merge round 2

[Eliza Orlins]

before the immunity challenge



so........... not really in the mood for doing confessionals right now... couldn't even think of an adequate title to i am jsut gonna start using my usual format... titling my posts after what round i make them in, and making note of when in the round i posted...


and nothing has happened for me today. i've just been having a sort of like non-computer day... i need them, once in awhile. but i do have some stuff from yesterday to post...


starting with my message to monica, that i sent... let me check...


at 6:09 pm yesterday... a PM...


ummmm... okay so i have bad news. sorry, i gotta vote fairplay. i wanna be honest with you... i can't tell him cause i just think he'll be really mad at me but, from what i've been able to gather, it sound like fairplay will be going... it sounds like they have 6 votes without me voting so...


i'm really sorry. i was hoping i'd see you on AIM so i could talk to you abt it today but i never saw you


it really is no reflection on you, you seem really nice and i'm not gonna come after you or anything if they ever do. i just really believe fairplay is going, with or without my help, and i keep trying to talk to fairplay but he does that thing where he leaves his AIM on all day and so i never know when he's actually available. and when i do start talking to him he always just seems to leave. and just from talking to the people want fairplay gone, it really sounds like he's gone.



hope you don't hate me too much. sorry again


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she replied with this, before the votes were read:


Okay. Well, I don't believe that they have the votes in place, but you've obviously heard things I haven't heard. Far as I know, it's me/Jon/Brad/Marcus/Tyrone voting for Amanda, which means it all depends on Jane, but you have to do what you have to do. If Tyrone's voting Fairplay, then, yeah, Fairplay's sunk and there's really nothing we can do about it.

I definitely appreciate your honesty, and I hope we can work together in the future. After all, the Jaime/Christy/Amanda alliance is a huge threat, and if we don't do something they're gonna take this all the way. :/

Talk to you later!
~ Monica




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and then i said this:


thnx for not bitching me out. i am so afraid of what i am doing...

i really had no idea everything was so confusing here. not sure i'd have tried so hard to get back in if i understood what was going on



again, sorry if fairplay does actually go, he told me how tight y'all have been from the start


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and that's how that went...



now, when i sent that original PM to monica, i also told amanda i needed to tell her something.... nothing abt how i'm voting, or anything, just something...

i wanted to do it right then because that's when i was telling monica i'd not be voting with her side... just in case monica got upset and decided to use that convo i gave her... right then...



later on, when amanda got on AIM, she came and asked me what i needed to tell her...


and we had this conversation on AIM:


MsMontanaUSA2005 (10:24:03 PM): So what do you have to tell me?
mymiddlefingr (10:24:38 PM): okay so this might totally kill any relationship we might have had...
mymiddlefingr (10:25:10 PM): but i did it when i thought for sure that i had no choice, because monica had me convinced that no matter what, fairplay was staying and that was that
mymiddlefingr (10:25:22 PM): so i thought i HAD to go with them
MsMontanaUSA2005 (10:25:33 PM): ...and what did you do?
mymiddlefingr (10:25:45 PM): i gave monica a conversation that you and i had
MsMontanaUSA2005 (10:25:53 PM): ......................
mymiddlefingr (10:25:57 PM): abt not trusting alexis
mymiddlefingr (10:26:12 PM): that's probly what that whole thing that fairplay was doing was from
mymiddlefingr (10:26:20 PM): but it's resolved as far as i know
mymiddlefingr (10:26:32 PM): and it didn;'t hurt you
mymiddlefingr (10:26:44 PM): but, yeah, i udnerstand if that makes you not like me
MsMontanaUSA2005 (10:26:50 PM): Okay... let's hope it's okay...
mymiddlefingr (10:26:55 PM): in my defense
mymiddlefingr (10:27:03 PM): i gave it to her, because i was gonna try and get them to target alexis
mymiddlefingr (10:27:16 PM): i was gonna say like maybe y'all would target alexis and so it'd be easier to get rid of her
mymiddlefingr (10:27:18 PM): than you
MsMontanaUSA2005 (10:27:19 PM): It's a stupid game. It's not like you told her my main screenname or anything
mymiddlefingr (10:27:25 PM): but then i had a crisis of conscience
mymiddlefingr (10:27:29 PM): and i just decided to say fuck it
mymiddlefingr (10:27:34 PM): and vote with you regardless
mymiddlefingr (10:27:47 PM): as soon as i gave it away is when i knew i couldn't vote you
mymiddlefingr (10:27:58 PM): even if it got me out of the majority
MsMontanaUSA2005 (10:28:12 PM): I don't really care, I trust Alexis a lot more than I trust all of them on old Neishi
MsMontanaUSA2005 (10:28:22 PM): And I told Alexis that I lied to Fairplay about it
MsMontanaUSA2005 (10:28:31 PM): And wthat we were going to confuse them
mymiddlefingr (10:28:59 PM): yeah... i dont tink anything will happen cause of it
mymiddlefingr (10:29:05 PM): except that monica...
mymiddlefingr (10:29:10 PM): once she sees that i voted against brad
mymiddlefingr (10:29:12 PM): and lied to her
mymiddlefingr (10:29:17 PM): is gonna come to you and show you the convo
mymiddlefingr (10:29:23 PM): and be like vote out eliza and all this
MsMontanaUSA2005 (10:29:38 PM): And I'll play along, then come to you
MsMontanaUSA2005 (10:29:46 PM): And we'll try to get Monica out
mymiddlefingr (10:29:55 PM): yeah that'd be good to get rid of her
mymiddlefingr (10:30:04 PM): since i was talking to her more than anyone else over there
mymiddlefingr (10:30:10 PM): i wish i hadn't
mymiddlefingr (10:30:16 PM): but i honestly didn't know what to do when i got back in
MsMontanaUSA2005 (10:30:17 PM): We're blindsiding their low man... the one they won't suspect at all
mymiddlefingr (10:30:21 PM): i was like just starting my game up then
mymiddlefingr (10:30:33 PM): ya
mymiddlefingr (10:30:36 PM): i think our move is a good one
mymiddlefingr (10:30:50 PM): my only concern is if it's a 6-6 tie
MsMontanaUSA2005 (10:30:50 PM): I hope this works
mymiddlefingr (10:30:57 PM): cause of alexis' extra vote
MsMontanaUSA2005 (10:30:58 PM): We'll do a tiebreaker and hopefully win it
mymiddlefingr (10:31:05 PM): yep hopefully
MsMontanaUSA2005 (10:31:08 PM): If it's a puzzle, I will PWN BRAD
mymiddlefingr (10:31:11 PM):
MsMontanaUSA2005 (10:31:38 PM): If it's posting... well I'm in the middle of an endurance right now
MsMontanaUSA2005 (10:31:44 PM): I hate this "post every minute" crap
MsMontanaUSA2005 (10:31:55 PM): But you gotta do it sometimes
mymiddlefingr (10:33:28 PM): jeez
mymiddlefingr (10:33:34 PM): is it the final four one?
MsMontanaUSA2005 (10:33:57 PM): Yes.
mymiddlefingr (10:34:06 PM): oh, well, good luck
mymiddlefingr (10:34:12 PM): i should probably leaev u alone for it
mymiddlefingr (10:34:19 PM): leave*
MsMontanaUSA2005 (10:34:37 PM): lol, I'm fine, just a bit distracted
mymiddlefingr (10:34:51 PM): ya, well that takes quite a bit of focus
mymiddlefingr (10:35:03 PM): i can go watch some more tv anyway, i'm not ready to come on here yet
mymiddlefingr (10:35:31 PM): sorry again abt that... i've chosen my side now, and i'm gonna stick with you from here on... so there wont be anymore of that
mymiddlefingr (10:35:39 PM): i just really didn't know what i was doing yet
mymiddlefingr (10:36:03 PM): and thnx for being so understanding and not getting mad at me
MsMontanaUSA2005 (10:36:07 PM): It's okay. And I trust you will stick with us.
MsMontanaUSA2005 (10:36:18 PM): It would have been bad news if you had told them of our plans
mymiddlefingr (10:36:29 PM): yeah, i wont do that
mymiddlefingr (10:36:49 PM): good luck in the challenge
mymiddlefingr (10:36:54 PM): i will be back on in a bit if u wanna talk
MsMontanaUSA2005 (10:36:57 PM): Thanks! See ya later
mymiddlefingr (10:37:00 PM): you too!
MsMontanaUSA2005 (11:50:54 PM): Tribal results are up
mymiddlefingr (11:51:07 PM): oh okie
mymiddlefingr (11:51:09 PM): i'll read
mymiddlefingr (11:51:11 PM): dont tell me...
mymiddlefingr (11:51:14 PM): i'm scared
mymiddlefingr (11:51:16 PM): brb
MsMontanaUSA2005 (11:51:34 PM): okay
mymiddlefingr (11:54:46 PM): good
mymiddlefingr (11:54:47 PM): jeez
mymiddlefingr (11:54:56 PM): once i saw the alexis vote
mymiddlefingr (11:54:58 PM):
mymiddlefingr (11:55:01 PM): i knew
mymiddlefingr (11:55:05 PM): awesome
MsMontanaUSA2005 (11:55:12 PM): We have to get Jane on our side
mymiddlefingr (11:55:20 PM): they didn't show the votes tho
MsMontanaUSA2005 (11:55:23 PM): Jane bootlisted Alexis
MsMontanaUSA2005 (11:55:27 PM): I know
MsMontanaUSA2005 (11:55:33 PM): Damien was on his crappy computer
mymiddlefingr (11:56:13 PM):
mymiddlefingr (11:56:14 PM): oh well
MsMontanaUSA2005 (11:57:00 PM): But we took out someone who wasn't expecting Jinjo, that's for sure!
mymiddlefingr (11:57:24 PM): true
mymiddlefingr (11:57:31 PM): monica said she's not mad at me
mymiddlefingr (11:57:39 PM): but told me that i shoulda voted with them
mymiddlefingr (11:57:42 PM): it sounded kinda threatening
mymiddlefingr (11:57:45 PM): just now...
mymiddlefingr (11:57:49 PM): and then said "and now i have to go"
mymiddlefingr (11:57:53 PM): oh well, wateva
mymiddlefingr (11:58:04 PM): i kinda got caught in the middle there cause of just not knowing what to do, i came in too late
MsMontanaUSA2005 (11:58:09 PM): lol, why? We have majority now... as long as we get Jane
MsMontanaUSA2005 (11:58:14 PM): Jane was out of the loop on their side
MsMontanaUSA2005 (11:58:50 PM): Not to mention I sorta made a cross-Tribal pact with Jane while we were sparring
mymiddlefingr (11:59:02 PM):
mymiddlefingr (11:59:05 PM): that's good!
mymiddlefingr (11:59:10 PM): well, i wont worry too much then
mymiddlefingr (11:59:22 PM): i guess maybe no one has an idol over there?
MsMontanaUSA2005 (11:59:24 PM): so I can get her to flip
mymiddlefingr (11:59:25 PM): or do you think they do?
MsMontanaUSA2005 (11:59:30 PM): I doubt it at this point
November 1, 2010
mymiddlefingr (12:00:07 AM): ya
mymiddlefingr (12:00:11 AM): well, good, it worked out
mymiddlefingr (12:00:19 AM): that was a close one
mymiddlefingr (12:00:35 AM): i'm going back to invisible
MsMontanaUSA2005 (12:00:39 AM): Yep. And it's left the Neishis reeling
mymiddlefingr (12:00:47 AM): if monica already did that, i cna imagine what fairplay is gonna do
mymiddlefingr (12:00:59 AM): i hate being freaked out at
mymiddlefingr (12:02:08 AM): ummmm...
mymiddlefingr (12:02:13 AM): do u know when the next immunity is?
mymiddlefingr (12:02:16 AM): it's not tonight right?
MsMontanaUSA2005 (12:02:25 AM): No, that'd be stupid
MsMontanaUSA2005 (12:02:31 AM): I'm still endurance posting. Two hours in!
mymiddlefingr (12:02:57 AM): oh my god
mymiddlefingr (12:03:00 AM): grats!
mymiddlefingr (12:03:02 AM): keep it up!
MsMontanaUSA2005 (12:03:20 AM): I need at least one more hour
mymiddlefingr (12:03:34 AM):
mymiddlefingr (12:03:44 AM): well... make sure u dont mess up
mymiddlefingr (12:03:49 AM): i am actually just gonna leave again
MsMontanaUSA2005 (12:03:53 AM): lol I know
mymiddlefingr (12:03:54 AM): rather than jsut being invisible
MsMontanaUSA2005 (12:03:56 AM): And okay. See ya!
mymiddlefingr (12:04:00 AM): to avoid the fairplay stuff
mymiddlefingr (12:04:08 AM): lol, i'll be back to congratulate you, most likely
mymiddlefingr (12:04:11 AM): keep it up!
MsMontanaUSA2005 (12:04:12 AM): lol he's gone next. Him or Monica, depends.
MsMontanaUSA2005 (12:04:15 AM): Thanks! See ya!



