (1:51:03 AM): it's hard to always get what he is trying to say exactly
sierrar66 (1:51:17 AM): so, might as well just post his words it's not confused
UblazRob (1:51:19 AM): Ech
sierrar66 (1:51:31 AM): but he did say y'all are with us and so is jane
sierrar66 (1:51:56 AM): but yeah, thats like all the talk we even did that was at the game
sierrar66 (1:52:11 AM): so i dont know, he just doesn't tal kgame much, i dont know how threatening you can take him
UblazRob (1:53:04 AM): k
sierrar66 (1:54:14 AM): and other than that, nothing really to say game-wise yet
sierrar66 (1:54:58 AM): maybe fairplay has like an extra vote or something to make things easier this round
sierrar66 (1:55:14 AM): well if that would even make it easier for sure, lol
UblazRob (1:56:52 AM): lol
UblazRob (1:56:53 AM): That would
UblazRob (1:56:59 AM): Well, as long as Marcus is loyal
UblazRob (1:57:00 AM): That's good
sierrar66 (1:58:21 AM): if he likes me like he seems to... he's getting me into like i love money and stuff, like this show he really likes... if he does actually like me then i can just keep talking to him and make sure he is loyal
sierrar66 (1:58:29 AM): by saying i just dont wanna vote you
sierrar66 (1:58:37 AM): and fairplay too if you want
UblazRob (1:58:39 AM): lol
UblazRob (1:58:40 AM): k
UblazRob (1:58:45 AM): Don't bother so much with Fairplay
sierrar66 (1:58:51 AM): but yeah i'll just keep chatting with him and hopefully that'll help some
UblazRob (1:58:51 AM): I don't wnat him to think I'm closer to Jane/Fairplay than him
UblazRob (1:58:54 AM): k
sierrar66 (1:58:55 AM): oh okay
UblazRob (1:58:56 AM): g2g
UblazRob (1:58:57 AM): ttyl
sierrar66 (1:59:01 AM): yeah ttyl
UblazRob signed off at 1:59:05 AM


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you know, i still have to give him stuff. a LOT of stuff. jeez, HER stuff... omg. it is a vote that i need, and it's a vote that i view as actually influential... so... i can't let things be different, or seem different... i gotta really make sure my attitude towards her is not changed by her attitude towards me.

lol... i gotta just try to let nothing affect me. and be positive and joyful and dumb. and like a puppet. cause if what i think will happen happens, and i dont win immunity, i've got nothing to rely on except for a place that i did have at one time offered to me in the majorty...

i would jsut have to take my chances with them. hope for a better challenge for me next time i guess. go down the crappiest road possible... the road that leads to you having to go on an immunity run to survive



hell i'm basically there... if i'm not actually there, already. this just isn't an immunity that i can reasonably see myself winning. not right now, not in this game.


so suck dick i will. as much dick as they will let me, i will get right to it. and hope for the best.





but don't get me wrong... if i see an oppurtunity... like anything real, at all... i'm gonna go for it, for real. like if there's a good chance i could change things up some, i would go for it.


and if i have some pull in the vote and it's just between tyrone and alexis then... good... i hope i have that. beyond hoping i stay, and i am not gonna get voted out... i would really hope i have enough pull to help protect alexis, if she needs it, for atleast for one round.








c'mon marcus, start REALLY talking abt fairplay or monica going... i want him to say he wants one of them gone... especially if he were to say either of them... to break them up. if he said that... that's something i would not give to monica.


definately not.















the title of this thread sucked. no clean slate, and i'm just doing the same old thing. really...



but it sounds pretty. i think so anyway.



i can do a more fitting one tomorrow.







... it seems like i've posted a lot here today for "laying low" and "taking some time off"... just looks, at a glance, like a lot of convos and stuff for "not over-playing".


lol. wateva. i'm more interested in having things to post here to try and make this as interesting as possible than... well... anything else, really. weird kinda mindset.




i'm off for the night.
















i am going to need knee pads or something if i plan on going much further.