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okay.... what else...




oh yeah, after the vote was revealed, i had this very breif AIM convo with monica:


October 31, 2010
UblazRob (11:51:28 PM): Wow.
UblazRob (11:51:38 PM): Well, I hate to say I told you so
UblazRob (11:51:44 PM): But your vote kinda... really did matter.
mymiddlefingr (11:54:16 PM): yeah i guess it really did didn't it?
UblazRob (11:54:19 PM): I'm not like mad or anything
UblazRob (11:54:25 PM): But... they pretty obviously played you
mymiddlefingr (11:54:28 PM): yeah
mymiddlefingr (11:54:32 PM): when i saw the fifth vote
mymiddlefingr (11:54:34 PM): i was like...
mymiddlefingr (11:54:38 PM): yeah
UblazRob (11:54:38 PM): And, I think you'd be way better off to vote with me.
UblazRob (11:54:40 PM):
mymiddlefingr (11:56:34 PM): sorry still
UblazRob (11:56:45 PM): No worries
mymiddlefingr (11:56:47 PM): i dont know... i'm getting up to speed
UblazRob (11:56:48 PM): I have to go
UblazRob (11:56:50 PM): I'll ttyl
mymiddlefingr (11:56:52 PM): okie, well, ttyl



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not a lot there... you'll notice there was nothing threatening at all about what she said to me... i overplayed it a little bit when talking to amanda, just for amanda's benefit. i need to work on distancing myself from monica and fairplay... in amanda's eyes. i need to actualyl work on doing that for real, if i'm gonna be loyal to this side.


i'm just back into this... does it really matter? mode...



if they brought up going after christy or jaime, honestly, i'd be really tempted to jump at the oppurtunity. but amanda... i really have to say, i dont think i will... and alexis is a grey area for me... i might vote her, i might not.


chances are though it won't matter much anyway cause of the position i have gotten msyelf into again but i've talked enough abt that, i don't need to re-hash it all again.






ummmmmm.... this is what happened on AIM between myself and fairplay since the vote... no drama here, sorry... how can there be drama when he uses AIM to basically just private message people. not like i ever have a real live conversation with him there.... i really want to tell him, "a big reason i didn't vote with you is because when i try to talk to you, you just leave, even when you start the conversation." i want to tell him, "remember when you were talking to amanda, and i was in mod convo with you, then you just fucked off to talk to her and forgot to come back to answer my question?"... lol...


here's what i did say to him... sorry to go off on a bit of a rant there...



Johnnyfairplay64 (12:05:56 AM): hmm
Johnnyfairplay64 (12:32:57 AM): :/
mymiddlefingr (1:02:13 AM): sorry
mymiddlefingr (1:02:27 AM): ... i didn't think it'd be that close, to be honest
mymiddlefingr (1:02:40 AM): and when i talked to brad, he didn't seem interested in talknig to me
mymiddlefingr (1:02:44 AM): whereas i like amanda
mymiddlefingr (1:03:00 AM): so when i was given a third option... niether you or amanda... i felt like that would be a good idea
mymiddlefingr (1:03:05 AM): sorry
mymiddlefingr (1:03:11 AM): i cant stay right now, i'll be back in a bit
Johnnyfairplay64 (1:03:16 AM): *sigh*
Johnnyfairplay64 (1:03:25 AM): alright
mymiddlefingr (1:03:47 AM): i'll turn my AIM on when i get back... like 20 minutes
Johnnyfairplay64 (1:02:56 PM): I forgive ya
Johnnyfairplay64 (1:03:14 PM): I know u didn't think it'd be that close
Johnnyfairplay64 (1:03:40 PM): and I appreciate that u at least didn't vote for me
mymiddlefingr (1:04:55 PM): ....
mymiddlefingr (1:04:56 PM): sorry
mymiddlefingr (1:05:05 PM): it's just... i tried to talk to brad
mymiddlefingr (1:05:18 PM): he said like two words to me at most
mymiddlefingr (1:05:31 PM): and then tyrone was never around... i just didn't know, at all
mymiddlefingr (1:06:04 PM): they just sounded a lot more sure of themselves on that side
mymiddlefingr (1:06:44 PM): and really... i just didnt wanna vote amanda
mymiddlefingr (1:06:52 PM): that was the biggest thing
mymiddlefingr (1:06:56 PM): like of all of them... why amanda
mymiddlefingr (1:07:10 PM): especially when we knew jane was voting alexis, it just didn't make sense that i was supposed to vote amanda...
mymiddlefingr (1:07:16 PM): it sounded like i was being played
mymiddlefingr (1:07:21 PM): sorry
mymiddlefingr (1:11:35 PM): and yeah... that's abt it... i just dont really feel like i can communicate with anyone on ur side other than monica
mymiddlefingr (1:11:52 PM): but i wish that were different
mymiddlefingr (1:12:03 PM): i'll be back in a bit


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notice the change from AM to PM there... even just that tiny block of messages took 12 hours. and i did come back when i said i would, i turned on my AIM and i waited for a couple hours for him to message me. i wasn't about to go say "hi i'm ready for you to bitch at me" or something, afterall... but i was there, and i was available, but he's just annoying.







i think that's it.





i'm not sure what i'm gonna do i nthe challenge. i think i'm leaning towards letting it slide and taking my chances. see if people want me gone in fact. if i just start winning immunities right now i'll basically have to win out from here on.... i really dont want to stay in the game if the only way to do so is to have immunity. i've done those games before, and it gets tiring. very, very tiring.


so yeah, i'm thinking i won't go for it unless it's something that anyone could just get lucky on and win... like something that wouldn't make me look like a threat.


i believe there's a good chance i will recieve votes though. and i think there's a good chance that i'll get enough votes to be sent home... but i'm curious to see, and there's no way to really tell if you have immunity





... we'll see.

[Host Sarah]

Ah Yes, but Immunity is always something lovely to have! Just think, a track record full of immunities is a big accomplishment <3

[Eliza Orlins]

this is true...


i'll prolly end up trying hard for it like always

[Eliza Orlins]

DURING THE IMMUNITY CHALLENGE


i'm having breakdowns left and right...

that's pretty much all i have to say about today. i can't even explain most of it. i am just soooo unstable...






a conversation with fairplay, from this morning:


Johnnyfairplay64 (10:56:31 AM): hate
Johnnyfairplay64 (10:56:34 AM): this
mymiddlefingr (10:56:39 AM): me too
mymiddlefingr (10:56:44 AM): monica is kicking ass
Johnnyfairplay64 (10:56:44 AM): challenge
Johnnyfairplay64 (10:56:53 AM): lol seriously?
mymiddlefingr (10:57:15 AM): from the looks of it
mymiddlefingr (10:57:18 AM): she has almost 100 posts
mymiddlefingr (10:57:21 AM): amazing
Johnnyfairplay64 (10:57:26 AM): I did like...7 sugar cane and called it quits XD
mymiddlefingr (10:57:36 AM): from the post coutn it goes monica i nfirst, me in second, and you i nthird
mymiddlefingr (10:57:38 AM): oh wow
mymiddlefingr (10:57:46 AM): well, no one else besides us three and marcus are even doing naything
mymiddlefingr (10:57:59 AM): so one of us will win the immunity
Johnnyfairplay64 (10:58:09 AM): if I didn't have a 10 hour day I'd work on it
mymiddlefingr (10:58:20 AM): ya, i gotta go do some job apps today
mymiddlefingr (10:58:30 AM): so i'm just doing some now while i can
mymiddlefingr (10:58:34 AM): i might get another chance this evening
Johnnyfairplay64 (10:58:35 AM): ugh
Johnnyfairplay64 (10:58:45 AM): apps suck XD
mymiddlefingr (10:58:46 AM): but, monica like i said is kicking some ass
Johnnyfairplay64 (10:59:10 AM): from what I've seen she is
mymiddlefingr (10:59:14 AM):
Johnnyfairplay64 (10:59:48 AM): I don't know how pissed Amanda is at me XD
Johnnyfairplay64 (11:00:11 AM): she's speaking in cryptic tounge XD
mymiddlefingr (11:00:12 AM): i dont think she cares much abt tis game
mymiddlefingr (11:00:23 AM): everytime i try to talk to her, she says she''s busy working on her namibia game
mymiddlefingr (11:00:24 AM):
Johnnyfairplay64 (11:00:24 AM): and confuses me
mymiddlefingr (11:00:34 AM): i see
mymiddlefingr (11:00:43 AM): lol
mymiddlefingr (11:00:45 AM): that's weird
Johnnyfairplay64 (11:00:52 AM): lol
Johnnyfairplay64 (11:01:14 AM): I asked if Jamie and alexis really had a fight
mymiddlefingr (11:01:16 AM): well, we know your side has the numbers now
mymiddlefingr (11:01:18 AM): i KNOW that
mymiddlefingr (11:01:20 AM): cause i seen it
mymiddlefingr (11:01:31 AM): so.. whoever wins immunity, i think it doesn't matter much right?
Johnnyfairplay64 (11:01:53 AM): don't think so
mymiddlefingr (11:02:08 AM):
Johnnyfairplay64 (11:05:06 AM): lol i just think my guys are solid with Alexis next
mymiddlefingr (11:06:35 AM): that makes sense
mymiddlefingr (11:06:41 AM): seeing as how jane voted alexis last time
mymiddlefingr (11:07:00 AM): sorry again for being a moron
mymiddlefingr (11:07:03 AM):
Johnnyfairplay64 (11:07:52 AM): lol it's not your fault
Johnnyfairplay64 (11:08:02 AM): u like Amanda and I even do
Johnnyfairplay64 (11:08:24 AM): at that time she was in the worst condition
mymiddlefingr (11:08:55 AM): ya... and i just was convinced that jane and tyrone were gonna go with the girls
Johnnyfairplay64 (11:08:55 AM): and I made a few mistakes and it cost brad his stay in the game
mymiddlefingr (11:09:22 AM): if he'd have talked to me when i tried talking to him... it would have been nice, also
Johnnyfairplay64 (11:09:44 AM): lol
mymiddlefingr (11:16:50 AM): good luck with your ten hour work shift
mymiddlefingr (11:16:52 AM): where do u work?
mymiddlefingr (11:27:36 AM): i gtg do applications hun
mymiddlefingr (11:27:40 AM): ttyl, good luck in the challenge


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clearly i realize that they have the numbers, as i said to him. the most jaime could do is a tie, even with my vote. with my vote, fairplay's side gets it's way, without a tie... should things go the way they did last time.

that's the thought process... well i mean... that's when i'm immune, that's the thought process...



with ,monica, a little later:

mymiddlefingr (2:25:58 PM): wow it looks like ur kicking ass at the challenge !!!
mymiddlefingr (2:26:05 PM): amazing job, keep it up
UblazRob (2:26:06 PM): Why do you say that?
mymiddlefingr (2:26:15 PM): your posts are super high
mymiddlefingr (2:26:16 PM):
UblazRob (2:26:39 PM): Thanks
UblazRob (2:26:41 PM): I'll do my best
mymiddlefingr (2:26:44 PM):
mymiddlefingr (2:27:22 PM): do you know how to see how many posts everyone has in their farm?
UblazRob (2:27:43 PM): Nope
UblazRob (2:27:52 PM): I think it's locked
mymiddlefingr (2:27:59 PM): oh okay... i nthe navigation bar, there is a button called "search"
mymiddlefingr (2:28:14 PM): it's with like the "home" and "members" button and stuff
mymiddlefingr (2:28:26 PM): if u click that, it tell you how many posts are in all the boards
UblazRob (2:28:37 PM): Really
UblazRob (2:28:39 PM): Huh
UblazRob (2:28:41 PM): That's brilliant
mymiddlefingr (2:28:52 PM): ya, someone told me about tat awhile back in a game
mymiddlefingr (2:28:56 PM): i was shocked
mymiddlefingr (2:28:57 PM):
mymiddlefingr (2:30:29 PM): right now u have the most posts and i tink i have the second most... so either way, one of us should win at this rate
UblazRob (2:30:50 PM): Indeed.
UblazRob (2:30:56 PM): Well... I don't think you're at risk
mymiddlefingr (2:31:04 PM): ya hopefulyl not
UblazRob (2:31:06 PM): But I know I'm gonna be.
mymiddlefingr (2:31:15 PM): i'm about to give it up to you since ur so far ahead anyway
UblazRob (2:31:18 PM): Any chance you feel like not wasting your whole day posting, and just let me have this one? ;p
mymiddlefingr (2:31:30 PM): that's whta i'm thinking right now
mymiddlefingr (2:31:40 PM): i gotta harvest what i planted atleast tho
mymiddlefingr (2:31:47 PM): then i'll add up my points
mymiddlefingr (2:31:52 PM): and let ya know how much you have to beat
UblazRob (2:32:18 PM): I had a perfect system going
UblazRob (2:32:18 PM): And then proboards had a total system failure for about 20 minutes
UblazRob (2:32:18 PM): Threw off all of my timing
mymiddlefingr (2:32:24 PM): our side has the numbers, we saw that at the last vote
mymiddlefingr (2:32:31 PM): awwww
UblazRob (2:32:32 PM): k
mymiddlefingr (2:33:30 PM): do you know who fairplay wants to vote, yet?
UblazRob (2:34:54 PM): Nope
UblazRob (2:35:07 PM): And... which side is 'our side'?
UblazRob (2:35:07 PM): Because, as far as I know, everybody thinks you're with them. lol
UblazRob (2:35:25 PM): I heard that Amanda was talking to you before you were an Outcast
mymiddlefingr (2:35:31 PM): oh lol well "our" side as i meant it was fairplay
mymiddlefingr (2:35:51 PM): ya amanda and i have been talking since i was out, but most of it was just abt the game she got me signed up for
mymiddlefingr (2:35:55 PM): her game, namibia
UblazRob (2:35:55 PM): So my assumption is you're more loyal to her.
UblazRob (2:35:55 PM): lol
mymiddlefingr (2:36:36 PM): well, i would like to say i am loyal to her
mymiddlefingr (2:36:42 PM): but she is with jaime and christy
mymiddlefingr (2:36:48 PM): and that's a BIG problem for me
mymiddlefingr (2:36:53 PM): because i know she'd be loyal to them
mymiddlefingr (2:36:55 PM): and not me
UblazRob (2:37:01 PM): *nods*
UblazRob (2:37:09 PM): Well, I'm sure they'd tell you the same thing
mymiddlefingr (2:37:10 PM): honestly
mymiddlefingr (2:37:19 PM): i dont understand why we're not going agfter jaime and christy
mymiddlefingr (2:37:23 PM): but, wateva
UblazRob (2:37:25 PM): Uhhh
UblazRob (2:37:49 PM): With Christy, it was because she promised not to go after me that TC, if I didn't target her
mymiddlefingr (2:38:04 PM): oh okay well that makes sense
UblazRob (2:38:16 PM): With Jaime, she and I had talked a little bit before the merge, but I'm pretty darn certain she's willing to vote me off, now
UblazRob (2:38:41 PM): Ech
UblazRob (2:38:42 PM): I gotta go
UblazRob (2:38:45 PM): But, I'm glad we could talk
UblazRob (2:38:47 PM): And
UblazRob (2:38:53 PM): I will talk to you later
mymiddlefingr (2:39:04 PM): okie
UblazRob signed off at 2:39:06 PM



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at this point i'm starting to think i have done too much in the challenge. for awhile i was considering deleting some of it...


i dont know what to do...


when i voted with my emotions last week i fucked myself this week... or against my emotions to prove something or whatever i did... i fucked myself...

the best i can do voting with alexis is a tie...


and that, in itself, is not the problem. the real problem is that they know that too. it's starting to look like fiarplay DOES have the numbers... but as monica pointed out, everyone thinks i'm on their side... so, if you're worried about the tie, just use that against me and i go home. easy.

and the same goes for fairplay's side. why risk having me vote the other way, again, and have it be a tie, when you could just throw me under that fuckin proverbial bus that's always driving around... it's just... a very clear and simple solution to EVERYONE's problems at this point in time.





and so here's another convo i had with fairplay, shortly after the one with monica:


Johnnyfairplay64 (3:32:42 PM): what's up?
mymiddlefingr (3:33:10 PM): sorry lol now i'm just on my way out
mymiddlefingr (3:33:19 PM): anyway i'm harvesting the rest of my wheat i had planted before
Johnnyfairplay64 (3:33:26 PM): >.>
mymiddlefingr (3:33:30 PM): then i think i'll be stopping, cause monica asked if she could just have it
Johnnyfairplay64 (3:33:30 PM): oh nice
Johnnyfairplay64 (3:33:51 PM): like I said I have another 12 hour day today
Johnnyfairplay64 (3:34:09 PM): so this one is all yours
mymiddlefingr (3:34:10 PM): ya
mymiddlefingr (3:34:25 PM): well she was kinda doubting which side i was on
Johnnyfairplay64 (3:34:26 PM): though last week then I'm free
mymiddlefingr (3:34:30 PM): so... hopefulyl this will help
mymiddlefingr (3:34:34 PM): awesome
mymiddlefingr (3:34:35 PM): grats!
mymiddlefingr (3:35:14 PM): however, if she doesn't get back before too long, i might come back and get a few more points to make sure one of us wins it
mymiddlefingr (3:35:23 PM): but she should be back
Johnnyfairplay64 (3:35:28 PM): lol
Johnnyfairplay64 (3:35:49 PM): that's fine
mymiddlefingr (3:36:08 PM): okie
mymiddlefingr (3:36:13 PM): well i gotta go, my dad needs te computer
mymiddlefingr (3:36:16 PM): be back in a bit
mymiddlefingr (4:12:07 PM): you think that with how many posts i've done i nthis challenge imight look so threatening that i'll get voted out?
mymiddlefingr (4:12:48 PM): lol... just a worry i'm starting to get
mymiddlefingr (4:13:02 PM): i probly shouldn't have tried so hard
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:30:01 PM): I think kansai needs you badly
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:30:11 PM): they wouldn't vote you out
mymiddlefingr (4:30:21 PM): kansai is... jaime and them right?
mymiddlefingr (4:30:23 PM): lol sorry
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:30:29 PM): not before me anyway
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:30:34 PM): and yea
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:30:53 PM): idk I just feel I'm keeping things together right now
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:31:05 PM): for neishi anyway
mymiddlefingr (4:31:24 PM): ya, it seems like u are
mymiddlefingr (4:31:38 PM): i wonder why monica feels so threatened tho
mymiddlefingr (4:31:49 PM): she said she thinks she needs immunity
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:32:02 PM): she's individually a powerhouse
mymiddlefingr (4:32:06 PM): yeah
mymiddlefingr (4:32:10 PM): true
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:32:43 PM): and kansai knows they can't vote off Johnny fairplay yet
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:33:07 PM): cause... well if last vote gave you any idea
mymiddlefingr (4:33:18 PM): lol yeah exactly
mymiddlefingr (4:33:22 PM): the best they can do is tie
mymiddlefingr (4:33:28 PM): and doesn't it come down to past votes?
mymiddlefingr (4:33:33 PM): which they all have a lot of now
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:33:44 PM): not from what I understand
mymiddlefingr (4:33:50 PM): oh
mymiddlefingr (4:33:51 PM): lol
mymiddlefingr (4:33:55 PM): well i'm new here so
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:34:05 PM): lol it's alright
mymiddlefingr (4:34:12 PM): how are ties decided?
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:34:19 PM): revote
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:34:41 PM): if this goes 5-5 it's a revote
mymiddlefingr (4:35:50 PM): but hwat if it's a tie again?
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:35:54 PM): that's why I'm wondering if anything is gonna go down
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:36:03 PM): I think both players leave
mymiddlefingr (4:36:06 PM): well that's the thing
mymiddlefingr (4:36:13 PM): for monica to be worried, she must be doubting someone
mymiddlefingr (4:36:29 PM):
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:36:30 PM): Jane and Tyrone most likely
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:36:39 PM): I would to
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:36:54 PM): but they've been truthful and honest to me
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:37:16 PM): so I have no problem with them and are still great allies
mymiddlefingr (4:37:29 PM):
mymiddlefingr (4:37:33 PM): okie well he's thething
mymiddlefingr (4:37:38 PM): now that i've got so many points
mymiddlefingr (4:37:43 PM): i kinda wanna go for immunity
mymiddlefingr (4:37:52 PM): cause i'm gonna be a huge threat from this one either way
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:37:55 PM): then go for it girl
mymiddlefingr (4:38:02 PM): so i'm... scared monic will be mad at me
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:38:45 PM): here's what I'm thinking in your position
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:38:54 PM): kansai needs you
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:39:16 PM): they arnt voting you off no matter what
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:39:44 PM): cause they know that you'll vote with them
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:39:59 PM): you're safe
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:40:30 PM): at least from neishi no one is concerned with you
mymiddlefingr (4:40:54 PM): i see
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:41:00 PM): if you wanna go for it
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:41:05 PM): go for it
mymiddlefingr (4:41:22 PM): lol i dont know
mymiddlefingr (4:41:28 PM): i'm always confused in this game
mymiddlefingr (4:41:38 PM): i think i just wanna go for it
mymiddlefingr (4:41:47 PM): i mean if everything is as it should be, it doesn't matter
mymiddlefingr (4:41:53 PM): but still... you never know!
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:42:02 PM): we both think of you as the swing vote
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:42:21 PM): kansai more so since you'd tie the votes up
mymiddlefingr (4:42:29 PM): yeah...
mymiddlefingr (4:42:36 PM): i wonder if tey still think they have jane or tyrone
mymiddlefingr (4:42:40 PM): they were SO sure last round
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:42:51 PM): that's why I have a feeling that they're using you
mymiddlefingr (4:42:51 PM): or maybe it was because they had that extra vote
mymiddlefingr (4:43:00 PM): which i didn't know abt
mymiddlefingr (4:43:02 PM): by the way
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:43:05 PM): extre vote most likely
mymiddlefingr (4:43:08 PM): ya
mymiddlefingr (4:43:10 PM): stupid
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:43:20 PM): it's not your fault
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:43:32 PM): they just decieved you
mymiddlefingr (4:43:38 PM): yeah and brad was such an easy vote for me
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:43:58 PM): you just did what was best for you
mymiddlefingr (4:43:59 PM): just cause like... he basically just shoved me aside when i triedto talk to him
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:44:16 PM): I know he's been busy a lot
mymiddlefingr (4:44:27 PM): ya, i shoulda just not done that tho
mymiddlefingr (4:44:36 PM): but whatever, i just tend to beat myself up over stuff
mymiddlefingr (4:44:38 PM):
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:44:45 PM): lol
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:45:00 PM): well it's alright
mymiddlefingr (4:45:19 PM): well lets put it this way
mymiddlefingr (4:45:34 PM): i knwo that if i tell y'all in straight out terms that i will vote... alexis or whoever
mymiddlefingr (4:45:39 PM): and then you guys think ur in danger at all
mymiddlefingr (4:45:43 PM): you could just use that against me
mymiddlefingr (4:45:46 PM): and make sure i go home easy
mymiddlefingr (4:45:48 PM): unanimously
mymiddlefingr (4:45:59 PM): so i'd just feel a lot better making this power move
mymiddlefingr (4:46:02 PM): if i were immune
mymiddlefingr (4:46:03 PM): LOL
mymiddlefingr (4:46:09 PM): that's about as honest as it gets
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:46:10 PM): I don't think we'd do that
mymiddlefingr (4:46:10 PM): lol
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:46:32 PM): ok
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:46:52 PM): a little hypocritical after doing it to Amanda
mymiddlefingr (4:47:11 PM): what do you mean?
mymiddlefingr (4:47:16 PM): sorry that went over my head
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:47:36 PM): I told her we were voting Alexis
mymiddlefingr (4:47:52 PM): oh yeah that's right
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:48:23 PM): but I don't have leeway on Jamie
mymiddlefingr (4:48:25 PM): well i trust that y'all want out one of them, i'm not worried abt that
mymiddlefingr (4:48:36 PM): i just mean if u suddnely found out jane or tyrone or both were voting with them
mymiddlefingr (4:48:41 PM): then you'd need a scape goat
mymiddlefingr (4:48:48 PM): and i'd amke a pretty good scapegoat
mymiddlefingr (4:48:50 PM): that's all
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:48:53 PM): lol
mymiddlefingr (4:48:56 PM): so immunity would just ease my mind, that way
mymiddlefingr (4:49:04 PM): so yeah i htink i'm gonna go for it
mymiddlefingr (4:49:10 PM):
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:49:14 PM): well like I said
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:49:35 PM): do what you think is best for ya
mymiddlefingr (4:49:51 PM):
mymiddlefingr (4:49:54 PM): okie
mymiddlefingr (4:50:01 PM): sorry to be so confused
mymiddlefingr (4:50:12 PM): i really thought the game was simpler from the outside
mymiddlefingr (4:50:19 PM): this is just a clusterufck now that i'm in
mymiddlefingr (4:50:20 PM): LOL
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:50:40 PM): have fun with it
mymiddlefingr (4:50:45 PM): lol
mymiddlefingr (4:50:54 PM): my head is spinning from it
mymiddlefingr (4:51:04 PM): and i'm trying to keep up with other games too now
mymiddlefingr (4:51:05 PM):
mymiddlefingr (4:52:10 PM): when do you work?
mymiddlefingr (4:52:18 PM): or are you at work right now?
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:52:24 PM): I go back at 2
mymiddlefingr (4:52:31 PM): oh i see... split shift
mymiddlefingr (4:52:32 PM): ewwwwww
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:52:38 PM): then from 2-7 most likely
mymiddlefingr (4:52:43 PM): well, have fun with THAT
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:52:50 PM): lol
mymiddlefingr (4:54:15 PM): i gtg for a little bit... just like 15 mins
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:54:25 PM): later
mymiddlefingr (4:54:28 PM): thnx for the encouragement
mymiddlefingr (4:54:32 PM):
Johnnyfairplay64 (4:54:44 PM): no problem I try
mymiddlefingr (4:54:50 PM): *mwah*


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it's at this point that the mental breakdown i mentioned really starts setting in... i feel like i'm swinging around holding onto one of the blades of a ceiling fan.


i've said it before, monica has everything it takes to bury me. my life is in their hands. it's in her hands. i'm starting to REALLY need immunity this round. but then i'll need it next round, and the round after. i will anyway probably now... i'm spinning around. i am out of control...







here's a convo with alexis from about that time:


mymiddlefingr (5:48:39 PM): heya... i dont tink i can beat monica at this challenge
mymiddlefingr (5:48:43 PM): i was really trying to
gamerkennyhoang (5:48:48 PM): i gave up
mymiddlefingr (5:48:52 PM): how are u doing?
mymiddlefingr (5:48:53 PM): oh lol
mymiddlefingr (5:48:58 PM): good thinking
gamerkennyhoang (5:49:09 PM): its not that big of deal who wins until later
mymiddlefingr (5:49:13 PM): she's like begging me to give up anyway, and i'm running out of time so i will have to soon
gamerkennyhoang (5:49:20 PM): theres still Jane, Tyrone, Marcus, and Fairplay to get rid of
gamerkennyhoang (5:49:29 PM): next tribal will be huge
gamerkennyhoang (5:49:30 PM): 5-5
mymiddlefingr (5:49:45 PM): i know
mymiddlefingr (5:49:50 PM): how do tie breakers go?
mymiddlefingr (5:49:52 PM): like after the revote
mymiddlefingr (5:49:54 PM): is it's still tied
gamerkennyhoang (5:49:54 PM): idk
mymiddlefingr (5:49:56 PM): what happens
mymiddlefingr (5:50:00 PM): i'm gonan check
mymiddlefingr (5:50:35 PM): i just killed this challenge, i'm gonna look like SUCH a threat
mymiddlefingr (5:50:38 PM):
gamerkennyhoang (5:50:43 PM): :/
gamerkennyhoang (5:50:50 PM): i might get the votes
mymiddlefingr (5:51:07 PM): that's what fairplay says right now
gamerkennyhoang (5:51:08 PM): if Jane still uses her list
mymiddlefingr (5:51:13 PM): he keeps wanting me to vote the people italk to the most
mymiddlefingr (5:51:21 PM): and he says it straight out too, i know yo utalk to amanda a lot
mymiddlefingr (5:51:25 PM): i know you talk to alexis a lot
mymiddlefingr (5:51:36 PM): and then he... i'm getting really annoyed at this game
gamerkennyhoang (5:52:03 PM): lol
mymiddlefingr (5:52:21 PM): i cant find a rules thread
mymiddlefingr (5:52:57 PM): oh well i'll ask the hosts
gamerkennyhoang (5:53:06 PM): lol k
mymiddlefingr (5:53:17 PM): monica talked to me today... and said something like "you know, everyne thinks ur on their side"
mymiddlefingr (5:53:27 PM): they're freaking me out
gamerkennyhoang (5:53:42 PM): lol
gamerkennyhoang (5:53:47 PM): hopefully monica wont vote fo rm
mymiddlefingr (5:54:26 PM): when i asked if she knew who fairplay wanted to vote for yet, she said no
mymiddlefingr (5:54:35 PM): but fairplay told me that all his people seem solid on voting you
gamerkennyhoang (5:54:54 PM): great
mymiddlefingr (5:55:02 PM): i hate that i got caught up with them when i first came in
mymiddlefingr (5:55:14 PM): and honestly
mymiddlefingr (5:55:19 PM): he was like, you wanna get jaime out?
mymiddlefingr (5:55:20 PM): i was like sure
mymiddlefingr (5:55:27 PM): and then fuckin he's going after you and amanda constantly
mymiddlefingr (5:55:28 PM): jesus
mymiddlefingr (5:55:31 PM): ... lol sorry i am venting
gamerkennyhoang (5:55:33 PM): lol
gamerkennyhoang (5:55:35 PM): its cool
mymiddlefingr (5:56:35 PM): thnx... lol
mymiddlefingr (5:57:07 PM): i feel like...
mymiddlefingr (5:57:11 PM): if fairplay is in danger
mymiddlefingr (5:57:15 PM): he's just gonna vote me
mymiddlefingr (5:57:24 PM): with all his people, and all he needs is one of y'all
mymiddlefingr (5:57:32 PM): i really don't see them voting u
gamerkennyhoang (5:57:43 PM): eh idk
mymiddlefingr (5:58:45 PM): ya
mymiddlefingr (5:58:50 PM): how many past votes do u have?
mymiddlefingr (5:58:53 PM): less than fairplay?
gamerkennyhoang (5:59:04 PM): shit
gamerkennyhoang (5:59:05 PM): 2
gamerkennyhoang (5:59:10 PM): 3
mymiddlefingr (5:59:19 PM): ewwww
gamerkennyhoang (5:59:21 PM): fairplay has 0
mymiddlefingr (5:59:23 PM): oh my god
mymiddlefingr (5:59:31 PM): and christy has 2 atleast i know
gamerkennyhoang (5:59:31 PM): who has past votes
gamerkennyhoang (5:59:32 PM): Monica has 2
mymiddlefingr (5:59:33 PM): and i have LOTS
mymiddlefingr (5:59:36 PM): and amanda has like 5
gamerkennyhoang (5:59:56 PM): who got votes... at the tribal JT left
mymiddlefingr (6:00:01 PM): no idea
mymiddlefingr (6:02:07 PM): fairplay got 1
mymiddlefingr (6:02:09 PM): didn't he?
gamerkennyhoang (6:02:53 PM): maybe
mymiddlefingr (6:02:59 PM): i am pretty sure
mymiddlefingr (6:03:06 PM): i was given access to that tribal
mymiddlefingr (6:03:08 PM): for some reason
gamerkennyhoang (6:03:14 PM): yeah so was i
mymiddlefingr (6:03:14 PM): but i forget exactly
mymiddlefingr (6:03:17 PM): that's weird
mymiddlefingr (6:03:24 PM): i am sure he got a vote, but just 1
gamerkennyhoang (6:03:29 PM): if we could convince fiarplay to vote jaime...
mymiddlefingr (6:03:54 PM): LOL
mymiddlefingr (6:04:01 PM): that would be hilarious
mymiddlefingr (6:04:11 PM): he may fall for it
mymiddlefingr (6:04:13 PM): probly not tho
gamerkennyhoang (6:04:14 PM): is it past votes?
mymiddlefingr (6:05:23 PM): i think so
mymiddlefingr (6:05:28 PM): i just seem to remember hearing that
mymiddlefingr (6:05:33 PM): or reading it at the start of the game somewhere
mymiddlefingr (6:05:41 PM): but i needto ask one of the hosts when i see them
gamerkennyhoang (6:06:07 PM): damn
gamerkennyhoang (6:06:07 PM): that would suck
mymiddlefingr (6:06:12 PM): i know right
mymiddlefingr (6:06:23 PM): this is screwy
gamerkennyhoang (6:06:30 PM): well youc ould tell them
gamerkennyhoang (6:06:36 PM): i only have on self vote
gamerkennyhoang (6:06:42 PM): and Jaime has 3
mymiddlefingr (6:07:02 PM): yeah they might not know who has how many votes
mymiddlefingr (6:07:36 PM): i can try it... he's "at work till 7:00"
mymiddlefingr (6:07:51 PM): lol i dont even believe that when he says it
gamerkennyhoang (6:07:52 PM): lol
mymiddlefingr (6:08:55 PM): see...
mymiddlefingr (6:08:58 PM): they need my vote
mymiddlefingr (6:09:03 PM): unless they plan on just voting me out
mymiddlefingr (6:09:09 PM): which i realize is probly pretty easy to do
gamerkennyhoang (6:09:14 PM): lol
mymiddlefingr (6:09:21 PM): so... i dont know how much pull i could have before they just decide to say fuck it and vote me out
gamerkennyhoang (6:09:24 PM): we just need to confuse them
mymiddlefingr (6:09:38 PM): yeah
mymiddlefingr (6:09:44 PM): okie well i'll work on it when i see him then
mymiddlefingr (6:10:07 PM): and then if i'm still alive after this and we actually DO have the numbers for real... i am sooooooooo not ever talking to this guy again
mymiddlefingr (6:10:14 PM): i hate every second of it
gamerkennyhoang (6:10:38 PM): lol
mymiddlefingr (6:12:50 PM): i'm still going
mymiddlefingr (6:12:59 PM): i keep telling monica yeah i'll stop now and you can have it
mymiddlefingr (6:13:06 PM): but i just cant see mto bring myself to actualyl stop
gamerkennyhoang (6:13:09 PM): haha
mymiddlefingr (6:13:15 PM): who asks that anyway? can u just give me the immunity?
mymiddlefingr (6:13:16 PM): god
mymiddlefingr (6:13:25 PM): lol actually i do like her
mymiddlefingr (6:13:28 PM): but that annoyed me
gamerkennyhoang (6:13:57 PM): hey
gamerkennyhoang (6:14:02 PM): can you give me the immunity?
mymiddlefingr (6:14:06 PM): LOL
mymiddlefingr (6:14:34 PM): definately not if monica has it
gamerkennyhoang (6:14:56 PM): hahaha
mymiddlefingr (6:15:56 PM): okie doing massive harvesting, brb
mymiddlefingr (6:38:39 PM): ya i got monica pretty upset with me for not stopping
mymiddlefingr (6:38:42 PM): but i mean... c'mon
mymiddlefingr (6:38:46 PM):
mymiddlefingr (6:38:50 PM): i dont know...
gamerkennyhoang (6:38:50 PM): lol
mymiddlefingr (6:45:17 PM): well i'm gonna keep focusing on this challenge so that i can feel secure... and not get all paranoid and weird come vote time
mymiddlefingr (6:45:25 PM): cause we dont need that... no one needs that
mymiddlefingr (6:45:56 PM): so i'll ttyl
gamerkennyhoang (6:46:31 PM): bye



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and it continues to get worse when monica gets online and send me this private message:




What happened to "I'm just gonna finish my crops and go?", huh?



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i replied by saying all this:



okay ur back


i talked to fairplay and stuff. i'm really worried that now that i've done so well, i'll be targetted for that.

but i'm still okay with stopping now that for sure no one else can win it besides you or me... do u want my score?



i'm just afraid that if tyrone or jane seem like they might not vote with fairplay, that he might throw me under the bus... i'd be a really easy target, since as you pointed out, everyone thinks i'm with them



but yeah, do you want me to just stop now and tell yo uwhat i got so you can make sure u beat it?


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i kept going on the challenge... and going on the challenge... and it didn't take long for monica to PM me back this:


Yeah, I'd definitely appreciate it. And, I'm pretty sure that Jane and Tyrone are still on our side, so you honestly don't have anything to worry about, targettingwise. I've only heard good things about you from Amanda and her allies, and I don't think anybody's after you.

Besides, I'm in the same boat. I did well at the last challenge, and now that I've done well at this one, if I don't win, I'm gonna be target number one.

Besides, look at it this way. If I do well, that means that Amanda/Christy/Jaime will NEED you, because you're the only one who can beat me, right?

But, yeah, I'd definitely appreciate it. I need this Immunity pretty badly, I think.

~ Monica



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I kept doing the challenge... and doing the challenge... and getting more and more worked up... and more and more worried... and paranoid... and insane...


and then i noticed the private message waiting for me and replied to it with this:


all right...


i'm really really really scared tho... just so ya know. don't like hold it against me if i am a bit paranoid or whatever this round... i really feel like if anything at all goes wrong, i am the scape goat that fairplay will use. hell, he may even use me as that just to make sure nothing goes wrong.


i mean, he's got plenty of evidence to use against me now if he wants, to make sure that jaime and them vote me... if y'all wanted, it would only take one of them.



not to mention that convo i gave you of me and amanda's... that's really damning.




so basically... i'm putting all of my... like everything... into your hands this round. literally, if you so choose to, you can quite easily bury me. so... yeah...


it's all up to you.



i have another 50 coming from wheat... should i not harvest it? and just look like the stupidest person ever if fairplay does what... honestly i would probably do to keep myself safe

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and if all that's not bad enough... not annoying enough, i ALSO replied to it with this, like ten minutes after:




i think i have to just go for this...


it's not distrust in you, it's just distrust in the whole situation. like honestly if anything looks not perfect at all, he'll be looking for a scape goat. we know that wouldn't be you, but it could very well be me.



i don't know... i'm sorry, my head is just frazzled. if you get on long enough to go on AIM, u should if it's possible. that'd be nice.



i'm just really leary about the whole situation. and how much power i've given fairplay... i'm sure u could understand, and i'm sure you could talk me into stopping. i just need assurance or something... i dont know.


sorry


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and then i kept doing the challenge, and fuckin doing the challenge, and i took back that stupid fuckin metaphorical shovel that i gave to monica a couple days ago and started digging the hole myself.

*makes a gun with her fingers and blows off her metaphorical head*






FUCK!

[Eliza Orlins]

...... and then... i don't know. and then i was just going on auto pilot for awhile.



did i plead for someone to come on AIM to reassure me?


did i seriously just do that?


are you FUCKING kidding me? how fucking stupid does this get?


honestly where is the fuckin bottom here? WHEN am i going to get to some point where it's like i just can't possibly do any worse? cause i continue to amaze myself with this bizzarro world fuckin bi-polar psycho shit that keeps coming out of me. just keeeeeeeeps pooooooring out of me!


oh my god.

[Eliza Orlins]

and then the pot boils over.

















monica came online. answered that sad little puppy desperate sickening SICKENING call i made.... oh my god....


and we had this... conversation...


wtf




UblazRob (6:55:42 PM): Hey
mymiddlefingr (6:55:48 PM): hi
mymiddlefingr (6:55:50 PM):
UblazRob (6:55:59 PM): So... I honestly don't know what to tel you
UblazRob (6:56:18 PM): Honestly, YOU'RE the one who flipped last time
UblazRob (6:56:27 PM): So, if anything, I should mistrust YOU.
UblazRob (6:56:45 PM): Plus, why would Amanda and them even believe me if I tried to flip them?
mymiddlefingr (6:57:11 PM): i dont know, i gave you like proof and stuff
mymiddlefingr (6:57:16 PM): but i dont mistrust YOU
mymiddlefingr (6:57:20 PM): that's the thing
UblazRob (6:57:22 PM): I don't mistrust you either
UblazRob (6:57:29 PM): But, if I don't have Immunity, it's my ass
mymiddlefingr (6:57:34 PM): i dont think ur out to get me... it just could end up working that way
UblazRob (6:57:51 PM): And it could wind up that it's me.
UblazRob (6:57:59 PM): And you've already proven that you're willing to go along with them
mymiddlefingr (6:58:41 PM): against brad
mymiddlefingr (6:58:51 PM): i tried to talk to him and he gave me the cold shoulder, basically
mymiddlefingr (6:58:54 PM): it was an easy vote
mymiddlefingr (6:59:32 PM): it's just that they're after fairplay, aren't they?
mymiddlefingr (6:59:43 PM): so why would they vote u?
UblazRob (6:59:54 PM): I'm next on the hitlist
UblazRob (6:59:56 PM): Everybody knows that.
UblazRob (7:00:03 PM): After Fairplay goes, I'm target #1
mymiddlefingr (7:00:22 PM): i could take that spot for you
mymiddlefingr (7:00:26 PM): sorry lol no time for joking
mymiddlefingr (7:00:27 PM): sorry
UblazRob (7:00:30 PM): Sigh
UblazRob (7:00:32 PM): What's your score?
UblazRob (7:00:40 PM): If I can attempt to beat it, I might
mymiddlefingr (7:00:46 PM): i honestly cant count it
UblazRob (7:00:48 PM): If not, well, 'grats, you got the Immunity
mymiddlefingr (7:00:55 PM): in a minute here i will try to get about my score
UblazRob (7:00:58 PM): k
mymiddlefingr (7:01:05 PM): actually i can right now
mymiddlefingr (7:01:38 PM): look i know i'm screwing myself
mymiddlefingr (7:01:59 PM): just... yeah...
mymiddlefingr (7:02:02 PM): i know that
UblazRob (7:02:28 PM): Look
UblazRob (7:02:34 PM): Going with Amanda and them? THAT'S screwing yourself
UblazRob (7:02:44 PM): Because not only are you an obvious outsider
UblazRob (7:02:57 PM): You're also going with the people who already voted you off
mymiddlefingr (7:03:09 PM): i know
mymiddlefingr (7:03:22 PM): but why does fairplay insist on taking out the nly two that A) dont like eachother
mymiddlefingr (7:03:25 PM): and B) kinda like me
UblazRob (7:03:29 PM): He doesn't
UblazRob (7:03:36 PM): He'd take out Jaime and Christy in a heartbeat
mymiddlefingr (7:03:44 PM): when he came to me and offered me to go with him he was talking abt voting out jaime
mymiddlefingr (7:03:50 PM): and since then
mymiddlefingr (7:03:55 PM): it's been vote out amanda, then vote out alexis
UblazRob (7:03:59 PM): It changed to Amanda because Jaime had immunity
mymiddlefingr (7:04:00 PM): then... i'm at your will totally
UblazRob (7:04:15 PM): Well, would you rather be at my will or at Jaime's?
mymiddlefingr (7:04:20 PM): yeah i understand that now that i know why christy wasn't the target
mymiddlefingr (7:04:27 PM): at yours
mymiddlefingr (7:04:52 PM): last round, i was certain they had the numers, and just emotionally, brad was much easier in that dillema
mymiddlefingr (7:05:16 PM): so it was like... all the stress of the indecision was gone when i could vote someone who was basically just like whatever with me when i tried to talk to them
mymiddlefingr (7:05:29 PM): how can u count how much points u have?
mymiddlefingr (7:05:42 PM): i got... 92 last night...
UblazRob (7:05:43 PM): However many wheats you've sold x10
mymiddlefingr (7:05:53 PM): then today i did... 6 ten ones... so 60
UblazRob (7:05:53 PM): However many cherries x5
mymiddlefingr (7:05:55 PM): then 40
mymiddlefingr (7:06:02 PM): then i've done a whole bunch of 2 ones
UblazRob (7:06:09 PM): Eh, count the 2s.
mymiddlefingr (7:06:13 PM): yeah okay
mymiddlefingr (7:06:15 PM): hold on
mymiddlefingr (7:07:23 PM): if it is worth anything, i talked to fairplay abt this whole thing
mymiddlefingr (7:07:27 PM): with giving up
mymiddlefingr (7:07:33 PM): and he just told me i should go for it if i felt worried
mymiddlefingr (7:07:36 PM): i dont tink that helps
mymiddlefingr (7:07:41 PM): but... still...
UblazRob (7:08:18 PM): If you're worried, go nuts
UblazRob (7:08:27 PM): But, I think you have nothing to worry about
mymiddlefingr (7:08:52 PM): that thing u said today got me really panicky
mymiddlefingr (7:08:56 PM): "Everyone thinks ur on their side"
UblazRob (7:09:00 PM): Well, okay
UblazRob (7:09:04 PM): I talked to Amanda yesterday
UblazRob (7:09:10 PM): And she essentially told me she has you under her thumb
UblazRob (7:09:21 PM): And Fairplay obviously thought you were with him
UblazRob (7:09:32 PM): So, both alliances think you're with them.
UblazRob (7:09:35 PM): That's what I meant.
UblazRob (7:09:43 PM): Nobody's gonna come after you
UblazRob (7:09:45 PM): They both NEED you
mymiddlefingr (7:11:09 PM): 34X 2
mymiddlefingr (7:11:13 PM): so 68
mymiddlefingr (7:11:21 PM): i wil lcoutn the others for real in a minute
mymiddlefingr (7:11:34 PM): it's not as difficult as i imagines
mymiddlefingr (7:12:11 PM): oops i skipped a page i think
mymiddlefingr (7:12:18 PM): fuck... hold on, i will just be a minute
mymiddlefingr (7:13:48 PM): no that's right
mymiddlefingr (7:13:54 PM): 68 from sugar
UblazRob (7:14:05 PM): Okay
UblazRob (7:14:08 PM): So...
UblazRob (7:14:16 PM): 34 + 60 + 40 +90
UblazRob (7:14:22 PM): 224.
UblazRob (7:14:43 PM): + another 50, you said
mymiddlefingr (7:15:27 PM): yeah
mymiddlefingr (7:15:30 PM): roughly
UblazRob (7:15:30 PM): So, you've got a potential 274.
mymiddlefingr (7:15:35 PM): i can count it for real here soon
mymiddlefingr (7:16:19 PM): okay another 16
mymiddlefingr (7:16:20 PM): i just got
UblazRob (7:16:32 PM): Okay. 290
UblazRob (7:16:37 PM): Assuming you take that 50.
mymiddlefingr (7:16:53 PM): yeah... which is coming up
mymiddlefingr (7:16:57 PM): it's 40 now actually
mymiddlefingr (7:17:00 PM): 10 of that was from that
UblazRob (7:17:14 PM): Okay.
UblazRob (7:17:16 PM): 280
UblazRob (7:17:28 PM): I don't know my score right now
UblazRob (7:17:44 PM): If I'm remembering correctly
UblazRob (7:17:48 PM): I should have at least 330
UblazRob (7:17:57 PM): Not counting the cherry trees and rice
UblazRob (7:18:07 PM): And I've got some more wheat coming in
mymiddlefingr (7:18:12 PM): i may have more, when i get done here i'l lfind out
mymiddlefingr (7:18:51 PM): so what should we do then?
UblazRob (7:19:19 PM): Well... we can either duke it out
UblazRob (7:19:28 PM): Or you can trust me.
UblazRob (7:19:37 PM): If you let me get this
UblazRob (7:19:41 PM): I will NOT let you get voted off.
UblazRob (7:19:46 PM): And if you get targetted
UblazRob (7:19:49 PM): And it looks like you might go
UblazRob (7:19:51 PM): I will give it to you
mymiddlefingr (7:20:30 PM): so ur really not just gonna use everything against me?
UblazRob (7:20:38 PM): Why would I?
UblazRob (7:20:40 PM): As I pointed out
UblazRob (7:20:45 PM): I kinda... NEED you.
mymiddlefingr (7:20:45 PM): cause to make sure it's not a tie
mymiddlefingr (7:20:49 PM): and make sure fairplay is safe
UblazRob (7:21:04 PM): *shrug*
UblazRob (7:21:07 PM): Fairplay would beat me.
UblazRob (7:21:12 PM): It's better for me if he leaves.
UblazRob (7:21:13 PM): But
UblazRob (7:21:16 PM): If he goes, I'm next out
UblazRob (7:21:21 PM): So that's why I want him to stay.
UblazRob (7:21:55 PM): Besides
UblazRob (7:22:10 PM): If I really wanted to, I could just ask Jaime/Christy/Amanda to keep me until the final six
UblazRob (7:22:12 PM): And then ditch me.
UblazRob (7:22:16 PM): I don't care.
UblazRob (7:22:25 PM): I just don't want to place tenth.
mymiddlefingr (7:23:39 PM): i only have 29 something right now
mymiddlefingr (7:23:44 PM): like
mymiddlefingr (7:23:45 PM): 290
mymiddlefingr (7:23:46 PM): something
mymiddlefingr (7:24:02 PM): i dont wanna recount those stupid sugar ones
mymiddlefingr (7:24:25 PM): i mean i have time to get another ... bunch
mymiddlefingr (7:24:27 PM): but so do you
mymiddlefingr (7:24:28 PM):
UblazRob (7:24:32 PM): Indeed I do.
mymiddlefingr (7:24:39 PM): i'm really nervous
mymiddlefingr (7:24:45 PM): i think i've already fucked myself
mymiddlefingr (7:25:10 PM): but either way
mymiddlefingr (7:25:12 PM): i am logged off
UblazRob (7:25:18 PM): sigh
UblazRob (7:25:26 PM): I've told you everything I can tell you
UblazRob (7:25:31 PM): Come with me? And you're golden.
UblazRob (7:25:38 PM): Take this Immunity away and screw me again?
UblazRob (7:26:00 PM): Then, congrats, you're not only assuring yourself a crappy place and handing Jaime and Christy and Amanda the win
mymiddlefingr (7:26:16 PM): i'm voting the way you want
mymiddlefingr (7:26:19 PM): honestly
UblazRob (7:26:24 PM): Then why are you worried?
mymiddlefingr (7:26:24 PM): assuming people are being honest
mymiddlefingr (7:26:25 PM): with me
UblazRob (7:26:29 PM): The way I want is NOT YOU
mymiddlefingr (7:26:31 PM): then i CANT vote with them anyway
mymiddlefingr (7:26:33 PM): it'd be a tie
mymiddlefingr (7:26:36 PM): and they'd lose the tie
UblazRob (7:26:40 PM): Indeed they would.
mymiddlefingr (7:26:46 PM): it is past votes
mymiddlefingr (7:26:48 PM): i am almost certain
mymiddlefingr (7:26:51 PM): past the revote
UblazRob (7:27:03 PM): Then you have nothing to worry about.
mymiddlefingr (7:27:03 PM): so... they lose because they all have more
UblazRob (7:27:07 PM): Jaime and them have no reason to target you
UblazRob (7:27:11 PM): And why would I give them one?
UblazRob (7:27:18 PM): If I wanted to screw you, I'd have done it already
mymiddlefingr (7:27:24 PM): like i said, just to ensure that you know who is going home
mymiddlefingr (7:27:31 PM): and i onestly dont view myself as that valuable
mymiddlefingr (7:27:34 PM): how could i be?
mymiddlefingr (7:27:37 PM): i voted brad last round
UblazRob (7:27:37 PM): You're valuable to me.
UblazRob (7:27:40 PM): You're good at challenges.
UblazRob (7:27:45 PM): I can't win 'em all
UblazRob (7:27:52 PM): And I don't want Amanda/Jaime/Christy to win 'em
mymiddlefingr (7:27:57 PM): ... okay
mymiddlefingr (7:27:59 PM): well there's that
mymiddlefingr (7:28:04 PM): i can beat them
mymiddlefingr (7:28:22 PM): it's yours hun
mymiddlefingr (7:28:25 PM): just gotta...
mymiddlefingr (7:28:32 PM): make sure you got enough to accoutn for a mistake on my part
mymiddlefingr (7:28:36 PM): i dont tink i'm over 300
mymiddlefingr (7:28:40 PM): but make sure that you ACTUALLY are
mymiddlefingr (7:29:22 PM): you gonna be here for another ten minutes at least?
mymiddlefingr (7:29:25 PM): online?
mymiddlefingr (7:29:31 PM): cause i have a question, but i need a smoke
UblazRob (7:29:33 PM): We'll see.
mymiddlefingr (7:29:38 PM): stupid challenge has me really wried
UblazRob (7:29:38 PM): And, I probably won't be.
mymiddlefingr (7:29:44 PM): oh okay well
mymiddlefingr (7:29:49 PM): does it HAVE to be alexis?
UblazRob (7:29:50 PM): I actually am.
UblazRob (7:29:51 PM): No
UblazRob (7:29:55 PM): I'll get 'em to change it.
UblazRob (7:29:56 PM): Frick.
mymiddlefingr (7:30:08 PM): if u can...
mymiddlefingr (7:30:10 PM): it'd be nice
mymiddlefingr (7:30:12 PM): if not...
mymiddlefingr (7:30:15 PM): then so be it i guess
UblazRob (7:30:50 PM): It wouldn't be that hard
UblazRob (7:30:56 PM): Who do you want?
UblazRob (7:32:15 PM): Give me a name
UblazRob (7:32:20 PM): I'll tell 'em that's who we need to vote for.
UblazRob (7:32:22 PM): Done.
mymiddlefingr (7:32:43 PM): lol
mymiddlefingr (7:32:47 PM): i dont care really
UblazRob (7:32:55 PM): TBH, I don't trust "I don't care"
UblazRob (7:32:57 PM): Because you do care
UblazRob (7:33:02 PM): If you didn't care, you wouldn't say "Not Alexis"
mymiddlefingr (7:33:11 PM): yeah but like why do i care?
mymiddlefingr (7:33:12 PM): honestly
UblazRob (7:33:14 PM): If you're worried I'll spill, don't be.
mymiddlefingr (7:33:15 PM): if we're gonna do them all
UblazRob (7:33:25 PM): Eliza...
mymiddlefingr (7:33:27 PM): like really why do i get so worried?
mymiddlefingr (7:33:33 PM): i'd prefer jaime or christy
UblazRob (7:33:36 PM): If I'm gonna get them to trust you at all
mymiddlefingr (7:33:36 PM): or even amanda
UblazRob (7:33:41 PM): I need a name.
mymiddlefingr (7:33:51 PM): well jaime is number 1 obviously
UblazRob (7:33:59 PM): Okay.
mymiddlefingr (7:34:00 PM): i would loev to see that
UblazRob (7:34:03 PM): Okay.
UblazRob (7:34:04 PM): Done.
mymiddlefingr (7:34:06 PM): that's why i originalyl said yes to fairplay
mymiddlefingr (7:34:13 PM): was because he said she'd be going really soon
UblazRob (7:34:20 PM): Well, we'll vote her this time.
UblazRob (7:34:26 PM): And, this time
UblazRob (7:34:31 PM): Do NOT switch your vote.
UblazRob (7:34:38 PM): No matter what they tell you
UblazRob (7:34:47 PM): No matter if they show you screenshots of other people's votes
UblazRob (7:34:50 PM): Do NOT
mymiddlefingr (7:34:56 PM): lol
mymiddlefingr (7:35:03 PM): if they show me screenshots i gotta worry some
mymiddlefingr (7:35:07 PM): but yeah i know what ur saying
mymiddlefingr (7:35:09 PM): done worry
UblazRob (7:35:10 PM): Screenshots are easily faked.
UblazRob (7:35:11 PM): Easily.
mymiddlefingr (7:35:14 PM): are they?
mymiddlefingr (7:35:22 PM): well if they do then i'll show you
UblazRob (7:35:23 PM): I could fake one in like three minutes.
mymiddlefingr (7:35:38 PM): and u can show me what makes it fake
UblazRob (7:35:45 PM): Eh, it's hard to prove.
UblazRob (7:35:46 PM): But
mymiddlefingr (7:35:47 PM): cause i'd have no idea
UblazRob (7:35:53 PM): Thinks about it
mymiddlefingr (7:35:58 PM): ya i guess
UblazRob (7:36:02 PM): They'll do anything to get you to vote with them
mymiddlefingr (7:36:04 PM): wait... yeah
mymiddlefingr (7:36:08 PM): you could just vote
mymiddlefingr (7:36:12 PM): can u change ur vote?
UblazRob (7:36:12 PM): And change it.
UblazRob (7:36:14 PM): Yeah
mymiddlefingr (7:36:15 PM): ya
mymiddlefingr (7:36:17 PM): screenshot
mymiddlefingr (7:36:18 PM): then change it
mymiddlefingr (7:36:19 PM): oh my god
UblazRob (7:36:20 PM): Yep
mymiddlefingr (7:36:21 PM): i feel stupid
UblazRob (7:36:29 PM): As I said
UblazRob (7:36:30 PM): It's easy
mymiddlefingr (7:37:00 PM): all right
mymiddlefingr (7:37:02 PM): and question
mymiddlefingr (7:37:07 PM): alexis KNOWS i talk to y'all
mymiddlefingr (7:37:09 PM): and will ask
mymiddlefingr (7:37:16 PM): and already thinks she's the target
mymiddlefingr (7:37:18 PM): so do i just...
UblazRob (7:37:26 PM): Tell her not to worry about it.
mymiddlefingr (7:37:28 PM): keep agreeing that she's the target or what?
mymiddlefingr (7:37:30 PM): okay
mymiddlefingr (7:37:37 PM): like those exact words?
UblazRob (7:37:38 PM): And, yeah, tell her she's the target.
UblazRob (7:37:41 PM): Uhhh
UblazRob (7:37:46 PM): Well, it depends on what she says
mymiddlefingr (7:37:51 PM): ya...
UblazRob (7:37:54 PM): You can tell her she's the target.
UblazRob (7:37:55 PM): I don't care.
UblazRob (7:37:56 PM): lol
UblazRob (7:38:00 PM): Currently, she IS.
UblazRob (7:38:03 PM): Until I change their minds.
mymiddlefingr (7:38:22 PM): i see why you'd think ur the next one on the list
mymiddlefingr (7:38:29 PM): but honestly, from what i've heard, it IS fairplay
UblazRob (7:38:33 PM): I know it is
UblazRob (7:38:35 PM): But I'm AFTER him.
mymiddlefingr (7:38:35 PM): but clearly ur running it more
mymiddlefingr (7:38:37 PM): i see
UblazRob (7:38:45 PM): Like, it goes
UblazRob (7:38:46 PM): Fairplay
UblazRob (7:38:47 PM): then me
mymiddlefingr (7:38:48 PM): well this would have been a lot easier
mymiddlefingr (7:38:49 PM): and smoother
UblazRob (7:38:50 PM): Then I don't care.
mymiddlefingr (7:38:58 PM): if i hadn't fucked everything up
UblazRob (7:38:58 PM): Because i'll be gone, so I don't care who they're after next
mymiddlefingr (7:39:22 PM): all right
mymiddlefingr (7:39:30 PM): will you tell me if they do what i expect them to?
mymiddlefingr (7:39:34 PM): and try to change it to me
mymiddlefingr (7:39:39 PM): cause i know they're gonna see that
mymiddlefingr (7:39:42 PM): like c'mon, it's easy
UblazRob (7:39:51 PM): I will.
mymiddlefingr (7:39:58 PM): they'll see they can only tie, they'll be like fuck eliza and come to y'all and try to get me out
UblazRob (7:40:04 PM): And, if it needs to happen, I'll give you the necklace.
UblazRob (7:40:11 PM): You got my word on that.
mymiddlefingr (7:40:30 PM): okie...
mymiddlefingr (7:40:33 PM): that's really extreme
mymiddlefingr (7:40:36 PM): but... i'll take it
mymiddlefingr (7:40:40 PM): just never heard it before
mymiddlefingr (7:40:44 PM): like, offered to me anyway
UblazRob (7:40:45 PM): Well, I know you're taking a big risk
UblazRob (7:40:53 PM): And I want you to know that I have your back.
UblazRob (7:40:55 PM): And if that's what it takes
mymiddlefingr (7:40:58 PM): what i shouldn't have done was listen to sarah and rack up a big score
UblazRob (7:40:58 PM): Then that's what it takes
mymiddlefingr (7:41:11 PM): good
mymiddlefingr (7:41:19 PM): i honestly dont really care if fairplay has my back
mymiddlefingr (7:41:28 PM): it's really hard for him to talk me into anything cause i just dont trust him
UblazRob (7:41:31 PM): But... just let me get the damn necklace first.
mymiddlefingr (7:41:31 PM): ... i dont know why
mymiddlefingr (7:41:43 PM): i'd much rather be dealing with you
UblazRob (7:41:51 PM): Hahaha
UblazRob (7:41:58 PM): Yeah, Fairplay always seems like a snake
mymiddlefingr (7:42:07 PM): LOL
mymiddlefingr (7:42:15 PM): he CHOSE fairplay
mymiddlefingr (7:42:32 PM): all right well...
mymiddlefingr (7:42:47 PM): sorry it was so difficult to really get through to me
mymiddlefingr (7:42:59 PM): i find it difficult to believe people could put up with me, lately
UblazRob (7:43:04 PM): *shrug*
UblazRob (7:43:07 PM): I'm very patient.
mymiddlefingr (7:43:24 PM):
mymiddlefingr (7:43:29 PM): i'm very annoying
UblazRob (7:43:36 PM): *shrug* I don't mind you.
mymiddlefingr (7:43:43 PM): well thnx
mymiddlefingr (7:43:48 PM): i'm also not a girl by the way
mymiddlefingr (7:43:54 PM): should just say that up front
mymiddlefingr (7:43:57 PM): i dont usually
mymiddlefingr (7:44:13 PM): i think marcus thinks i am a girl
mymiddlefingr (7:44:16 PM): and fairplay
mymiddlefingr (7:44:18 PM): not sure...
UblazRob (7:44:36 PM): lol
UblazRob (7:44:38 PM): No worries
UblazRob (7:44:40 PM): I'm not either
mymiddlefingr (7:44:47 PM): ya, i know
mymiddlefingr (7:44:51 PM): someone along the way told me
UblazRob (7:44:54 PM): I know
mymiddlefingr (7:44:55 PM): who knows tho
UblazRob (7:44:56 PM): I have that convo.
mymiddlefingr (7:45:00 PM): oh lol
mymiddlefingr (7:45:12 PM): was it alexis?
UblazRob (7:45:14 PM): No
UblazRob (7:45:15 PM): Amanda
mymiddlefingr (7:45:16 PM): i seem to remember it being her
mymiddlefingr (7:45:18 PM): oh amanda
mymiddlefingr (7:45:20 PM): ahhhh...
mymiddlefingr (7:45:23 PM): tit for tat i see
UblazRob (7:45:24 PM): I might have told Alexis I'm a dude, too
mymiddlefingr (7:45:45 PM): well now i dont feel so bad for sharing with you
mymiddlefingr (7:46:01 PM): you know, if thye want her out now, i would do that
mymiddlefingr (7:46:03 PM): she keeps bitching
mymiddlefingr (7:46:05 PM): and bitching
mymiddlefingr (7:46:18 PM): and said she was gonna quit and delete her account if more of these psoting challenges come
mymiddlefingr (7:46:20 PM): and all this shit
UblazRob (7:46:24 PM): Who? Amanda?
mymiddlefingr (7:46:28 PM): so if y'all want amanda, i'm also good with that
mymiddlefingr (7:46:29 PM): ya
mymiddlefingr (7:46:45 PM): sorry, wish it was last round that i saw all that
UblazRob (7:47:21 PM): Well, you choose
UblazRob (7:47:24 PM): Amanda or Jaime.
mymiddlefingr (7:47:24 PM): actually i am good with anyone, to be honest... i'll MAKE myself good with it
mymiddlefingr (7:47:28 PM): but if i can choose
mymiddlefingr (7:47:29 PM): then jaime
UblazRob (7:47:32 PM): Okay.
mymiddlefingr (7:47:35 PM): like if it's just that easy
UblazRob (7:47:35 PM): I'll make it happen.
UblazRob (7:47:47 PM): Well, my plan is
UblazRob (7:47:52 PM): I'm gonna tell them
UblazRob (7:47:55 PM): "Eliza wants Jaime"
UblazRob (7:48:06 PM): And if any of Jon/Marcus/Jane/Tyrone comes to you
UblazRob (7:48:11 PM): You have to tell them Jaime.
mymiddlefingr (7:48:14 PM): okie
UblazRob (7:48:21 PM): Don't say you're cool with anything
UblazRob (7:48:23 PM): Say you want Jaime.
mymiddlefingr (7:48:30 PM): i can do that
mymiddlefingr (7:49:11 PM): i do talk to marcus somewhat often
mymiddlefingr (7:49:20 PM): is tyrone brownlost?
mymiddlefingr (7:49:24 PM): or one of his aliases?
mymiddlefingr (7:49:42 PM): if so, just dont tell him who i am, if you know
mymiddlefingr (7:49:47 PM): like from previous games
mymiddlefingr (7:49:52 PM): cause he just wont like that
UblazRob (7:50:49 PM): He might be
UblazRob (7:50:53 PM): I don't know Tyrone
UblazRob (7:50:55 PM): All that well
UblazRob (7:51:00 PM): But, no
UblazRob (7:51:05 PM): You dont' have to go tell them
UblazRob (7:51:09 PM): But if they ask
UblazRob (7:51:12 PM): Then say you'll do it
mymiddlefingr (7:51:16 PM): all right
mymiddlefingr (7:51:32 PM): so ur saying for me to be honest
mymiddlefingr (7:51:35 PM): lol...
UblazRob (7:51:41 PM): Indeed.
mymiddlefingr (7:51:42 PM): that's a hard one for me a lot of the time but all right
UblazRob (7:51:46 PM): Wait
UblazRob (7:51:49 PM): If that's a hard one
mymiddlefingr (7:51:55 PM): that's a joke... jokish
UblazRob (7:51:56 PM): How I do I know you've been honest with me
mymiddlefingr (7:51:56 PM):
UblazRob (7:51:58 PM): Ever?
UblazRob (7:52:00 PM): ;o
mymiddlefingr (7:52:07 PM): sorry
mymiddlefingr (7:52:17 PM): i like to make really bad jokes at bad times
mymiddlefingr (7:52:21 PM): or i mean, it happens
UblazRob (7:52:46 PM): lol
UblazRob (7:52:48 PM): No worries
UblazRob (7:52:57 PM): Alright, my current total is like 3455
UblazRob (7:52:59 PM): Er
UblazRob (7:53:00 PM): 345
mymiddlefingr (7:53:03 PM): LOL
mymiddlefingr (7:53:05 PM): AMAZING!
UblazRob (7:53:12 PM): And I have 110 more wheat comin' in.
mymiddlefingr (7:53:25 PM): good job
mymiddlefingr (7:53:28 PM): omfg
UblazRob (7:53:46 PM): *shrug*
mymiddlefingr (7:53:59 PM): it was a fun challenge i thought
UblazRob (7:54:04 PM): So
mymiddlefingr (7:54:05 PM): different
UblazRob (7:54:12 PM): If you really want to go nuts, then, yeah, go nuts.
UblazRob (7:54:12 PM): lol
UblazRob (7:54:20 PM): But, I'd recommend letting me have this one.
mymiddlefingr (7:54:21 PM): lol no i've been off for awhile
mymiddlefingr (7:54:24 PM): and i got nothing planted
UblazRob (7:54:26 PM): And, again
mymiddlefingr (7:54:26 PM): i am good
UblazRob (7:54:32 PM): I'll definitely give it to you if the need arises
mymiddlefingr (7:54:46 PM): is that even possible?
UblazRob (7:54:53 PM): Yeah
UblazRob (7:54:55 PM): It's in the rules
mymiddlefingr (7:55:02 PM): like u just gotta do it before votes are read?
mymiddlefingr (7:55:03 PM): i see
UblazRob (7:55:04 PM): Yeah
mymiddlefingr (7:55:07 PM): am i right abt tie breakers?
UblazRob (7:55:10 PM): I don't know
UblazRob (7:55:12 PM): Didn't check
mymiddlefingr (7:55:14 PM): i see
UblazRob (7:55:22 PM): Alright, I'm gonna go for a bit
mymiddlefingr (7:55:25 PM): okie yeah
mymiddlefingr (7:55:27 PM): sounds good
UblazRob (7:55:31 PM): I'll be back to harvest mah wheat
UblazRob (7:55:32 PM): lol
mymiddlefingr (7:55:41 PM): talk to you later... thnx for talking
mymiddlefingr (7:55:45 PM): i feel a bit better
UblazRob (7:55:45 PM): No prob
UblazRob (7:55:49 PM): Thanks for letting me win
UblazRob (7:55:50 PM): lol
mymiddlefingr (7:55:55 PM): no prob
UblazRob (7:56:01 PM): You legit have no idea how much I apprecaite it
mymiddlefingr (7:56:09 PM):
mymiddlefingr (7:56:19 PM): well.... glad
mymiddlefingr (7:56:26 PM): lol... talk to ya later
mymiddlefingr (7:56:50 PM): kick ass at the challenge

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[Eliza Orlins]

and then i stopped doing the challenge.




and i got up and walked away, hanging my head deep in shame. DEEEEEEP in shame.

















and i can almost guarantee you where i'm walking towards is home.

[Eliza Orlins]

fucking P-S-Y-C-H-O